218 posts by Kaye

Getting Down To It…’Bout Time!

January 27, 2023 / / Conscious Awareness, GAYA, Honoring Intention, Mindfulness

I could hardly wait to get here!

I’ve been wrestling with overeating for about a month and a half!  This is a bothersome state of affairs as far as I’m concerned, and everyday I find myself ignoring my wishes …or my intention…and just keep doing what I want to do! You see, that’s it:  I fight with myself about what I do, and what I want to intend to do!

For so many mornings, I approach the new day with what I want to intend to do, and by early afternoon, I sabotage my plans…a very willful act!

I asked for help yesterday, and this morning I’ve begun thinking a new way:  I have to get out of my human self and link with my Spiritual Essence.  This business of hanging out in this material world and then professing a spiritual connection has to be evidenced by my own deliberate meld.

I looked at my little Porter and stated out loud, “I am a living being and so are you!  We are one! You love me unconditionally and I look after your needs with love and compassion because you cannot do it alone.”  And, then I extended this thought and realized that everything I come into contact with… as close as my own home… cannot do well without me, and I became mindful that I am enhanced by the warmth of my home in this current cold weather.  I am self-fulfilled by the energy I exert when I beautify this place I dreamed about and chose and love .. I began to realize the interaction which takes place because of my mindfulness and feelings of this deeper connection to everything. Gratitude comes as I feel this deep connection.

I feel my complicit behavior to that which is around me…Like this morning when I donned a sweater that I’ve owned for more than 25 years.  I wore it when I taught school all those many years ago!  I had relegated it to the  ‘wear-it-when-you’re-doing- real-work-around-the-place drawer!”  But this morning, I gleefully brought it out and loudly stated, “I still love this sweater!” and it feels so good wearing it again!

When I sat at the breakfast table I was thankful for my food in a much different way. I realized I had  fed the birds earlier this cold morning, and I was thankful I did that as well – consciously aware I had taken care of them too and I was thankful I had the bird food to do it.

This business of “getting down to it” is so very intimately connected to my life and the way I live it.  It’s about inclusion…including all else in my life picture. It’s about selflessness. It’s about the realization that I am cloaked by so very much around me which supplies my every need. It’s about realizing I am living under Grace. It’s about appreciation and honoring my entire existence and the existence of all else as well.  It’s about all the creature comforts I have and wanting to extend comfort to that which needs me.

I think I more fully understand  the statement I’ve made so often:  “I am inextricably connected to and unconditionally loved and supported by God.”  I now feel that in reverse.  “ALL ELSE is inextricably connected and unconditionally loved and supported by Me.”  What an Onion Peel!  I DON’T EVER WANT TO LOSE THIS THOUGHT.

I believe I have a newfound respect for my responsibility to me.

Blessed Be. To All Be Blessed.

‘Understanding’ is humbling and powerful.   ~Gaya

 

I Do What I Do and For Whom?

January 7, 2023 / / GAYA, Uncategorized

When I began this blog at 78, I had an unspoken commitment to nurture it and to make at least one contribution each month.  It has been a fulfilling experience all these years, along with my entire life!  I’ve come to the conclusion that my life is nothing less than a live stream, no different than when I go online to share in person with my online friends… the difference being  my life is private and my actual live streams ‘go public’.

In this past year, I have shared how grateful I am for everything I have.  I’ve shared my experiences which seemed to me noteworthy for public consumption because I felt they may be motivational for others no matter how old or where they are on their Forever Path. My entries are more like a wide-open journal. I’ve shied away from offering advice, and what I say always comes to my own attention for a learning before anything else it was meant to be. I’ve realized that it is something within me which explodes into words and it is for my own consumption first. The same goes for whatever I write online in Facebook. My personal contentment is apparent to me and whether others appreciate my efforts and intention is nice to know, but this is not my motivation anymore. It is important that I APPRECIATE AND ENJOY IT and I do.

“To Thine Own Self Be True” are words that are inside me as a monitor. Everyone follows their own drum beat. Inspiration is the star in our soul that highlights our beginnings again and again which foster our thrills and joys of living our lives the way we do.

Today I’m finishing the painting project I began around Thanksgiving. Of course, I wasn’t painting every day. I had to take my time and the result is very satisfying.  As ‘life has it’, there have been interruptions which took priority. But that’s to be expected, right?  Life interrupts itself all the time and that’s the quirk which, out of acceptance, keeps me fluid and on my toes and ‘with it’!

