“Going for It”

I’ve Blessed Myself to Heights of Understanding Myself.

August 4, 2023 / / "Going for It", Authenticity, Awareness, GAYA

Today my houseguest left to move into her own space.  It’s a happy day for her and for me, but not one of ‘relief’; rather, my feelings are of personal satisfaction and happiness that I was able to complete my personal COMMITMENT . I’m a much better person in most every way! It’s sort of like I’ve been on a retreat for these past 7 weeks.

I don’t think I have ever been so consistently and deliberately authentic with another person.   We had determined we had to interact this way in order to keep our open communication on the same page.  Believe me, folks, if you have the opportunity or desire to make a positive difference in your own life, take it from me, there’s a stack of rewards from your effort that comes to you.

My son will be arriving within a couple of weeks and he and a friend will spend the night and then return home. ln mid-December he will return for an extended stay.He has his own rig with living accommodations.  I am looking forward to his visit because I have the same COMMITMENT in mind and already I am swirling with ideas of how I can be, helpful, considerate, understanding, compassionate and fair-minded.  I always have love in my heart, but as I have experienced from time-to-time sometimes  something can go haywire and off track.

I intend to use my entire experience of these past weeks…what a training session, with first-hand knowledge to rely upon.

One thing’s for sure, it is I who must carry the torch to success!

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

Intention with effort is everything. Always do your part.   ~Gaya

is everything.  Light-heartedness goes a long way too.  ~  Gaya

 

Wrinkles Come Naturally! Progress is By Choice!

November 10, 2022 / / "Going for It", Don't be held back, GAYA, Grace, Intuition, Manifesting our goals and dreams, NOW

I got to thinking, remember the adage we don’t want to be on our deathbed and say ‘I wish I woulda”?

We all are the pearls in our own oyster! The trouble is, we mostly sit and think and mull over stuff.  One ‘think and mull’ is enough!  Next comes the ‘do I want to? and will I?’ part.

For years I called myself a ‘hip-shooter’. I didn’t necessarily mean this in a complimentary way.  Now, as I’m thinking about who I am and who I want to be more often, I’ve come to understand that hip-shooter describes me as someone who ‘gets to it’ without so much thinking and mulling!  We all get results from our choices, but if we don’t like these results doesn’t necessarily mean we didn’t think it over enough.  There’s a lot more that goes into the action of making a choice.  It has to do with can we handle whatever the outcome may be.

I never viewed ‘failure’ as anything!  It’s just a word!  I think what most refer to as failure, is just a result from a choice and it’s a pointer on how we can modify or improve our future choices to our liking.

We’ve been conditioned for so many years about preparedness and propriety, we’ve lost touch with our own inside knowledge…our intuitive side…our spiritual beingness… The Intelligence (some may call God, Creator, Universe) is unequivocally connected to us, loving and supporting and providing us with fabulous dreams we want to live.  It’s our Ego which flares when we begin to try to fulfill these dreams.  Our Ego gets in our way when it comes to how we make our choices. Ego brings up Fear!

Summarily, I think it has been a good road for me to jump into life.  Yes, Look Before You Leap is good…but most of the time we’re not leaping into an ocean, or off a cliff, we’re just living life from gut instinct.  We weren’t born knowing how to live life, that’s what experience is all about…trial and error. We live and we learn.

Those of you who have followed my blogs read how I tried and tried to find my ranchy thing.  There was a time I even stated I was squelching that dream and moving on.  But something inside me just didn’t let me!  Good thing too.  Last year at age 84, I once again took that Leap of Faith and sold my home in Arizona and moved to New Mexico and NOW I have my DreamCatcher Ranch!  All went smoothly and still does.  It most definitely was meant to be.

Living slips through our fingers if we let it…but there is Charm and Grace that exists for us:  We are in control of what we do and don’t want to do. I think it’s good to grab onto that brass ring! We don’t catch all of them, but in trying, we do catch a lot of them.  I’m proof of that.

