GAYA

Today has been a momentus day!  So many things arose that needed correction!  Mechanical things…technical things…things I’ve always told myself that have been difficult or near impossible for me to figure out! BUT, TODAY, it has been different!

Today has been the day I worked with myself. Instead of going into some sort of a panic, I stayed relaxed and calm.  It was as if I ‘assumed’ my capability and I trusted the help I may need was going to be there for me to accomplish what had to be accomplished. I remained in touch with myself  and my intention.  Well, folks, everything got handled.  Easy Peasy.

This is a huge understanding/awareness and it is difficult to explain, other than that I practiced what I’ve been preaching!  I accepted in faith my power.  The answers just didn’t pour into me, but my tenacity and belief that I could figure it out by asking my computer questions, over and over again, with trials and errors, until the solutions appeared.  Bottom line, I DID IT!

No question, our minds make or break our accomplishments! They can give us hope and optimism or they can bring us to our knees in powerlessness with no belief of success.

I can do what I want to do as long as I keep the faith in myself and my essence. I am inextricaably connected to and unconditionally loved and supported by God, Source, Universe, Creator.  There is no stopping my abilities and capabilities. It thrills me to pass this on!

Blessed Be. To All Be Blessed.

To ask is to be given. To believe it is to see it.   ~ Gaya

Things become so twisted when someone assumes what you’re thinking and then they act on their ‘clairvoyance’, not the truth!

I was in a phone conversation the other day, and nearing the end the other party said something like “you seem annoyed with me so I’ll just go”, and I said “okay”, and we hung up. The fact is, I wasn’t annoyed at all, I was somewhat confused with how the conversation was going and I had just asked for some clarification to what was said, and then came the above response.

Someone had assumed, or ‘read my tone’, or whatever, and put the disconnect on me.  This wasn’t about me! A simple question as to whether or not I was annoyed would have settled the whole thing.

I remember learning many years ago that the easiest way to know I am shifting blame is when my words have a “YOU” in them, i.e., “I think that You…”, or “You should….”, “I’m upset because You….”.,,or case in point “You seem annoyed…”.

If I come from the place of “I feel”, i.e., “I don’t feel heard”, “I feel I’m being placated”, “I feel I’m being treated rudely”, I am owning how I feel, but not blaming another for feeling that way.  The long and the short of it is that if I feel the way I do it is because of whatever reaction I’m having to what someone else is doing or saying.  It’s my trigger! I’m the one who has to settle my feelings within myself and figure it out. Only I can give me my peace.

Knowing myself is a big deal!  I’m responsible for how I perceive others’ words, events, anything. If I question something, I know I can ask to get an affirmation of my own understanding, or I can get a correction.  The final assessment is still up to me and it is I who lives with that and trusting myself.

Being comfortable with myself is a big deal!  I have no intention to be unkind or rude to anyone.  If someone has an axe to grind they’ll have to grind it on their own grinding stone.

In life I have to sift the wheat from the chaff. In so doing,  It’s a part of loving myself and taking good care of myself. It’s a part of keeping my own standards of peace and happiness. It’s about trusting myself and my own intuition. It’s about believing myself. It’s about upholding my integrity.

“To Thine Own Self Be True.” Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

Actions speak louder than words.   ~Gaya

 

 

The HERE, the NOW, the PRESENT…all one and the same. There’s no escaping WHAT IS!  Some may think they’re stuck with it…I happen to believe I’m Blessed with it.

I know I expound often on what a privilege I think LIFE is to be lived.  It’s such a joy to use my SELF as I participate. Living alone, this is what is available to me:  my personal input, my self-honesty, my authenticity during my days, my observations as I proceed intuitively ofttimes with no thinking, just responding to what has presented to me.  This is, in fact, when I commence a blog.

I find it so interesting when I am introspective and I challenge myself to the truth:  what am I thinking? Why am I thinking this? is this from my ego or from my heart? Do I approve or disapprove and why?  What is my motive, do I have an agenda? What is my purpose of the moment?

It’s not about what others think anymore. What a relief this is! It’s about interrogating myself and answering truthfully.