This blog has been a meandering of my mind which I have chosen to share spontaneously.

What a wonderful way to live...spontaneously, in the NOW.  Oh, and I’m having another houseguest in a few weeks…someone I’ve known online for a few years now, and she’s coming to meet me in person on her way to California.  It is events like these that are poignant.

In summation, just as Frank sang away, “I did it my way”!  This is all about authenticity and knowing myself and learning and sharing and caring about what’s important to my heart and beingness.

January 7th already…I’ll quietly go about my business while I continue to fill myself up.

Blessed Be, To All Be Blessed.

Feeling connections from the inside is a Blessing.   ~Gaya

    ~Gaya

ACCOMPLISHMENT Means Everything!

December 8, 2022 / / Conscious Awareness, Conscious Living, Energy Connection, GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, Humility, Intention, Intuition, Life and Living, Living in the NOW, Manifesting our goals and dreams, Mindfulness, Presence, Self-fulfillment

No question, I’m getting pretty comfy in my new place!  Porter knows our routine down to the minute, and I have found that my GRATITUDE keeps me grounded in astounding ways.

THOUGHT is great when it is constructive and innovative and creative and happy and motivating and intentional.  It is MY election to improve my surroundings…emotionally, physically and spiritually.

I recently completed painting the ceiling and walls in my living room and dining area!  This was a feat, but doable.  The outcome is amazing and such an improvement around here.  Next comes the kitchen, and other rooms too, as long as my energy and stamina and physical ability hold out!

What occurs to me this morning is that “accomplishment”  is also evident internally in my thoughts and emotions, as well as obviously in the visual, and it all has to do with my wellbeing. When I’m thinking  I’m already in the creative process as ideas begin to swirl, and these ideas are all about making ME happier!  It’s not about what I’m lacking or any dissatisfaction, it’s about how can I get a greater shine to my life and my surroundings…a continuous polishing to my whole existence while I’m alive!

Now I’m referring to ATTITUDE. It’s about helping myself!  It’s about my own proactivity  which spurs me on providing the constant link to the Ease and Grace in my life. I think I maintain an overview of my surroundings and my physical wellbeing  which ‘lubricates my life machine’, if you will. For a fact, if I don’t do it, who/what will?

I follow my GPS when I’m driving to an unfamiliar area, and I guess I use my GTA when I’m navigating my own life.

And, not to forget your ESP!  ~Gaya

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

Wrinkles Come Naturally! Progress is By Choice!

November 10, 2022 / / "Going for It", Don't be held back, GAYA, Grace, Intuition, Manifesting our goals and dreams, NOW

I got to thinking, remember the adage we don’t want to be on our deathbed and say ‘I wish I woulda”?

We all are the pearls in our own oyster! The trouble is, we mostly sit and think and mull over stuff.  One ‘think and mull’ is enough!  Next comes the ‘do I want to? and will I?’ part.

For years I called myself a ‘hip-shooter’. I didn’t necessarily mean this in a complimentary way.  Now, as I’m thinking about who I am and who I want to be more often, I’ve come to understand that hip-shooter describes me as someone who ‘gets to it’ without so much thinking and mulling!  We all get results from our choices, but if we don’t like these results doesn’t necessarily mean we didn’t think it over enough.  There’s a lot more that goes into the action of making a choice.  It has to do with can we handle whatever the outcome may be.

I never viewed ‘failure’ as anything!  It’s just a word!  I think what most refer to as failure, is just a result from a choice and it’s a pointer on how we can modify or improve our future choices to our liking.

We’ve been conditioned for so many years about preparedness and propriety, we’ve lost touch with our own inside knowledge…our intuitive side…our spiritual beingness… The Intelligence (some may call God, Creator, Universe) is unequivocally connected to us, loving and supporting and providing us with fabulous dreams we want to live.  It’s our Ego which flares when we begin to try to fulfill these dreams.  Our Ego gets in our way when it comes to how we make our choices. Ego brings up Fear!

Summarily, I think it has been a good road for me to jump into life.  Yes, Look Before You Leap is good…but most of the time we’re not leaping into an ocean, or off a cliff, we’re just living life from gut instinct.  We weren’t born knowing how to live life, that’s what experience is all about…trial and error. We live and we learn.