At this stage of my life, I’m learning how to smooth out the rough edges. I may be operating a bit more slowly, but I still have intentions and motivation, albeit  it will take me longer to get it done!  Oh well, what’s pushing me?  The journey, not the destination.

Steady as you go…all’s well.    ~Gaya

Life Is Full of Circles.

October 26, 2022 / / "Going for It", Don't be held back, Faith and Trust, GAYA, Honoring Intention, Manifesting our goals and dreams, Outside of Time, Self-fulfillment

Come October 28th, and I’ll have lived in my forever home for a whole year already.  I can hardly believe this!

I remember saying to myself and others, ‘I know there’s lots of work to be done in that house, and I probably won’t be doing as much as I did in the house I’m leaving…’. Well, my thinking and doing have changed dramatically!  I’ve taken on some projects, completed them just fine, and with this confidence, I’m planning to tackle painting the interior of the house.  I just finished measuring the rooms to figure out how much paint I’ll need!! Yes, at my ripe age of 85, I’ve come to the conclusion that indeed, where there’s a will, there is a way.  And coupling  this with the knowledge that I’ll work at my own pace, I have no concern about the endgame.  I wrote in the blurb on the back of my first book, “This book easily provides a catalyst toward Hope and Renewed Belief in Self and offers uplifting matter-of-fact views from a woman who lives her life with no ‘end game’ in sight.” IT WAS TRUE THEN AND IT IS TRUE NOW!

I recognize that life has come full circle many times in my life.  It’s about starting and finishing things.  It’s about finding solutions and new understanding. It’s about using my strengths in the many ways that strength shows itself. I rely upon my history when I can see the successes and achievements and the times I’ve fallen and gotten back up!  This history propels me forward in trusting myself when I take on anything new.  I KNOW I CAN DO IT – IF THAT’S WHAT I WANT TO DO!

When I was in my twenties, forties, and even sixties, I don’t believe I ever preceded doing something with thoughts of “can I do this?  am I capable?”  I went ahead and moved forward because I wanted to do it.  I feel the same way now.

So, painting the interior of my home may become a saga and that’s just fine.  Another full circle  of my life…and I hope I create many more.

We’ve got your back!  ~Gaya

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.  Stay Safe, Be Well.

NEVER say Never!

April 15, 2022 / / "Going for It", Don't be held back, Faith and Trust, GAYA, Life and Living, Presence

I’ve said to many lately, “I can’t believe I’m 85!  I simply can’t believe it!”  I’m still flabbergasted that I am living out my dream on my DreamCatcher Ranch!  AND, to top all off, I’m fostering a little dog, Porter, who has stolen my heart and I most probably will adopt him.  Before I moved to New Mexico, I had no animals and I said more than once, I’ll NEVER get another animal.

We form opinions with reasoning behind them…BUT, these reasons change, we come up with new ideas, we compromise, we recognize we have changed, become more open-minded and more compassionate for ourselves (in my case).  One of my main reasons for not wanting another animal was because I figured I’d pass away before the animal!  Also, I’ve had my fill of putting animals down!

But there’s a ‘meantime’ I haven’t considered until I made this move to a new state, new home, new friends.  I’m still living alone.  Porter rather appeared out of nowhere…it was synchronicity as I see it. I accepted his foster, and in a few short days, I also realized he was adding to my life!  He has forced me to alter my routine and consider his needs!

I am an ‘old dog learning new tricks’ from a young dog!  There’s lots to be said about making changes, moreover about choosing to make changes, take risks, look  around the next corner, drop the fear and dread and leap into the unknown with a vengeance.  It’s called continuing to live the life I have been given. It’s all too easy to stay in my comfort zone, but in so doing, I’m sacrificing new feelings and experiences and accomplishments.

I can never receive too much unconditional love and such love is in short supply. Porter is very special to my recent experience because I recognize what he is offering me and what I offer him as well.

