January 2017

What on earth?!  I’m imagining  butterflies emerging from the chrysalis flying around me in all different colors – the most prevalent is the Monarch, the King of butterflies; common to many, strong as strong, making its migration every year in concert rhythm to nature’s symphonic overture to a new life.  This butterfly has four stages in its life cycle, and lives four generations in one year.  I am not intending a primer on the life of a butterfly, but I intimately  understand the association with it to starting a new life and freedom.

For years I have associated every significant event as a life within my life.  Considering this,  I have lived many  lives in these almost 80 years of [this] life.

Summarily, in the past 18 months alone I can include another 5 or 6 lives!   I’d be hard-pressed to try to total all of these lives from,  let’s say, 3 or 4  years old – the beginning of my memories –  moving to different houses, attending different schools, growing up and starting college, my many jobs, creating my executive search firm, 3 marriages, two children, 3 divorces,  and so on and so on.  I’m sure it could reach over 60!  Not surprising, then, at this particular time of my life there are butterflies in my mind!  My goodness, what a life cycle I am having!

Ever-new experiences, living my freedom, fulfilling myself in honor to my creator, the Universe, of which I am a part and in which I thrive as a spiritual being in a human condition,  IS my existence……my privilege of living life.

There is no net that can gather me up, nor crush my essence.  There is no word that can quench my words of my own truth.  I will always view my life as perpetual cycles of newness… more growth and more enlightenment.    I will continue to emerge always beautiful and stronger.  The Phoenix rises from the ashes……. the butterfly emerges from the chrysalis.

…..One and the Same to Me!!  Blessed Be to All.

 

 

Some days are definitely more electric to me than others, and when I feel that difference, my entire insight and ‘outsight’ are totally different.

Right away, my mind goes to the Reset button…the Action button…the I’m-Alive button…the World-here-I-am button!

Some words definitely invite movement, like thrust, excitement, exhilaration, scream…. the life in life!    Other words like moan, rest, drag, broken, slow, boring, mundane, monotone, same….let our mind go toward stagnancy if we so much as read them, think them, hear them or say them .

Like the gears of a car…..I can drive easy, and if I need more energy I can demand it and accelerate…. that’s what my mind does to my body every morning.   I’m careful not to ask myself, “What kind of a day is it today?” Said another way, I present to myself, “Today I’m going to ………”!  and then, I’m on my own demand,  springing into my own action that I have decided.  I’m pretty sure I don’t even give myself the chance to say something like, “I don’t think I feel like……..” .    And, unless I actually know I’m ‘under the weather’ I’m luring myself into my world toward my own happiness the best way I know how, and that’s always “checking in” and testing the waters, so to speak.  If I come up with lukewarm, I’m most likely planning to enjoy a marathon of my favorite western movies!

I’m a 75% introvert, 25% extrovert personality (by my own definition), and sometimes I know I have to go outside to a friend who ‘fills me’.    Our conversations ’round me up to the highest number’.

Years ago, another dear friend explained to me how to make sure that I’m going to the right source for what I need.  “If you want milk, go to the fridge.  If you want water, go to the tap.”  I know to figure out first the perfect person(s) to  approach in order to get exactly what I need….nurturing, support, a listener, whatever at the time my heart and soul need for peace.

I’m the only one who can set the bar(s)… on my Forever Path.  Whatever requires my focus at any given time is a personal bar.    I place my Life Bar at a steady incline, albeit I take a back-step, a misstep, or a leap forward in my process.   When a new enlightenment appears, I instinctively set another bar.   Imagine a line graph.  The Life Bar is a solid, wider line.  Personal bars are dotted, and different colors…and as knowledge and achievements are reached, they disappear and actually become part of the Life Bar.  The Enlightenment Bar(s) are solid and different colors.  These ultimately blend into the Life Bar as well.

Come to think, with the exception of my Life Bar, I guess I can think of the others as colorful balls that I keep kicking higher and higher.

What a grand Soccer Game I play every day!  Blessed Be to All.