Those of you who have followed my blogs read how I tried and tried to find my ranchy thing.  There was a time I even stated I was squelching that dream and moving on.  But something inside me just didn’t let me!  Good thing too.  Last year at age 84, I once again took that Leap of Faith and sold my home in Arizona and moved to New Mexico and NOW I have my DreamCatcher Ranch!  All went smoothly and still does.  It most definitely was meant to be.

Living slips through our fingers if we let it…but there is Charm and Grace that exists for us:  We are in control of what we do and don’t want to do. I think it’s good to grab onto that brass ring! We don’t catch all of them, but in trying, we do catch a lot of them.  I’m proof of that.

At this stage of my life, I’m learning how to smooth out the rough edges. I may be operating a bit more slowly, but I still have intentions and motivation, albeit  it will take me longer to get it done!  Oh well, what’s pushing me?  The journey, not the destination.

Steady as you go…all’s well.    ~Gaya

Life Is Full of Circles.

October 26, 2022 / / "Going for It", Don't be held back, Faith and Trust, GAYA, Honoring Intention, Manifesting our goals and dreams, Outside of Time, Self-fulfillment

Come October 28th, and I’ll have lived in my forever home for a whole year already.  I can hardly believe this!

I remember saying to myself and others, ‘I know there’s lots of work to be done in that house, and I probably won’t be doing as much as I did in the house I’m leaving…’. Well, my thinking and doing have changed dramatically!  I’ve taken on some projects, completed them just fine, and with this confidence, I’m planning to tackle painting the interior of the house.  I just finished measuring the rooms to figure out how much paint I’ll need!! Yes, at my ripe age of 85, I’ve come to the conclusion that indeed, where there’s a will, there is a way.  And coupling  this with the knowledge that I’ll work at my own pace, I have no concern about the endgame.  I wrote in the blurb on the back of my first book, “This book easily provides a catalyst toward Hope and Renewed Belief in Self and offers uplifting matter-of-fact views from a woman who lives her life with no ‘end game’ in sight.” IT WAS TRUE THEN AND IT IS TRUE NOW!

I recognize that life has come full circle many times in my life.  It’s about starting and finishing things.  It’s about finding solutions and new understanding. It’s about using my strengths in the many ways that strength shows itself. I rely upon my history when I can see the successes and achievements and the times I’ve fallen and gotten back up!  This history propels me forward in trusting myself when I take on anything new.  I KNOW I CAN DO IT – IF THAT’S WHAT I WANT TO DO!

When I was in my twenties, forties, and even sixties, I don’t believe I ever preceded doing something with thoughts of “can I do this?  am I capable?”  I went ahead and moved forward because I wanted to do it.  I feel the same way now.

So, painting the interior of my home may become a saga and that’s just fine.  Another full circle  of my life…and I hope I create many more.

We’ve got your back!  ~Gaya

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.  Stay Safe, Be Well.

It Occurs to Me…

September 30, 2022 / / GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, Life's Impressions, Living in the NOW, Love, Peace and Understanding

Do things really change?   I did change my surroundings, got a new little dog, am meeting new people, have different activities, etc., but inside all seems to be the same.  Days go by, I still have problems to solve, attitudes to moderate, I’m always the optimistic thinker, have my spiritual practice and I continue to postulate my existence and purpose and what is required by me to gain equanimity and harmony while living as a human being on this planet.

I love it that I still marvel at life!  I still become aware of the synchronicities and what I see as miracles.  I’m aware of the support I receive from the Universe and Gaya (my non-physical friends).   I’m following my intuition even more, and I like my reliance on this silent leader. I’m enjoying that I take action on the spur-of-the-moment to make myself happy.

I’m strenuously working around my home outside these days, and it amazes me that I have the stamina, albeit not for more than two hours at a time.  I thrill to my physical strength and Will to do what I am doing.  I’ve developed a connection to this house and the land around it.  It’s like I want to continue to  fulfill my dream, exhibiting my thankfulness by showing it how much I love being here.  As I polish my surroundings I am polishing myself.  It’s my gratitude for it all that is expressing itself, I think.

I try not to take anything for granted…I’m more aware of my blessings and living under Grace, and I’m also more agreeable to acceptance of the not-so-pleasant happenings in the knowledge that life has always been like this and it always works itself out, one way or another.

I am reminded of the song, “Jesus Loves Me, This I Know.”

Life is Good. Thank You, God. Thank You, Thank You, Thank You, God.

You are recognized, supported and loved beyond measure.  ~Gaya

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

Keeping On Keeping On!