I always want to keep my windows and doors wide open…how else do I welcome the NOW into my life with enthusiasm and acceptance.  The Now is always New.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed. Stay Safe, Be Well.

Giving love and seeing joy in another provides Graceful Peace.   ~Gaya

Common Sense/Intuition/Trusting Self

March 20, 2022 / / "Going for It", Conscious Awareness, Conscious Living, Faith and Trust, GAYA

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

So, I started this blog with a technical problem:  It wouldn’t work!  This is one time I couldn’t accept what is is, without looking into it further, right?  Without any panic, just using my God-given brain, I followed common channels and was able to solve the problem…obviously…I’m typing my new blog!

What is stirring within me right now is the recognition at a very basic level that I have internal power(s) which serve me well at any given time, and they are only interfered with when I allow myself to react rather than respond.  THINKING makes it so…irrational thinking, panic reaction and fear, turn me into a robotic anxious state, and off the rails I can go. I remember this from many instances in my past.

There’s no need to go off the rails at all!  All I have to do is quietly  (within myself) gather my composure and remind myself that I CAN!

(As an aside, I am now reminded that my mother once said that some of my first words were “I can, I can”, and this usually came when she was trying to take my hand to guide me, or she was trying to show me something.  Doesn’t this illustrate,  ‘out of the mouths of babes’?)

I’ve been working on getting my garden in shape at my new home.  This takes planning, hard work, and an attitude which says, how much will I get done today?  NOT  when will I finish, or will I get this done?!!  No question I have worked much more slowly, but it’s coming together. I can’t plant yet till I’m sure no more frosts are coming, but I’ll be ready!  Confidence! This is what I have.  It’s only about me wanting to tackle something that I’m confident I can do, however more slowly I must do it,.. I can still do it!

Atta Girl, Kaye.  You’ve still got it!  And, I’ll continue to ‘have it’ as long as I’m doing something.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.  Stay safe, Be well.

There is a non-conceptual intelligence which guides your words and actions

when you go within trusting your silent knowing.   ~Gaya 

 

 

Now What?!

November 29, 2021 / / "Going for It", Conscious Awareness, GAYA, Grace, It's all in the Energy, Manifesting our goals and dreams, NOW, Presence

It’s not ‘same old, same old’;  I realize I make my life  ‘same new, same new’!

So, folks, I made my move.  I’ve accomplished making a new thought come true.  It’s about creation.  It’s about listening to my inner voice.  It’s about self-fulfillment, satisfaction, and self-motivation.  Now that I’m here and settling into my new home, I have turned a new page in my life, and there are new horizons…literally.  Life now presents a newness to me, and my feelings are that I’ve been waiting and readying myself for this time  and NOW THIS IS THE TIME TO ENJOY IT FULLY.

I don’t feel alone.  I don’t feel lost. I feel more like I have found newness in my life.  New friends, new scenery, new creativity, and most of all, I feel comfortable with all of it. This is living!

I am now catching the dream at my DreamCatcher Ranch!  There’s lots to do here. And, I have the desire and time to spend doing it!  There’s no rush…just greeting each day with enthusiasm and gratitude and an optimistic attitude. (Wait a minute…isn’t this the way it’s supposed to be every day? YES!)   And I realize I am always responsible for making it so.  Making a move out of state may sound a bit radical, but apparently, it was what I needed.  I guess the point is, when I recognized I had impetus for making this big change, it felt easy and doable and ultimately it was. Things fell into place…I had lots of help…there was no push and shove…and looking back, it really does feel like it was meant to be.  I guess all things we do are meant to be.

Life is a gift of experience and learning. And, it’s by our own doing we liven things up when we see we are ready for newness and change.  There will always be something around the next corner I guess.  But Here and NOW, I am grateful for recognizing what all has gone into this life I am living right NOW.

I am mindful of a daily prayer:

This morning I will say, something great is on the way, God sends his blessings to me.

