June 2019

I’m Glad My Antennae Are Working!

June 25, 2019 / / Energy Connection, Faith and Trust, GAYA, Gratitude, Intuition

I had a rear-bumper-bender on June 4th.  Thankfully, after the bumper was taken off the car was still operable.   What followed was a week of  receiving information.  I got ‘her’ to a body shop for a damage repair estimate.  Would my car be totaled?  This prospect didn’t rest well with me.    In the past 6 months I had spent well over one thousand dollars in repairs!  A 1999 Chevrolet Malibu doesn’t have much book value, but she has much heart value to me.  Her gas mileage is outstanding (23-28 mpg in town), and besides, she’s the vehicle I had purchased  in 2011, just prior to the death of my eldest son.  I had relied on her to make several trips  when I retrieved his belongings, and I was so grateful ‘we’ accomplished those trips without event.  That’s how she got her name:  Angel. 

After discussion with my son and deliberation over my options, I decided to keep the car and have her repaired.  I know her better than I would another used car that would most probably have its own set of problems.

It’s June 25th, Angel hasn’t come home yet.  On the 19th, I returned my rental, knowing I could manage without a car for a ‘period of time.’  At the latest, I thought she’d be back by yesterday.

As I’ve stated many times, Life is a Series of Events.  I’m sharing this experience to express my gratitude for the privilege of living my life, as these events occur.  During this time I have relied upon my intuition, and I am aware that it feels like I am going with the flow.  I had even gone to the store before returning the rental to pick up a few items, just to be safe.  When I was in the store, I kept thinking get cat food.  I bantered with myself back and forth…the car would be back in but a few days…no, I don’t need it…or, do I?  I walked away from the pet food aisle, and stopped.  Go back and get cat food!  As it turned out, today I ran out.  Not to worry,  as I looked at the bag on the shelf and smiled.

This is my testimony and my affirmation of my gratitude.  I am so grateful when I am able to witness these series of events and recognize that this is what it means when I am in tune.   It will be nice to have Angel back home.

We’re together in all of these events.  We’re in your heart space.     ~Gaya

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

 

 

 

God Grant Me the Serenity to Accept the Things I Cannot Change and Change the Things I Can…In ME!

June 11, 2019 / / Conscious Awareness, Faith and Trust, GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, Humility, Living in the NOW, Responsibility, Source Energy, Truth to Self

When I am in problem – especially repetitive problem – it is good to try to put into perspective why I choose to view my problems as such hindrance, as against such privilege for me to gain awareness.  It is all too easy to immediately point fingers outward at people or circumstances and make them the objects of  why my life has chaos in it. Of course, my reaction to everything is key, but as I sit in the silence right now writing this blog, I can’t circumvent the fact that if I choose to be affected by anything outside of me, I have chosen to be attached to it in some way.

At birth I was physically detached from my mother when the umbilical cord was severed.  Henceforth, I became emotionally attached, totally dependent upon her nurturing and physical sustenance.  In the process of maturing, I learned rules and social skills from everyone I was around.  School became the first introduction to existence within another social setting and exposed me to academia and socialization in preparation for my entrance into the world as an independent human being, presumably ready to care for myself and become successful in my own life.

Trial and error, tripping and falling and getting back up for another stab at succeeding became routine. Through the years this process became easier because I learned I was capable; I was resilient; I was Faithful and Hopeful that this process of living life was totally worth it;  I was Blessed to have met certain Earth Angels who guided me and loved me through some difficult times; circumstances offered me opportunities along the way too – some of which I grabbed onto and some I missed.

Through all this, what can I apply to continue on my Forever Path with more ease?  Today I sit in the silence and again realize I need to find the answers within me.  I need to clarify my perception of my position within the chaos.   As much as I certainly do need others around me – friends, colleagues, peers, and neighbors – I am essentially alone.  The chaos I am feeling, is none other than my attachment.

Life serves itself up to me every day!  I live in the NOW of my life the best I can.  Life is nothing more than continuous NOWS, which fleet into PASTS.  Attachment is in the mind and wreaks havoc!

I need to let everything and everyone BE and I need to unconditionally accept ALL as it IS.  This goes for  accepting ME too!  I am FREE to change my perceptions to suit my Joy, Happiness and Peace.  I must be KIND in the face of adversity…kind to others and to myself as well.  This is a GENEROUS act.  I am Grateful.

My saving Grace is my desire and willingness and courage to change the things I can…ME.

We are your support, your anchor, your wind in your sails. We become One in your Hope and Faith.   ~Gaya

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

             

Love is Of Itself.

June 7, 2019 / / Conscious Awareness, Energy Connection, GAYA, Grace, Honoring Intention, Humility, It's all in the Energy, Peace and Understanding, Self-fulfillment, Source Energy

Life can be such a hustle-bustle sometimes!  As a ‘woman of years in the “Middle” of my life’, I keep trying to see the beauty, the good, the remarkable, the peaceful, the joyful side of life…it’s what keeps me keeping on!  I’m a proponent of The Law of Attraction, and I make conscious effort to keep  my innermost Self  connected to Source Energy.  I believe  the energy that comes from me is exactly the energy which will be returned to me in life experience.

On any given day, I awaken to the NOW, and usually,  the day unfolds happily to moments of fruitful labor around my house, or from other intentional activities.  I entertain light-hearted loving thoughts.  I forget that my love to others is the greatest gift I can give.  The more unconditional it is, the more powerful it is as it leaves me and finds its way to someone else.  It’s not even a deliberate action by me…it is by nature an extension of me.  I’m not even aware of the many different displays that my love shows.  It just happens when it happens and all is well, until there’s a disruption…a backlash…a crashing sound to my beingness that hurts!  Oh, does it hurt!  Of course, I dig deep into my thoughts wondering how this can happen when essentially I know my intentions are good.

Love displays differently…from a smile, to  any number of simple kind actions – even a spontaneous gift.  When we display our  love to our dearest ones, it is that deep-love connection that kindles our feelings in warm and sincere ways, and there’s no telling how it manifests its goodness.  How, then, can such a selfless action result in hurt?

I’ve come to now believe when I give love it is the giving of Essential Self and there can be no room for hurt or disappointment.  It is when I make it personal, I feel hurt.  But love isn’t personal…it just IS.  It is our natural, essential state of being.   Said a different way:  a person needs money, and I ask “how much do you need?”  The person answers “twenty-five dollars will do”, and I respond, “take fifty, just in case.”   All in good will. All from the heart.  All in the name of love. I have it to give. If it is paid back, this is good.  If it is not, it is still good.

When a person means well, and in good heart acts accordingly, this intention is love.  What the recipient does with a loving gift need not concern  the giver.       ~Gaya 

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.