September 6, 2022 / / Energy Connection, Faith and Trust, GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, Living in the NOW, Love, Peace and Understanding, Silence

What keeps me keeping on keeping on?  I don’t know any other way!

It’s putting one foot in front of the other.  It’s about remembering the measure of my fear is the measure of my faith. It’s knowing my gratitude for all I have and have withstood throughout my lifetime are Blessings and Grace. 

I have my heartache like everyone else.  Though I do not feel I am free to mention it, this does not make me less authentic; however, it does restrict me when in my day-to-day expressions and exposure I try so hard to be exactly who I am.

So, I sit down like this morning and write a blog. I am wrestling with something that occurs in my life from time-to-time, and it is unsettling at the very least.  As I am in my silence, I try to stay level-headed, and invariably I go to words that are calming to me.  Eckhart Tolle says “Wisdom comes with the ability to be still. Just look and just listen.  No more is needed.  Being still, looking and listening, activates the non-conceptual intelligence within you.  Let stillness direct your words and actions.”

Fears are essentially lies I am telling myself.  I have no way of knowing the future…I fear.  The NOW gives me all I can handle.  It is my choice to enjoy this NOW, and create gratitude for the NOW that I am experiencing.  It is up to me to believe that I am capable to handle anything and everything that presents to me, or that I present to myself through choices I make.  The NOW is my reality.  It is palpable if I focus on it.  I want to appreciate what I am given, not what I make up out of fear.

Acceptance is the answer to all my problems today.  When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing or situation…some fact of my life…unacceptable to me and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment.  This is my paraphrase of information I interpreted from Stillness Speaks, by Eckhart Tolle.

And finally, I receive solace from Abraham-Hicks:  “Today, no matter where I am going and no matter what I am doing, it is my dominant intent to see that which I am wanting to see.”

In my silence this morning, I have shared with you how I  keep on keeping on. I am comforted by this and I hope it is helpful to someone else when they may be wrestling with something that needs settling.

I asked for help and in writing this, I have received it.  Thank you Gaya, my non-physical friends, my guardian angels, my guides, all that is connected to me, that love and support and guide me, through my inextricable connection to that which created me, God, Universal Intelligence, Creator, whatever you choose to call it.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

Wherever you are, are we.   ~Gaya

Responsibility: burden or privilege?

August 8, 2022 / / Conscious Living, Faith and Trust, Freedom, GAYA, Gratitude, Life and Living, Manifesting our goals and dreams

For the past four days I’ve been working hard in the mornings.  Sagebrush and weeds!!!  Sagebrush is prickly, difficult to work with, and unsightly! And the weeds…they’re green, healthy, thrive from the monsoon rains, and they’re not grass!    All part of ‘ranching’!  I think to myself, “you’re not in the city…you’re in the country, you don’t want a pristine place, but WHAT DO YOU WANT?”

This is the privilege of living:  what DO I want?  This I ask myself countless times a day.  Sometimes the answer is reflected by the choices I make without the obvious question prodding me.  It’s the spontaneous living in the NOW.  I believe I’m being led on the latest path I have chosen.  I try not to get frustrated, and certainly not discouraged, but it is a ‘puzzlement’ when tackling something absolutely new. I find I’m relying upon many of the things I have written or said that have to do with my spiritual practice.  I rely upon trust, faith and a knowing that it all will unfold in good time.  I always see progress and I have considerable satisfaction from my accomplishments.

I have joy in my heart.  Out of the unknowingness of it all,  I have a confidence all is as it’s meant to be.  I have evoked within myself another level of consciousness because I am not coasting…I’m instigating. In my unknowingness, I’m more conscious than ever about my choices and decisions.  I am more alive in my living!  Life is pleasantly serious…more consciously decisive.

Responsibility is a good thing.  It provokes taking care of myself as a human being, a friend,  and a mother; my darling little dog, Porter; my house and land; my car…and it keeps me focused on my thoughts.  Responsibility can’t be a burden when I honor the choices I make. Something positive is growing inside me as I reckon with the astonishing results of my expanding experience. I have more gratitude for the privilege of attending to that which makes demands upon me.  This is the polishing of my life.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

All is well…as it is.  ~Gaya

 

 

Doin’ What Comes Naturally!!