God is the light of my life, the source of my imagination, God in the midst of me knows.

He gives me food for thought, ideas for excellent service, divine intelligence and an abundance of faith.

God in his love pours forth his goodness upon me and my life and world show forth his perfect order.

You are Life.   ~Gaya

The Catcher has Caught the Dream!

September 18, 2021 / / "Going for It", Faith and Trust, Freedom, GAYA, It's all in the Energy, Manifesting our goals and dreams, Outside of Time

We’ve all heard ‘Never say Never’, right?  And too, we’ve all heard ‘Always follow your Dreams’! Well, I’ve done that, and at 84 years old, I am embarking on what I’ll call another journey…one that I’ve dreamed of since I was five years old.  I’ve written about it in this blog from time-to-time as well:  Finding my ‘ranchy thing’.

At 5:15 A.M. Tuesday, August 31st, I drove 341 miles to a smaller town (approx. 25,000 population) in New Mexico, met with my realtor, viewed 6 houses, made an offer on one, came back to Phoenix the next morning, put my house up for sale, sold it that following weekend, and since then have been performing my due diligence bringing this matter together.  Plans are I will be moving to New Mexico on October 28th.  Everything has gone very smoothly…no push and shove.

I found my “DreamCatcher Ranch”!

It seemed like this two-acre spot has been waiting for me.  When I viewed the property online, it felt like it was meant to be mine, and when I saw it that day and walked into the house it felt like home.  The trip certainly was worth it. 

These past many years I have lived a full life, had some wonderful experiences, came through some difficult times too,  and I’ve always held the special place in my heart and mind for the ‘ranchy place’.  I put the dream on hold more than once, and one time actually said, “I’m done looking!”  That was my brain speaking but not my heart.  Recently, when I revved up my motor again, it was quite unexpected, but there was a newfound energy with it.  All of a sudden the pieces began to fit together, and as I wrote above, the events unfolded and I’m here writing about it a short 3+ weeks later!

Interestingly, when I embarked on the move to Phoenix for the final time 30 years ago, my eldest son made the trip with me.  I was so excited to finally get here.  Now, I’ll be riding with my other son with the same excitement to an adjoining Southwestern state…  an expansion of my horizon.  My life is coming full circle, as I see it.  This move isn’t completing me, it is fulfilling me.  It feels so comfortable and I am ready for it.

I hope this message is inspiring to others.  Life is meant to be lived and enjoyed.  Experiences are meant to be had through the choices we make for ourselves. Dreams are meant to be fulfilled.

Miracles do happen! I am so grateful for every moment, every NOW.

You had this in you all the time, Kaye.  When you speak of property,

you say, ‘Location, Location, Location’…when you speak of

manifesting your dreams, we say, “Timing, Timing, Timing”.   ~Gaya

Blessed Be. To All Be Blessed.  Stay Safe and Be Well.

 

 

 

 

 

New Thoughts, or NO Thoughts! – Really Clears the air!

April 22, 2021 / / "Going for It", Conscious Awareness, Consistency with consideration, GAYA, Honoring Intention

There’s always something to work on!  Always a new way to look at something! I can always make improvements upon myself and make changes which start up a whole new experience in my life to better myself.

I love this side of it!  Here I am, approaching 84 years of age, and I’m nowhere close to feeling like my life is ending, or my thinking has to be modified, or I have to relax more and give myself more leeway.  NOT AT ALL.  In fact, if anything, I put myself  more to the test to uphold new learning which continues to inspire me.  Everything stays fresh and new when one is willing to entertain new things.

I’ve been working with not repeating thoughts…the rat-on-the-wheel kind of thinking which I’m told occupies 50% of our daily thoughts.  Imagine, we are repeating that many thoughts which essentially is saying we are leading a ‘secondhand’ life, right?  Going over and over again, chewing the same old same old, feeling the same agonies and disruptions time and again…and for what?  To continuously punish and flog ourselves over absolutely nothing that is in the NOW.

