Gratitude is a Fabulous Creator.

October 15, 2021 / / Awareness, Conscious Living, GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, Intention

I didn’t think I’d be writing another blog before I moved to New Mexico, but this morning, it came to me:  I’ve been living more consciously these past weeks than I think I ever have in my lifetime!

Since I purchased my new home and sold my current one, everything I’ve been doing has been methodically planned, starting with how I began packing to how this whole move will happen.  My calendar is my ‘assistant’ and it has become my go-to-first-thing every morning!  There are stages to moving, as there are stages to life, and there are patterns which I’ve resurrected from my past moves/packings and I’ve enjoyed creating new, more efficient ways to complete some of these repetitious tasks of yesteryears.

The fact is, I’m so conscious of what and how I am behaving during this time.  I keep schedules, I’m reliable to myself, I keep on keeping on until I reach a plateau of accomplishment.  All of this time is so self-fulfilling, and I’m enjoying the repetitive tests of my mental, physical and emotional agility in this process.  I’m amazed at my personal strength of will and desire to continue to achieve what I am setting out to do as what probably may be the biggest life experience attempt I have very consciously made for myself.

Clearly,  there is direct parallel between this very personal experience and how I want to live my life every day, after the move is completed.  I’m alert, self-directed, purposeful, goal-oriented, self-satisfied and self-fulfilled every day.  I give myself compliments and ‘Atta Girls’ all the time…sometimes audibly!  Yes, my stamina isn’t as long-lived as when I was in my 50’s and 60’s, but my Will to Do  is constant.  I’m never disappointing myself.  I do what I can do and respect my body’s signals to take a rest and resume later.  I am not feeling rushed about anything.  I receive the NOW comfortably as I go.

I have overflowing continuous gratitude for this whole experience – I’m developing more patience because as we all know, things don’t necessarily go wrong, but often they do go differently than we want them to go at times! At the end of each day there are more boxes closed up, piled upon each other, I’ve taken the time to eat and rest and take pleasure in doing one thing at a time.  I don’t scatter my energy nor my intention.

Thirteen days left…and there has been an Ease and Grace which is so assuring.  I acknowledge my blessings and, again, I am so Grateful.

Blessed Be and to all Be Blessed.  Stay Safe and Be Well.

Conscious Living provides myriad rewards.   ~Gaya

The Catcher has Caught the Dream!

September 18, 2021 / / "Going for It", Faith and Trust, Freedom, GAYA, It's all in the Energy, Manifesting our goals and dreams, Outside of Time

We’ve all heard ‘Never say Never’, right?  And too, we’ve all heard ‘Always follow your Dreams’! Well, I’ve done that, and at 84 years old, I am embarking on what I’ll call another journey…one that I’ve dreamed of since I was five years old.  I’ve written about it in this blog from time-to-time as well:  Finding my ‘ranchy thing’.

At 5:15 A.M. Tuesday, August 31st, I drove 341 miles to a smaller town (approx. 25,000 population) in New Mexico, met with my realtor, viewed 6 houses, made an offer on one, came back to Phoenix the next morning, put my house up for sale, sold it that following weekend, and since then have been performing my due diligence bringing this matter together.  Plans are I will be moving to New Mexico on October 28th.  Everything has gone very smoothly…no push and shove.

I found my “DreamCatcher Ranch”!

It seemed like this two-acre spot has been waiting for me.  When I viewed the property online, it felt like it was meant to be mine, and when I saw it that day and walked into the house it felt like home.  The trip certainly was worth it. 

These past many years I have lived a full life, had some wonderful experiences, came through some difficult times too,  and I’ve always held the special place in my heart and mind for the ‘ranchy place’.  I put the dream on hold more than once, and one time actually said, “I’m done looking!”  That was my brain speaking but not my heart.  Recently, when I revved up my motor again, it was quite unexpected, but there was a newfound energy with it.  All of a sudden the pieces began to fit together, and as I wrote above, the events unfolded and I’m here writing about it a short 3+ weeks later!