If I do need validation, thankfully I have someone I can turn to.  We all need someone who has no vested interest in us other than they honestly care and have exhibited this time and again.

I want to feel whole and competent… and so far so good.  There is pure joy in living and doing and being.  There is pure joy in sitting in the silence and listening. There is pure joy in believing I am worth it and honoring that worth. And, whatever I offer to myself, I freely can give to another:  my attention and care and effort to enhance their present moment.

Blessed Be. To All Be Blessed.

All answers come from within. Truths do set you free.  ~ Gaya

 

Life can appear as a whirlwind sometimes…and if I let my thoughts pick up and attach and define, I do myself a true disservice.

I’ve been able to observe change, my ego’s attempts to disrupt me even more, and my ability to hold the course of desired peace in my heart.

I am filled with relief, and gratitude, and pleasant surprise, self-awareness, and astounding presence. I believe I have taken a step upward in learning, i.e., upward in the vertical(spiritual) dimension, as against a traditional effort in the horizontal (human) dimension. I have made a conscious decision to hand over the reins and allow my Deep I to lead me. For those readers who are followers of Eckhart Tolle, you will understand what I mean here.

My understanding and spiritual progress is within me and that’s where it belongs.  There doesn’t have to be testament to the intricacies of my process.

It would seem I have created a conundrum or a contradiction; however, I’m merely trying to exemplify what a satisfying experience it is to hold inside myself the ‘meat and potatoes’ of my spiritual progress as I’m writing this blog, yet I want others to also know that it is occurring. I want to give others hope if they have been searching for relief in their own lives and have yet to receive it that it does come and at precisely the right time…CONTINUE IN FAITH.

Now more than ever I intend to keep my own counsel with the understanding that to explode all to the outside does in fact have a diluting effect to a point.  I’m feeling my strength impacting me within and it’s accompanied with a silent understandng that ego must stand down.

I hope this blog can be helpful.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

There are some things which are beyond definition

and explanation.  This may be one such time.     Gaya

 

 

These days I’m choosing to sit in stillness more…and I’m trying to accomplish something for doing it:  I want to  place myself  in a state of consciousness.  In doing this, I’m silently communicating with who I am in this silence.

This is an unguided experience so I can’t be concerned if I’m doing it ‘right!’  It’s an action by me with me.

I don’t think Living is just all about doing an overt action or speaking out loud. I’m learning that it has a great deal to do with the silence involved because in silence there is perfect calm along with wakefulness and deliberate intention too.

Meditation is similar to this, but it isn’t the same somehow. With meditation I begin with trying to sit in the silence and quiet my mind.  When I go to this place of finding consciousness, I am hearing sound (I ring a chime), and then deliberately follow the sound until I do not hear it anymore.  I guess I can liken it to ‘white noise’ when I have TV on in the background.  Eventually, I am working around the house and don’t even hear it anymore unless I deliberately go stand in front of the TV and put my attention to it.

This is another concept about deliberate effort while living. I am realizing that I have been ‘living by the basics’…the rules and definitions that have been taught to me…the Human side of me. I’m finding out that there is so much more  about my existence and it doesn’t have a thing to do with neighbors or friends, or what I’m eating or wearing or where I’m planning to go or what I’m planning to do when I get there!

My little dog, Porter, shows me how this is done too.  He’s very active and wants my attention especially early morning when we get up.  He sort of pesters.  Then, after a while, he simply lays down by my feet and goes into his own silence.  He’s undisturbed while I’m working at the computer.  He remains in his own silence and consciousness and he isn’t concerned about me or himself at all until I get up from my chair.

So, what do I conclude in sharing this with you?  The stillness in my life brings me in touch with ME, my real beingness…and this concept is totally removed from ME, Kaye A. Peters. I don’t have an identity when I do this…I am part of all life which isn’t speaking to itself, it just exists..it just IS.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

You find your Peace and Understanding in your own good time.   ~Gaya

   

Today my houseguest left to move into her own space.  It’s a happy day for her and for me, but not one of ‘relief’; rather, my feelings are of personal satisfaction and happiness that I was able to complete my personal COMMITMENT . I’m a much better person in most every way! It’s sort of like I’ve been on a retreat for these past 7 weeks.