Fast Forward to Today:  It has been well over a month since my last blog.  I started this one April 1st, and for whatever reason, I had to leave it until today, April 22nd.  In the meantime, I celebrated my 84th birthday.  My son was hospitalized with a severe infection in his arm which, thankfully, has been stabilized and he is now on the mend.  My cat, Tippy, became ill, and she has traveled over the Rainbow Bridge.  For me, these three incidents in a relatively short period of time were enough to process.  What is important in all of this is the fact that I continued to work with “New Thoughts, or NO Thoughts”!  I must say, I find this exercise very liberating and stabilizing too.  I didn’t get carried away…I remained Grateful for all that I have.  I continued to be Hopeful with respect to the privilege of living. I remarked to myself more than once how resilient I felt and when I sat in the silence, I essentially instructed myself to allow only new, healing thoughts about each moment, each occurrence.

I no longer want to allow my mind to habitually dictate  repetitive thoughts and ultimately repetitive actions.  Clearly, I don’t get different results if I continue to behave in a repetitive manner.  Change can’t be avoided as life presents to us, and I can’t instigate change in my life if I don’t grab hold of my Conscious Intention and make sound choices.

Ease in life comes with recognizing how I feel when I am making choices.  It’s like the expression “Let your Conscience Be Your Guide”.  I know when I take the time, when I don’t rush into something, when I allow my body to react and alert me before I make the conscious choice, I am listening to my Essence.  It’s not about listening to the Egoic side of me trying to juggle a win-win.…it’s about facing myself head-on with my big-girl-britches on, and hearing my own instructions.  This split-second thinking rewards me with the relief I feel when I have overridden my Ego which ultimately gives me peace and understanding.

You know how to guide your way.

You are part of that which created you.

Your intention has been with you since you became.

You are right on time.   ~ Gaya

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.  Stay Safe and Be Well.

TIME Gets Away From Me When I Live In The NOW!

January 26, 2021 / / "Going for It", Awareness, GAYA, Gratitude, Outside of Time

I can’t believe it!  I just realized I’ve gone almost a whole month without writing something for this blog!  How could this happen?  One would think with all the time I have on my hands, there’d be plenty of it to offer up something of me…after all, as with all of us, we have been secluded in our homes much more than usual due to the pandemic, and sometimes TV becomes our friend for noise and activity outside our thoughts, doesn’t it?

Our thoughts:  We are left to our own devices then.  We bring up subjects, some we mull over, some we dismiss, we make all our own resolutions without counsel, and we move through the day at our own pace.  Nothing much makes demands upon us, except perfunctory things like appointments,  grocery shopping, gassing up the car, laundry, etc.   I just summarized my own ‘schedule’!

Solitary confinement is what we are in if we aren’t very mindful of including the outside world while we’re living.    I don’t have many friends, and I take advantage of speaking on the phone with them, or we chat online through Zoom, or video chat, or Skype.

What’s important for me is my spiritual practice.  At this time of my life, peace and contentment and feeling self-fulfilled is uppermost in my own mind.  Awareness, spiritual clarity and understanding is key for me to achieve what I think is important to my wellbeing and enjoying the privilege of living my life.

I live in the NOW, and frankly, there seems to be lots of activity happening all the time if I keep on keeping on, i.e., doing what presents to me through whim or immediate plan as I direct my attention and intention to the NOW In TODAY.

Yesterday is a perfect example of how a day can be ‘complete’, living in the NOW.  I’ve been planning for my tax preparation procedure, and still hadn’t received the $600 from the government.  I assumed I’d have to claim it in my taxes. Lo and behold, it was in my mail!  Yippee, I can pay down my credit card!  Our weather has been cold, windy and rainy…very windy…but I decided to trek to the bank to deposit the funds. Whoa!  As I was driving, it wasn’t long before winds and rain became fierce, and though it isn’t far to my bank, I was grateful to get there without incident.  I went to the drive-through, and was told I had to be let into the bank for the transaction.  Really?  NO ONE goes into a bank anymore without permission?  I didn’t know this, as I haven’t had the need until now to go into a bank for service.  So, in I go, and while there, lights flickered on and off, and some people came into the bank to get out of the weather…they were quickly turned out into the weather!  Amazingly, I also heard that a tree had fallen somewhere in the drive-through area and that cars were unable to move away…I HAD BEEN SAVED FROM THIS!