Interestingly, when I embarked on the move to Phoenix for the final time 30 years ago, my eldest son made the trip with me.  I was so excited to finally get here.  Now, I’ll be riding with my other son with the same excitement to an adjoining Southwestern state…  an expansion of my horizon.  My life is coming full circle, as I see it.  This move isn’t completing me, it is fulfilling me.  It feels so comfortable and I am ready for it.

I hope this message is inspiring to others.  Life is meant to be lived and enjoyed.  Experiences are meant to be had through the choices we make for ourselves. Dreams are meant to be fulfilled.

Miracles do happen! I am so grateful for every moment, every NOW.

You had this in you all the time, Kaye.  When you speak of property,

you say, ‘Location, Location, Location’…when you speak of

manifesting your dreams, we say, “Timing, Timing, Timing”.   ~Gaya

Blessed Be. To All Be Blessed.  Stay Safe and Be Well.

 

 

 

 

 

There’s Nothing New Under the Sun.

August 23, 2021 / / Conscious Awareness, Energy Connection, Freedom, GAYA, Grace, Mindfulness, Outside of Time, Peace and Understanding, Presence

 

 

Birth of Consciousness

 

I can’t write it, nor will I read it, or say it…feel it or think it!  IT all comes from the Universe through us.  From the beginning we have been blessed with prophets, gurus, mentors, knowers, sages…the Holy Information…we still have them walking our earth.  Jesus and Nelson Mandela come to my mind just now.

I think my step mother set such good example for me those many years ago, and it is in these days I’m brought back to her grace and ease and her faith, her exceptional countenance.  She blessed me in so many ways.  It was the best thing my father ever did for me in marrying her and introducing her into my life.  She had that ‘Presence’.

For many years I have accepted spiritual concepts which served me well.  Yet, it is apparent to me now, that when I resonate with a concept, the work begins when I put it into practice.  It is at this time of living the concept that I am beginning to understand…this is very personal work.  It is very holy work. It is work in silence. This work drops the ego at the door, and begins to develop insight and personal application and the outlook is so promising.  Each moment is a gem of experience, without flattery.  It Just Is!

Believing I know something, doesn’t have a permanent place.  It truly is the experience and application which proves the existence of God, Universe, Creator, whatever you choose.  In this process I actually fill up with IT.  The sharp edges are turned, and I receive the ‘Peace which passeth all understanding’ from time-to-time.  It comes in small moments of recognition along with joy. There is an understood  affirmation from within.

I know I am grateful for everything.  There is nothing original.  Be good to yourself and others.  Be kind.  Love what is all around us. This  really keeps it simple, doesn’t it?  There is no need to complicate our lives with input from the outside.  We have all the peace and the way to find more from within ourselves.  Experience life consciously. There is much to be said of Walking in Faith.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.  Be Safe and Stay Healthy.

There is so much personal power,  from thoughts to choices to experiences.

You create the life you have.   ~Gaya

 

 

Sometimes PEACE can be deafening!

July 31, 2021 / / Authenticity, Conscious Awareness, Faith and Trust, GAYA, Honoring Intention, Humility, Peace and Understanding, Presence, Responsibility, Truth to Self

These days, I’m going for peace, and serenity and equanimity.  One might think this is easy, but it really isn’t!

I live alone and am left to my own devices.  I can choose not to turn on the TV or radio.  I don’t have to say a word to anyone…I can go about my business and shun the world if I wish.  BUT, this isn’t the kind of peace I’m speaking about.  I want peace within the world in which I live.

Peace of mind requires an overall viewpoint of acceptance.  It requires generous thinking…it is living a life of allowance. Of course, dealing with responsibilities in life creates a certain amount of effort, it requires me to change what is.  It requires me to think about what I can do to pre-empt chaos.  This is as simple as changing the oil in my car to avoid engine trouble, for example.  It’s the same thing when it comes to people.  My demeanor dictates  my surroundings.  I am free to do and say that which maintains the space around me. I try to put the best construction on everything without judgment.  If peace is foremost on my mind, then I don’t want to ruffle the waters. I want smooth sailing… I don’t have to go anywhere near the water.

We say, we are in the world, not of  the world.  I can be a contributor to this world I’m in, beginning at my own doorstep.  Peace and calm is a construct of holding oneself in composure.  It’s a posture. It can’t be achieved in arrogance.  In fact, if it is not authentic, it deflates and causes chaos within my mind!