July 20, 2022 / / Uncategorized

Hard to believe in another 8 days I will have lived here at my DreamCatcher ranch 9 months! And, what seems so interesting is that it all works so well with me inside. It’s not outward appearances that matter, it’s what appears on the inside of us that’s of import.  I see the snakes (small ones and no rattlers yet!), swarms of ants (happily not near my house), evidence of raptors that have killed baby bunnies (alas) and…DRUM ROLL, PLEASE…there’s a desert tortoise  who came with this property whom I’ve named Johnny (as in “Here’s Johnny”!).  Porter likes him too…sniffs for him outside around the house when we don’t see him, and gets up close and personal when he greets me at the front door these days to get his daily dose of lettuce.  He lets me rub his head, and so help me, I think he ‘runs’ to me when he sees me cuz he knows he’s getting fed.

The most interesting thing about Johnny is that he went missing for almost a week, and I found myself feeling sad.  I had seen him eat a tarantula – boy, this was an interesting sight to behold! – and I thought maybe that had killed him cuz I have pest control here to keep scorpions and other pests out of the house, and I had found tarantulas dead because of that too, and I thought maybe a poisoned spider could kill whatever ate it.  Anyhow, lo and behold, Johnny surfaced again, and I think I figured out he hides when it gets really hot.

What I’m trying to convey is that my heart has been extended to Johnny and I was well aware of it when he went missing. It’s funny how Life becomes more keen to recognizing other Life when we identify with it. I didn’t like seeing the dead baby bunny that had been mutilated by a raptor either.  But, we’re all here for our purpose while we’re here.

I’m getting to know the ‘bones of the place’ just like every other home I’ve had.  It’s a process of easing into my new lifestyle…not unlike how we ease into everything else that confronts us every day.  I’m socializing more here than I did in Phoenix in a city neighborhood environment as against a country lifestyle.  My friend and I see each other almost every week and we get together for family meals fairly often too.  I’ve become more of a ‘mozier’!  I’m slower by necessity and because of this I’m observing more in a quiet sort of way.

There’s a lot to be said for changing one’s routine and surroundings…like taking a different route to work or school or to the grocery store once-in-a-while.  I moved out of state and totally changed my lifestyle, but I think it’s important not to get into a rut over anything (or anyone either, for that matter).  I think we stay sharper and more interested in what’s going on around us when we have diversity and surprises too.  Like when I first saw a centipede here (which are common in this neck of the woods).  Eew! It’s amazing how well we can go with the flow with it all (Smile). I think my countenance is milder and more accepting.  I think I’ve grown to understand that there’s always something new to contend with no matter what so why get overwrought about any of it.

You’re creating your wonderful world to enjoy. Blessed Be.   ~Gaya

Bless your own life and others’ lives too. Stay Safe.  Be Well.

No Time Like The Present…If Not NOW, When?

June 24, 2022 / / GAYA, Intention, It's all in the Energy, NOW, Peace and Understanding, Presence, Responsibility, Silence, True Freedom, Truth to Self

Even at 85, I still think about where I am going in my life, and when I ask the questions I have to answer to myself!  There never is a time in our lives when we can just skip on…without responsibility.

How I try to polish myself, to improve my way of thinking and doing, to the end of more joy and peace in my life is reflected by the ‘outside’ of my life.  There’s no fooling anyone, in particular myself!

When life serves us well, it is evidenced by how each day unfolds.  I know  my ‘countenance’.  I know by how my newly acquired canine friend responds/reacts to me.  I know by how well I get to sleep at night.  I know by how many times I sit in gratitude and amazement when I take the time to take my own inventory.

Life is personal in every single way.  There isn’t a mask I could wear which would hide the truth about me.  There isn’t an excuse I might utter that erases what IS.

When I decided to dig to my authenticity it became my path to freedom.  When I came to the place that I could slowly lift the veils of deception, and emerge in plain view, I realized the sun continued to shine just as brightly on me!   I was able to see where I wanted to begin the work of changing myself and in this process, Life became more meaningful.

Whatever goes on around me is the ultimate predictor. When I participate in Life, I realize how well I am taking care of myself and my responsibilities which I have chosen to assume.  I am realizing more and more that I am becoming the Observer.  It’s an internal experience.  Opinions don’t matter, Inner Peace matters.

Life always comes back to NOW.  It is all there is… NOW.  I recall my coined phrase of long ago, “Everything is as unimportant as it is Important.” There are no degrees of honesty. It’s a continuous deep dig!

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.  Stay Safe. Be Well.

Allowance…~  Gaya

 

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