Driving back home in the fierce weather, stop signs were off, and I began to worry I wouldn’t be able to get into my garage…no electricity.  As I drove closer to my house, I saw street lights were on, and thankfully in my area the electricity was still on…HOME SAFE AND SOUND!!

So, what’s the purpose of telling this story?  There are so many blessings inside the blessings!  I was in a car and had an electric garage door opener that I was worrying about,  Not to mention  I had shelter from the horrendous weather, had received the money and was able to transact my business relatively easily, and I hadn’t been struck by a fallen tree!

So, today is another day.  Go figure what’ll be in store.  Now I see how easy time gets away from me when I’m so busily trying to deal with what all presents Now and AGAIN and AGAIN.

Being ‘in the thick of it’ ,  making your choices as you

enjoy the privilege of living your life, allows you to

‘spin’ a self-fulfilling  journey of all the newness that keeps on coming.   ~  Gaya

Blessed Be. To All Be Blessed.  Stay Safe and Well.

Hold On! and Let Go!

November 8, 2020 / / "Going for It", Conscious Awareness, GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, Humility, Life's Impressions, My Life, Peace and Understanding

It’s interesting… this journey we’re on!  I was speaking to a longtime friend yesterday, and we both exclaimed it was hard to believe we were at the ages we are. ..she 74, I 83.

In my younger years, NEVER did I spend much time thinking on how old I would live to be, or for that matter, what goals did I have in terms of who I wanted to become, what I wanted to do, what path did I need to follow to reach my dreams and goals.

It seems to make more sense now to think about what have I learned?  How do I assess my life and the choices I have made?  Do I really  have any regrets?  Do I wish I could go back in time and have a ‘redo’?

I know I’m grateful that I have followed my journey with a continuous Faith in a Power Greater Than Me.   I know I am thankful that I never gave up on myself…no matter what was happening, no matter what choices I made.  In so doing, I gained a true trust of Self and my resiliency.

I have to work things out myself to clarity and understanding; I’ve come to accept that each effort I make toward this is admirable. I feel the spiritual connection, my Higher Self, my Soul Self, my Intuitive Consciousness.  It’s not about erasing or lamenting the past.  It’s about valuing it for what it has meant to me in my growth and conscious awareness.  What I may have thought were stumbling blocks were actually building blocks!  It’s about thanking God for the many people and events in my life which appeared at just the right moment.

I can pick that one book that started me on a course of independent learning and has served me well right up to now, AS A MAN THINKETH, by James Allen.  Then there was RISKING, by David Viscott, MD., the book that instilled in me courage to step out on the ledge after tallying the risk.  I learned it wasn’t that scary to try something I had never done before.  I also found out it wasn’t about failing or succeeding, but more about having the experience of attempting and living it in the intention.

Right up to this day, I continuously work on issues and triggers and bothersome, even painful,  circumstances with the same Faith that I will make it better…I will have more understanding and clarity…I will have more resolution.  That’s my optimism.

So, I hold on to what has continued to work, and I try very hard to let go of that which can bog me down and restrict me. It’s important to know that I have a commitment to  enjoying the privilege of living life the best way I know how and enjoying the whole process.  This is the growth and understanding and clarity I keep finding, and the Grace which follows when I reflect on just how great life has been.

We are the strength within you, we are your resiliency, your dreams,

your tenacity,  your curiosity, your love and appreciation for

your life and all it continuously offers.   ~  Gaya

 

 

 

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