Peace is not achieved easily…it takes time and practice and knowing myself.  It is almost a skill.  I’ve found everything and everyone around me are my ‘peace testers’.  Funny, isn’t it!?  As long as I am given to ‘triggers’ or any kind of dissatisfaction, I am totally aware I always have work to do.  I love this position.  It keeps me humble at the same time I am in such earnest in achieving my intent.

It’s keeping the thoughts at bay.   I say to myself, “New thought, or No thought!”  This works for me.  It tones down the noise in my head which the Ego wants me to tolerate and keep me confused and in unrest.  Isn’t it wonderful we have the capacity to overrule, or override our minds.  We have great personal power.  When we come from the heart, this power exceeds all.  It’s clean and loving and totally well-intended.  What’s outside does not have to enter inside.  We have the keys to that doorway.

There is a Peace of God.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.  Stay safe.  Be Well.

Have Faith in your connection to that which created you.  This connection

leads and supports you on your Forever Path.  ~  Gaya

 

IT’S WHAT I DO THAT COUNTS!

June 24, 2021 / / Awareness, GAYA, Generosity, Intention, Our Essence, Responsibility

I’ve said for years, “Life is a Two-Way Street.”  But lately, I’m discovering that this may not be!

I’ve said if my friends don’t stay in contact with me on a regular basis, why should I always be the one to initiate  contact? BECAUSE IT MAKES ME FEEL GOOD!  BECAUSE I WANT THEM TO KNOW I CARE ABOUT THEM! I think these are actions of being considerate, showing interest and kindness.  It has nothing to do with ‘having skin in the game’, but it has all to do with showing up in life…after all, whatever is part of my life, mind and spirit, is my responsibility, and no one else’s.  It’s part of me tending my life’s garden.

It’s my ego which tells me, ‘even Steven’…if I called last time, you call next time.  You show me how much you care for me!  REALLY?  Is this how it goes?  I think what I do in this life and how I tend my garden is more about how much I put into it…how much I make myself known, with no thought to any return.  It’s like any other altruistic act…one ought not be looking for recompense when one does something selfless.  Selfless actions are full of self!

It’s not up to me to analyze the whys and wherefores of another’s behavior; however, it is every bit my responsibility to know why I do something.  Life is about feeling good about what I’m up to, there’s no tit for tat.  There’s no rhyme or reason to it either.  Life is spontaneous in the moment, in the NOW.  Whatever approaches us and confronts us is what we deal with to the best of our ability.  Mindfulness is very important because it suggests we have the ability to think before we act.

We’re told to stop and smell the roses.  These days I’m telling myself stop and pick a colorful bouquet!  This wonderment…the kaleidoscope of life…offers itself whenever an opportunity to make a kind and helpful gesture comes before us. When I take the time to make something more beautiful, even when it comes down to dusting off a table or polishing some brass or silver.  I, too, provide the fragrance and taste to life by virtue of my attitude and energy which I exude at any given time.  Am I  jolly and optimistic and friendly, or am I  grouchy, soar-voiced and disengaging?  IT’S ALL UP TO ME!   It’s very important that I’m concerned about how I present myself, not what someone else presents to me.  THAT’S ON THEM!

Knowing myself is so very important.  The more autonomous and confident I am, the more freeing my life is.  I owe nothing to no one.  I am free to give of myself at my own will, in the quantity of my own choosing for my own sake.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Well.  Always be safe and stay well.  May you feel happy, may you feel healthy, may you feel safe, and may you feel at ease.

You give yourself endless Peace, Joy and Happiness by virtue of what you 

think of yourself and what you can give to others.   Gaya

Who Do We Think We Are!

May 25, 2021 / / Authenticity, Awareness, GAYA, Humility, Mindfulness, Presence, Saving space for another, Self-Realization, True Freedom

We see what we see…why can’t we leave it at that?!

When we go to the woods, we expect to see trees, lots of them, different varieties perhaps, along with other plantings like ferns and moss and maybe a variety of vines. A forest is a forest. What we watch out for is poison ivy or poison oak!

If we suffer from allergies,  we know exactly what to do to fend off the symptoms of our pollen or food reactions.

