It’s important to me that I be as current and transparent as possible.  This said, as I was meditating this morning, it came to me that I was feeling like I had to correct something.  That I wasn’t feeling as calm as I want to be.  And, the next thought was, what is wrong with my thoughts that is causing my ‘dis-ease’?

Who says there is anything wrong with my thoughts?  ME!  As I further cogitated, it came to me WHY IS IT I ALWAYS LOOK TO MYSELF AS THE CULPRIT?  DOES THERE EVEN HAVE TO BE A CULPRIT?

I continued to let my thoughts wander…as this blog is like a journal, you as the reader, are witness to my process.

It occurred to me that I am not feeling like I am in chaos.  I am not feeling that I am out of control, even though events around me are seemingly ‘not coming together so easily’.  I am still pretty calm about it as a whole.

It appears that I am witnessing me in action…  As if I am outside of myself observing my feelings and trying to identify what place “I” or “Kaye” has in the experiences.

Going deeper, I am now able to see there really is nothing ‘wrong’.  It is what it is, and I am handling the outcomes as they unfold.  This is such an unusual approach for me.  I don’t think I have ever been quite  so objective about the process of living, with me at the center.  I am affirming myself  in this process.

This is another facet of going with the flow, only I’m more aware of it right now.  To be more clear:  my car is still not running right, and today it will be towed away to another mechanic who will be working with the mechanic who has been diligently on it for several days.  Thankfully, I can use my son’s other car which is here.  I am healthy. My house is in order.  The weather is slowly becoming cooler and I am able to do some yard work that I’ve been looking forward to doing.  My conscience is clear.  I count my Blessings and I am so grateful for what I have.  I continue to enjoy the privilege of living my life and the journey.  I am feeling myself coming into more conscious awareness.  I am beginning to realize that just because I can observe that something may be disheveled, it doesn’t make it ‘wrong’ or problematic.  It just requires me to come up with a satisfactory solution.  I do not have to rile in the meanwhile.  I love the way I’m thinking. I am so grateful for my resilience.  I think I’ve said enough for now.  This is the start of another wonderful day.

Blessed Be.  Be Safe, Stay Well.

You aren’t quitting or retreating or caving

in when things aren’t going as planned.

  It merely requires reassessing and relying upon your wholeness

to meet whatever you are required to do to keep moving forward.    ~Gaya