It is very early in the morning and I couldn’t get my writer’s hat on fast enough!  (Feels like ‘the days of the journal’!)

I had thoughts in my mind this morning the minute I awoke.   I have been writing and talking about getting to know myself, excavating and digging deeper and deeper as I uncover and discard that which doesn’t suit me anymore, and certainly doesn’t prove to be my truth anymore.  I am feeling so good.  I continue enjoying the privilege of living and then it came to me:  I JUST MIGHT BE CONTENT!  What a lovely word, “Content”.  Webster defines it thus:  “1.  happy enough with what one has or is; not desiring something more or different; satisfied. …”.  It feels mighty good to be content.  I don’t feel like I’ve ‘arrived’…no, not even close to this…more, I feel like I can now look around, absolutely love myself and how I have been learning about mySELF and I want to continue on this path of living with confidence and ease and grace.  Of course, I will continue to fulfill myself in whatever way makes me happy while I try to make others happy as well.

Because we never ‘arrive’, one may misunderstand the “Yet?” piece.  If one hasn’t done this or that “yet”, one may feel that they are not fulfilled, or haven’t measured up to what others do.   It’s no good to compare myself to another.    It is good to strike my own balance and be my own ‘self-starter’.  Pick what I want to do, whether it be a project or a thing on my ‘things to do list’, and be self-satisfied with my effort.

I have found myself ‘reporting’ almost daily to my friends – explaining what I’m going to do, how I’m feeling, what I think is coming next, how I want to change this or that…. It’s like a tally  I am keeping  and it feels almost like I’m being force-fed some need to update my life or give a progress report or something.  It just occurred to me that no one is asking me how I am or what I am up to…..I’m the one generating my status.   What’s up with this anyway?   This is a different kind of a rat on a wheel I think.  It feels like  I’m in a group therapy session almost every day!

I don’t have any “Yet?” in my head.  My life has purpose each day I open my eyes…a new day…the operative word is “new”.

For everyone who has taken on the  ‘ideal of wanting to become someone ‘:      If I want to be a public speaker, for instance, I don’t stop all the other engines in my living and work…. I can’t afford to.   If I stop paying attention to my other responsibilities in my life as I believe them to be, I’d end up lost, I think.  The very idea that I could drop everything [and everyone?] to pursue my own ‘ideal life and persona’ would be self-destructive to me.  Why?  Because I have been a work in progress since I came onto this planet – I have always been striving and doing whatever ‘suits my fancy’, whether it be employment choices, marriage choices, house choices, friend choices……and the list of ‘choices’ goes on and on. Most of us have heard the adage, “Don’t put all of your eggs in one basket.”   I have to have a few balls in the air so if I happen to drop one, there are still a couple more I can work with.  My identity is not what I do.  My identity is who I am!  

So, I am a woman of years, who continues to work with my life and I am grateful I have discovered new ways to enhance how I go about doing this.  For one, I have become more conscious of what my responsibilities are to my SELF:   I am responsible to maintain my well-being, and what this means to me is that I want to have peace in my surroundings, and these surrounds include my inner circle of family and friends.  I am responsible to keep an equilibrium of thought and this encompasses my spectrum of personal desire (the level of the fire in my belly, the  quality of time spent with whomever and whatever),  my actual abilities as I know them, and above all,  my self-confidence and my faith in myself and the Universe, of which I believe I am a part.    I am the only one responsible to achieve what I want to achieve for myself.  If change is necessary, I am the only one who can make those changes in myself.

I am not obsessed with living my life….I am grateful for the opportunity to do whatever I put my mind to.   And, while I’m putting my mind to the privilege of living my life, I will  keep blogging and doing videos and whatever else that makes me happy….

What is a RUT?  Webster says:  “1.  a groove, furrow, or track, especially one made in the ground by passage of wheeled vehicles.  2.  a fixed, routine procedure or course of action, thought, etc….”.

I am  satisfied with what I have and who I am while I’m continuing to BE.  What “Is” is the “Yet?” every single day I am alive!  Blessed Be.