If we’re not a good swimmer, we stay out of the deep waters.

When we’re growing a garden, we know we have to water and fertilize it to realize a good crop, and when we have pets, we know we need to look after their food and shelter and health needs.

We’re born into a world of people, and as infants we don’t differentiate.  People are people. They laugh, and cry, and shout.  They can be tender or rough.  We soon find out some people are easier to be around.  We recognize kindness and compassion, and we know when we are ignored.  We know when we are welcomed into a room and when we are shunned.  Very early on we seem to learn what is expected of us!   We learn there is a demand that we must please someone else…for our own sake!  We learn by our own experience when we make a friend and lose one.  We learn trust and mistrust.  We learn fair-mindedness and ruthlessness.  We think we have to belong, and we learn how to play that game, and at this precise time, we realize we are compromising our integrity, our  beingness, our own authenticity, and the question then comes, WAIT JUST ONE MINUTE! WHAT’S HAPPENING HERE?!!

When does the line get fuzzy when it comes to how we treat other people? When do we figure out that it is up to us  to trust ourselves when it comes to how we treat others? We have such good intuition when it comes to how we feel about others.  The Bible says treat others as we want to be treated.  How difficult is that?  The Bible doesn’t say “treat others who look like you” the same as you want to be treated!  (And just who looks like us anyway?  Some of us are fat, skinny, tall, short, Asian, African, Caucasian, Native American, crippled, blind, and the list goes on.)

Think of the restaurants we frequent.  We are extremely open-minded (because we are pleasing ourselves looking to satiate our appetite) when we choose ethnic foods.  We’re very polite when we order, and when we’re finished most often we are very gracious in thanking someone for the wonderful food.  We find no barriers then! AND THINK:  This is quite an intimate setting, considering we are trusting someone who is not of our own race to prepare our food!

Is this not hypocritical?

I guess what I’m trying to point out is that we have ‘selective bias, or racism’, and we exert it at will and probably it is when we feel threatened (whatever that means).  When we are ‘frequenting the world’, we are rubbing shoulders with other shoppers, tourists, diners, sports enthusiasts, hobbyists, animal lovers, etc., and we don’t give it another thought.  In these venues, we enjoy our commonality.

Well, then, can we finally realize that as human beings we have one commonality in the world, and it is that we are all human beings, trying to make it, get along in both good and difficult times, that we all have the same needs, i.e., food, shelter and clothing,  along with desires for educational opportunities, and personal livelihood pleasures, like owning a home, a bike, a car, if we want one., and we all have the same fears too.  What is it in some people who have  a need to drive someone down and hold them there?  Fear of competition?  Fear of equality?  Fear of loss?   I  happen to think it is a personal fear that they will be found out that they aren’t who they pretend to be!   And, who better to pick on but those who they don’t see as competition!!  This is nothing short of a bully attitude!

It seems human beings have to put everything to their own personal litmus test…which at best, is flawed.  Going back to the Bible, “He who has not sinned, cast out the first stone.” Now that’s a litmus test!

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.  Continue to Stay Safe and Well.

There is only one picture:  The Big Picture…Broad Vista…beautiful to behold.  ~Gaya

 

H-U-M-I-L-I-T-Y

May 10, 2021 / / Conscious Awareness, GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, Humility, Love, Saving space for another, Self-Realization

Oh Happy Day!  All is well with my world!  Whatever that has been lingering on my mind is gone!  My refund was direct deposited!  I’m not aware of a care about anything in this NOW moment!  I AM SO GRATEFUL! I am conscious of some of my many Blessings and when I receive Grace.  I am not the only one.  All have Blessings, All receive Grace.  I AM HUMBLED TO MY KNEES. (And footnote, grateful I can bend my knees!)

How can one have a spiritual practice and not feel humility all of the time?  I’ve been known to say that I had a golden thread to God…and this was never stated in a pompous manner.  Quite to the contrary.  I always felt this with such gratitude and humility.  When I feel my connection, that unequivocal, total unconditional loving and supportive connection to God, I also feel the power and I marvel that I, along with countless other human beings in the world, have a consciousness which comforts me like this: I am not special, I am not a member of an elite group of spiritualists.  In fact, the way I think about this is that anyone I meet could be representative of the Holy Commune of creation blessing me with their presence.  (Like the homeless man who I gave a lift to Good Will last week.)

