January 2023

Getting Down To It…’Bout Time!

January 27, 2023 / / Conscious Awareness, GAYA, Honoring Intention, Mindfulness

I could hardly wait to get here!

I’ve been wrestling with overeating for about a month and a half!  This is a bothersome state of affairs as far as I’m concerned, and everyday I find myself ignoring my wishes …or my intention…and just keep doing what I want to do! You see, that’s it:  I fight with myself about what I do, and what I want to intend to do!

For so many mornings, I approach the new day with what I want to intend to do, and by early afternoon, I sabotage my plans…a very willful act!

I asked for help yesterday, and this morning I’ve begun thinking a new way:  I have to get out of my human self and link with my Spiritual Essence.  This business of hanging out in this material world and then professing a spiritual connection has to be evidenced by my own deliberate meld.

I looked at my little Porter and stated out loud, “I am a living being and so are you!  We are one! You love me unconditionally and I look after your needs with love and compassion because you cannot do it alone.”  And, then I extended this thought and realized that everything I come into contact with… as close as my own home… cannot do well without me, and I became mindful that I am enhanced by the warmth of my home in this current cold weather.  I am self-fulfilled by the energy I exert when I beautify this place I dreamed about and chose and love .. I began to realize the interaction which takes place because of my mindfulness and feelings of this deeper connection to everything. Gratitude comes as I feel this deep connection.

I feel my complicit behavior to that which is around me…Like this morning when I donned a sweater that I’ve owned for more than 25 years.  I wore it when I taught school all those many years ago!  I had relegated it to the  ‘wear-it-when-you’re-doing- real-work-around-the-place drawer!”  But this morning, I gleefully brought it out and loudly stated, “I still love this sweater!” and it feels so good wearing it again!

When I sat at the breakfast table I was thankful for my food in a much different way. I realized I had  fed the birds earlier this cold morning, and I was thankful I did that as well – consciously aware I had taken care of them too and I was thankful I had the bird food to do it.

This business of “getting down to it” is so very intimately connected to my life and the way I live it.  It’s about inclusion…including all else in my life picture. It’s about selflessness. It’s about the realization that I am cloaked by so very much around me which supplies my every need. It’s about realizing I am living under Grace. It’s about appreciation and honoring my entire existence and the existence of all else as well.  It’s about all the creature comforts I have and wanting to extend comfort to that which needs me.

I think I more fully understand  the statement I’ve made so often:  “I am inextricably connected to and unconditionally loved and supported by God.”  I now feel that in reverse.  “ALL ELSE is inextricably connected and unconditionally loved and supported by Me.”  What an Onion Peel!  I DON’T EVER WANT TO LOSE THIS THOUGHT.

I believe I have a newfound respect for my responsibility to me.

Blessed Be. To All Be Blessed.

‘Understanding’ is humbling and powerful.   ~Gaya

 

I Do What I Do and For Whom?

January 7, 2023 / / GAYA, Uncategorized

When I began this blog at 78, I had an unspoken commitment to nurture it and to make at least one contribution each month.  It has been a fulfilling experience all these years, along with my entire life!  I’ve come to the conclusion that my life is nothing less than a live stream, no different than when I go online to share in person with my online friends… the difference being  my life is private and my actual live streams ‘go public’.

In this past year, I have shared how grateful I am for everything I have.  I’ve shared my experiences which seemed to me noteworthy for public consumption because I felt they may be motivational for others no matter how old or where they are on their Forever Path. My entries are more like a wide-open journal. I’ve shied away from offering advice, and what I say always comes to my own attention for a learning before anything else it was meant to be. I’ve realized that it is something within me which explodes into words and it is for my own consumption first. The same goes for whatever I write online in Facebook. My personal contentment is apparent to me and whether others appreciate my efforts and intention is nice to know, but this is not my motivation anymore. It is important that I APPRECIATE AND ENJOY IT and I do.

“To Thine Own Self Be True” are words that are inside me as a monitor. Everyone follows their own drum beat. Inspiration is the star in our soul that highlights our beginnings again and again which foster our thrills and joys of living our lives the way we do.

Today I’m finishing the painting project I began around Thanksgiving. Of course, I wasn’t painting every day. I had to take my time and the result is very satisfying.  As ‘life has it’, there have been interruptions which took priority. But that’s to be expected, right?  Life interrupts itself all the time and that’s the quirk which, out of acceptance, keeps me fluid and on my toes and ‘with it’!

This blog has been a meandering of my mind which I have chosen to share spontaneously.

What a wonderful way to live...spontaneously, in the NOW.  Oh, and I’m having another houseguest in a few weeks…someone I’ve known online for a few years now, and she’s coming to meet me in person on her way to California.  It is events like these that are poignant.

In summation, just as Frank sang away, “I did it my way”!  This is all about authenticity and knowing myself and learning and sharing and caring about what’s important to my heart and beingness.

January 7th already…I’ll quietly go about my business while I continue to fill myself up.

Blessed Be, To All Be Blessed.

Feeling connections from the inside is a Blessing.   ~Gaya

    ~Gaya