I don’t think I have ever been so consistently and deliberately authentic with another person.   We had determined we had to interact this way in order to keep our open communication on the same page.  Believe me, folks, if you have the opportunity or desire to make a positive difference in your own life, take it from me, there’s a stack of rewards from your effort that comes to you.

My son will be arriving within a couple of weeks and he and a friend will spend the night and then return home. ln mid-December he will return for an extended stay.He has his own rig with living accommodations.  I am looking forward to his visit because I have the same COMMITMENT in mind and already I am swirling with ideas of how I can be, helpful, considerate, understanding, compassionate and fair-minded.  I always have love in my heart, but as I have experienced from time-to-time sometimes  something can go haywire and off track.

I intend to use my entire experience of these past weeks…what a training session, with first-hand knowledge to rely upon.

One thing’s for sure, it is I who must carry the torch to success!

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

Intention with effort is everything. Always do your part.   ~Gaya

is everything.  Light-heartedness goes a long way too.  ~  Gaya

 

This is a continuation of my personal experience with COMMITMENT!

I don’t think I’ve ever learned so much in such a short period of time than during the past month since my friend arrived to stay with me for these weeks.

To offer some background, we met on the internet, had spoken a few times on Zoom, and were members of a group. Our initial introduction was, perhaps, 1 1/2 to 2 years ago and our contact certainly wasn’t daily….more like monthly.

Fast forward to the present when events happened and she called me to inquire whether she could come stay with me for a time while she found  her own place in my town. She was familiar with the state of New Mexico. We were ‘adult’ about it before any decision could be made, and ultimately we ‘committed’ to doing it and we were absolutely going to do our parts to make it work!  At this time I had no clue that I was doing myself the biggest favor of my life!

Any relationship has its issues as we all know, but honestly, this whole process has been so enlightening to us both because we know that commitment means “no other alternative”, and so we both have put on our ‘big-girl britches’ and we are totally pledged to not only making it work, but we are enjoying this privilege in our lives.

I am aware that I ‘want’ to bend for the sake of our success toward our commitment. In this process, a sensation comes over me, i.e., I feel compassion sometimes, I feel selflessness sometimes, I feel excitement sometimes when I observe such positive results which come from no inconvenience on my part, but rather, from a sincere endeavor by me.  It’s easy to reflect on those times in my life when it was apparent my focus was so far away from this kind of attitude.

Please understand this is difficult to describe, but it is happening, and I am a far better person for it.  I am expanding my capacity for understanding and altruistic thinking.  Plainly, I am caring outside of myself and it feels wonderful and not only that, I feel like I am completing myself in some important way as a human being.

Incidentally, my friend and I have conversations about this, and her experience is similar.

So, my friends, this is my story and I’m sticking to it!  Ha! 🙂

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

Amen…And So It Is.    ~Gaya

 

I’ve been realizing these days that I am the only one who can give myself peace of mind.  This said, I don’t spend much time mulling things in my mind which wastes my time…if I observe myself doing it. I try to be more centered on thoughts that fill me up with enthusiasm for life and doing things which project my optimism moment by moment.  I really do spend a great deal of time expressing my gratitude for so many things.

I wrote a poster not long ago which defined “Commitment” as no other option.  Gosh, believing this makes life even simpler, albeit more serious as well.  To me it’s satisfying that I can propose options to myself to most everything when it comes to choices.  Subsequently, I already know  that I will like the outcome because of the intentional actions I take.

I can take  mystery out of my life on a daily basis, and welcome what presents to me which is the joy of living in the NOW. And, when I am then faced with more choices, I can review what I will and won’t commit to, and what I will allow occupancy in my day for the entertainment and pleasantry for as long as I wish.