I am not an untouchable…I am a touchable!  I am approachable.  I do not have to  associate with ‘certain people’ who understand me.  I’ve referred to a homeless man, David, who once prayed over me and brought me to tears.  His words were no less than those of Jesus, and I felt them.

One of my best friends and I have very different spiritual views; yet, when I am sometimes impatient with our differences, I am reminded instantly that this is one of the reasons why we are friends.  Our friendship transcends our spiritual differences. My humility reminds me I cannot begin to presume my precepts are the rule for her to follow…we each live out our lives as we came to do, each to our best ability and with the knowledge we have acquired.   This is love.  This is acceptance.  This is the art of allowing without an air of superiority.  THIS IS HUMILITY.

To paraphrase Ram Dass, a recently departed renown spiritualist, ‘there is a golden light of love in every heart, no matter how opaque the container of that heart may be.’

I can never have enough generosity of heart and humility of soul. These are my personal assurances to myself.

When you ask for help it is a humble request. Your spiritual pursuits

continuously authorize satisfaction of your curiosity.     ~Gaya

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.  Continue to Be Safe, Stay Well.

New Thoughts, or NO Thoughts! – Really Clears the air!

April 22, 2021 / / "Going for It", Conscious Awareness, Consistency with consideration, GAYA, Honoring Intention

There’s always something to work on!  Always a new way to look at something! I can always make improvements upon myself and make changes which start up a whole new experience in my life to better myself.

I love this side of it!  Here I am, approaching 84 years of age, and I’m nowhere close to feeling like my life is ending, or my thinking has to be modified, or I have to relax more and give myself more leeway.  NOT AT ALL.  In fact, if anything, I put myself  more to the test to uphold new learning which continues to inspire me.  Everything stays fresh and new when one is willing to entertain new things.

I’ve been working with not repeating thoughts…the rat-on-the-wheel kind of thinking which I’m told occupies 50% of our daily thoughts.  Imagine, we are repeating that many thoughts which essentially is saying we are leading a ‘secondhand’ life, right?  Going over and over again, chewing the same old same old, feeling the same agonies and disruptions time and again…and for what?  To continuously punish and flog ourselves over absolutely nothing that is in the NOW.

Fast Forward to Today:  It has been well over a month since my last blog.  I started this one April 1st, and for whatever reason, I had to leave it until today, April 22nd.  In the meantime, I celebrated my 84th birthday.  My son was hospitalized with a severe infection in his arm which, thankfully, has been stabilized and he is now on the mend.  My cat, Tippy, became ill, and she has traveled over the Rainbow Bridge.  For me, these three incidents in a relatively short period of time were enough to process.  What is important in all of this is the fact that I continued to work with “New Thoughts, or NO Thoughts”!  I must say, I find this exercise very liberating and stabilizing too.  I didn’t get carried away…I remained Grateful for all that I have.  I continued to be Hopeful with respect to the privilege of living. I remarked to myself more than once how resilient I felt and when I sat in the silence, I essentially instructed myself to allow only new, healing thoughts about each moment, each occurrence.

I no longer want to allow my mind to habitually dictate  repetitive thoughts and ultimately repetitive actions.  Clearly, I don’t get different results if I continue to behave in a repetitive manner.  Change can’t be avoided as life presents to us, and I can’t instigate change in my life if I don’t grab hold of my Conscious Intention and make sound choices.

Ease in life comes with recognizing how I feel when I am making choices.  It’s like the expression “Let your Conscience Be Your Guide”.  I know when I take the time, when I don’t rush into something, when I allow my body to react and alert me before I make the conscious choice, I am listening to my Essence.  It’s not about listening to the Egoic side of me trying to juggle a win-win.…it’s about facing myself head-on with my big-girl-britches on, and hearing my own instructions.  This split-second thinking rewards me with the relief I feel when I have overridden my Ego which ultimately gives me peace and understanding.

You know how to guide your way.

You are part of that which created you.

Your intention has been with you since you became.

You are right on time.   ~ Gaya

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.  Stay Safe and Be Well.

I NEED TO BE HERE, NOT THERE!

February 23, 2021 / / Awareness, GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, Honoring Intention, Mindfulness, Peace and Understanding, Presence

The peace I am feeling these days has to do with tending my own garden.   I am the controller of my thoughts, and it is my sole task to make sure these thoughts go in a positive direction and are in alignment with my intention.  You can’t keep a garden properly watered if you spray in a direction away from the plants!

Glancing over my shoulder, worrying at any level (the greatest exercise in futility in my estimation), comparing my progress in anything to another, and forgetting that gratitude comes absolutely first in order to posture myself in tune with more abundance and happiness, are the most significant distractors from my original intention:  expanding my awareness and continuing to have a fully exploratory experience of the greatness that comes with the huge privilege of living my life.

If I am not on top of my game, mere thoughts that haven’t even solidified into any kind of reasonable pattern can cause me to swerve and diverge, and before I know it, I’m off on a tangent of go-nowhere thinking, which ultimately doesn’t make me feel good. This total distraction lures me away from my purpose if I’m not actively holding myself to task.  You’ve heard when someone says, “Don’t go there” [with that kind of conversation].It’s the same thing.  I don’t want to go there either!  I must stay here!

I have to be an active participant in my life all of the time.  I am responsible to hold myself accountable…thought, word and deed.  This takes attention and intention, a game plan.  It takes sincerity and seriousness about what I have figured out is important to me.  It requires me to follow my own star(s), because I am unique, and therefore, my experiences are also unique.  Since ever, I have been formulating my Forever Path…I’ve made good and not-so-good choices, I’ve solved and resolved, learned, fallen and always risen back up, and there has been a reason for all of it.  I am forging ahead, always looking for more to expand my consciousness.

Clearly, the more difficult my experience, the more difficult the lesson.  My entire life has been by design just for me.  I’m planning it all of the time.  It is becoming easier because I am understanding more, and I am seeing the results of my attention and intention.  There is a rhyme and a reason for everything.

I know I’m doing good when I am feeling good about what I am doing.

“Only you can make an impact on your own life. It has to do

with the wisdom you gain along the way.”  ~ Gaya

Blessed Be. To All Be Blessed.  Be Safe, Stay Well.

 

 

Messages From Within…From ME to ME.

February 6, 2021 / / Awareness, Faith and Trust, Freedom, GAYA, Grace, Honoring Intention, Peace and Understanding, Source Energy, Truth to Self

I’ve stated many times that I talk to myself, and I really do believe this inner dialogue is between me and my Higher Self.  The thing is, I have so many thoughts all of the time, and it’s the important ones I want to hold dear.  I’ve discovered how I select which are the important thoughts: I’m nudged to write them down, like in a post, or in my books, or in a journal, or in this blog. I have a Word file which I label Hope and Faith.  I add to this all of the time.  It’s my glossary of excerpts I have written in comments/answers online, and it’s also others’ words which I have found so profound and meaningful to me.

So what am I trying to say?  In my introspection, I know I’ve repeated during live streams that I do them for me as well as for anyone who finds them meaningful and helpful.  Now I’m beginning to think they’re much more for me when I’m trying to get in touch with myself.

Some say it’s through pain and suffering that we find our way as we resolve and solve and triumph repeatedly throughout our lifetimes.  I agree; however,  I also think when I’m quiet and in deep thought because I am searching for some answers, and when I have asked for help in finding my way, these answers seem to appear from me to me.

I’m certain I’ve touched on this theory in prior blogs, but now I’m much more specific to my point. If I can help it, I don’t want to go down the pathway of pain and suffering as a final option just because I’ve neglected to read the signs that are given to me each and every day…and they are in black and white!  My own words!  My own instructions to Me!  My walking my Talk! These are Blessings, it is God-given Grace.

Never to forget I am a Divine Being, living in a human condition.  I have intuition…I know when I am in tune, going with the flow, acknowledging my own inquiry.  I hear it:  “Be still, and know that I am God.”

There is no such thing as being lost, you are your own audience.

When you ask the question, you are prepared to give yourself the right answer.  ~Gaya

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed. Stay Safe and Well.

 

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