We all know worry does nothing but upset us.  We also know that acceptance is a key to streamlining our days and relaxing in the flow of the action.  I also keep reminding myself that it is I who dictates where I will stand…I am not a tree, I can move around any which way to get my footing and reposition myself.  Like I said in one of my books, I believe if I made my bed I have to sleep in it; however, I can move it around any way I want in this process.  Nothing is so ultimate except death….and perhaps regret,

I have a friend staying with me for 6 weeks.  We both made a commitment to make it work. We don’t know each other very well,  so we are customizing our positions with pure consideration for each other.  This isn’t always easy, but we continue to remind ourselves that we committed to the arrangement for our individual reasons.  I’m glorifying my position in this, because I  have begun to realize what it takes to commit to something/someone and how important my word and actions are.  They are absolute!!  I am proud of myself and also, I am learning such vital lessons yet to learn this late in my life about how to make the best of everything.  I have been given a great personal life  opportunity by fulfilling this commitment. I realize how instrumental I am about everything in my daily life and how it affects me and others.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

Gratitude is a Connection to Everything.   ~Gaya

 

 

 

 

It’s kind of like keeping my word…it involves being true to self…it’s about living each day on purpose.  THIS IS WHAT SHOWING UP MEANS TO ME.

As I continue to grow older (which is an amazement to me, believe me), I’ve become not only grateful for the opportunity to keep on living and enjoying life,  I want to show up every day with enthusiasm and eagerness as I greet every morning.  I want Porter, my little enjoyable companion, to feel safe and secure just as I try to keep myself the same way.

I want my attitude and actions to reflect just how sincere I am about giving as much of myself to this life as I can.  There is nothing about life which is lackadaisical as far as I see it. It involves acceptance and interest and creativity and sincerity and love of myself and other living beings and continuous reminders to myself that I am inextricably connected to, and unconditionally loved and supported by God, Universe, Creator, Higher Intelligence…whatever you choose to call it. And along with this, I couple with my Faith that I am continuously creating my own joy and happiness while I live  every moment, as I live in the NOW.

It’s not about making my mark while I spend my time on this earth, but it is about holding myself accountable to make my life count in respect and gratitude for the gift I have been given to live it. I want to feel that I have become better every day, as well as useful. I want to spend my time in a worthwhile way.  This includes resting in the silence of it all.  I always want to provide myself the space to acknowledge the expanse of the universe and what a small particle of it I am within it.  Appreciation for all the blessings and grace I’ve enjoyed is big too.  And, above all, Gratitude for this grace as I recover from my missteps along my Forever Path.

I am confident that my conscious efforts are supported.  I consider myself in a silent partnership with my Creator.  I exalt this.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

Connection…          ~Gaya

 

This past week I did some planting. My friend offered me some very small saplings from a tree in her yard, along with some Mexican Bird of Paradise sprouts.

Our weather has just begun to turn to Spring, and this kind of work has to be done when it’s not so windy! On the spur-of-the-moment, last Monday was the digging and planting day to get these into the ground and hope for the best.  I had some compost which I’ve cultivated this past year  so I used some in each hole as I went along.  I also had two Hesper  aloe cacti which I had started from seeds I took from my home in Phoenix, and had ‘hardened’ them as well the week before, so I intended to dig them in too.

That’s what I love about living in the NOW! I just never know how I am going to create my life and circumstances!  I had to clear away weeds and other debris in the areas I planned to plant before I worked even harder digging in four trees, and was totally random about how I was spacing them.  I dug the wells around them and filled them up with water. The Bird of Paradise and cacti had to wait till the next day,  cuz I was whipped! So far so good!

Next day, I finished the job, and now I admire my work.  Every morning since, I get out there to make sure everything is still alive, and thankfully, I’m still seeing some green.  I’m extremely hopeful that the plantings will survive and thrive.  There’s no telling how long I’ll be admiring them, but my effort and intention is the most important. I’m beautifying DreamCatcher Ranch on the outside and the inside, just as I try to beautify my own mind when it comes to how I think and how happy and joyful I am each day.

Nothing gets done by itself.  It needs my help all of the time.  The wonderful part of all this is we are the dictators of our thoughts.  I can replace sad or worrisome or unhealthy thinking with inspirations.  I am my own Fairy Godmother! I guess that’s why I’ve always loved projects so much.  Once I begin, they take on a shape and character of their own and the results are so self-fulfilling.

Blessed Be. To All Be Blessed.

Loving brings out your best.     ~Gaya