Awareness

Elusive Peace

July 30, 2024 / / Awareness, Energy Connection, It's all in the Energy, Our Essence, Silence, Source Energy, Transcendence

“I just want some peace!” “Give me some peace!’ “Where can I find some peace?

Certainly I’m not alone in this search!  Nobody says life is easy in all its cliche’. I’ve accepted for years that there are peaks and valleys to contend with…we take the good with the bad…we sigh deeply sometimes and await some relief.  It comes, and for a time we forget what was before, rather like childbirth…we forget the pain…as we flush with pure unconditional love for our new arrival.

Come to find out in my advancing years, there is a steady course that I’ve been following unwittingly:  I learn as I go along, just as I’ve been doing since I became. Peace  is what I AM.  And, as I’ve been peeling away my onion for these many years, it reveals itself to me in the silence, when I’m willing and then able to release the chaos, the drama, the senseless hullaballoo of daily life and welcome in that ‘peace of God which passeth all understanding.’
It’s mine for the asking and for the taking.

Availing myself of this peace isn’t easy, however.  It takes mindfulness and intention to make it a priority within me,  It’s a practice which cannot be set aside.  It’s a habit which has to be formed within. It is NOW my spiritual practice.  I allow myself to get in touch with my Essence the best I can. There’s a space within me which opens up to me. I am learning that I can ‘cut connections’ which no longer serve me.  These are emotional connections which have been with me all my existence and I have been using and relying upon them like crutches, except they have been restricting and holding me back from new awareness and growth. It’s a matter of being very conscious of what triggers me. I am finding most triggers are no longer valid. I just have to consciously identify them and literally instruct myself to disengage them. It’s like giving myself an update like we update our computers and phones. As I remove the triggers, that space then  allows peace to enter.  Out with the old and in with the new!

Our brains aren’t creative, but our Essence is. Necessity is the mother of invention. My Essence is totally aware of what I don’t need in my human existence.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.  PEACE TO ALL.

All reveals itself in good time.   ~Gaya

 

 

 

I’ve Done It, I Do It, I’ll Continue to Do It.

March 5, 2024 / / Awareness, Energy Connection, Faith and Trust, GAYA, Intention, Presence

Today has been a momentus day!  So many things arose that needed correction!  Mechanical things…technical things…things I’ve always told myself that have been difficult or near impossible for me to figure out! BUT, TODAY, it has been different!

Today has been the day I worked with myself. Instead of going into some sort of a panic, I stayed relaxed and calm.  It was as if I ‘assumed’ my capability and I trusted the help I may need was going to be there for me to accomplish what had to be accomplished. I remained in touch with myself  and my intention.  Well, folks, everything got handled.  Easy Peasy.

This is a huge understanding/awareness and it is difficult to explain, other than that I practiced what I’ve been preaching!  I accepted in faith my power.  The answers just didn’t pour into me, but my tenacity and belief that I could figure it out by asking my computer questions, over and over again, with trials and errors, until the solutions appeared.  Bottom line, I DID IT!

No question, our minds make or break our accomplishments! They can give us hope and optimism or they can bring us to our knees in powerlessness with no belief of success.

I can do what I want to do as long as I keep the faith in myself and my essence. I am inextricaably connected to and unconditionally loved and supported by God, Source, Universe, Creator.  There is no stopping my abilities and capabilities. It thrills me to pass this on!

Blessed Be. To All Be Blessed.

To ask is to be given. To believe it is to see it.   ~ Gaya

There’s No Place to Go From HERE

December 10, 2023 / / Authenticity, Awareness, Energy Connection, Faith and Trust, GAYA, Living in the NOW

The HERE, the NOW, the PRESENT…all one and the same. There’s no escaping WHAT IS!  Some may think they’re stuck with it…I happen to believe I’m Blessed with it.

I know I expound often on what a privilege I think LIFE is to be lived.  It’s such a joy to use my SELF as I participate. Living alone, this is what is available to me:  my personal input, my self-honesty, my authenticity during my days, my observations as I proceed intuitively ofttimes with no thinking, just responding to what has presented to me.  This is, in fact, when I commence a blog.

I find it so interesting when I am introspective and I challenge myself to the truth:  what am I thinking? Why am I thinking this? is this from my ego or from my heart? Do I approve or disapprove and why?  What is my motive, do I have an agenda? What is my purpose of the moment?

It’s not about what others think anymore. What a relief this is! It’s about interrogating myself and answering truthfully.

If I do need validation, thankfully I have someone I can turn to.  We all need someone who has no vested interest in us other than they honestly care and have exhibited this time and again.

I want to feel whole and competent… and so far so good.  There is pure joy in living and doing and being.  There is pure joy in sitting in the silence and listening. There is pure joy in believing I am worth it and honoring that worth. And, whatever I offer to myself, I freely can give to another:  my attention and care and effort to enhance their present moment.

Blessed Be. To All Be Blessed.

All answers come from within. Truths do set you free.  ~ Gaya

 

I CHOOSE To Be In Stillness Sometimes

September 19, 2023 / / Awareness, Energy Connection, GAYA, Life and Living, Our Essence, Peace and Understanding, Presence, Self-Consciousness, Silence

These days I’m choosing to sit in stillness more…and I’m trying to accomplish something for doing it:  I want to  place myself  in a state of consciousness.  In doing this, I’m silently communicating with who I am in this silence.

This is an unguided experience so I can’t be concerned if I’m doing it ‘right!’  It’s an action by me with me.

I don’t think Living is just all about doing an overt action or speaking out loud. I’m learning that it has a great deal to do with the silence involved because in silence there is perfect calm along with wakefulness and deliberate intention too.

Meditation is similar to this, but it isn’t the same somehow. With meditation I begin with trying to sit in the silence and quiet my mind.  When I go to this place of finding consciousness, I am hearing sound (I ring a chime), and then deliberately follow the sound until I do not hear it anymore.  I guess I can liken it to ‘white noise’ when I have TV on in the background.  Eventually, I am working around the house and don’t even hear it anymore unless I deliberately go stand in front of the TV and put my attention to it.

This is another concept about deliberate effort while living. I am realizing that I have been ‘living by the basics’…the rules and definitions that have been taught to me…the Human side of me. I’m finding out that there is so much more  about my existence and it doesn’t have a thing to do with neighbors or friends, or what I’m eating or wearing or where I’m planning to go or what I’m planning to do when I get there!

My little dog, Porter, shows me how this is done too.  He’s very active and wants my attention especially early morning when we get up.  He sort of pesters.  Then, after a while, he simply lays down by my feet and goes into his own silence.  He’s undisturbed while I’m working at the computer.  He remains in his own silence and consciousness and he isn’t concerned about me or himself at all until I get up from my chair.

So, what do I conclude in sharing this with you?  The stillness in my life brings me in touch with ME, my real beingness…and this concept is totally removed from ME, Kaye A. Peters. I don’t have an identity when I do this…I am part of all life which isn’t speaking to itself, it just exists..it just IS.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

You find your Peace and Understanding in your own good time.   ~Gaya

   

I’ve Blessed Myself to Heights of Understanding Myself.

August 4, 2023 / / "Going for It", Authenticity, Awareness, GAYA

Today my houseguest left to move into her own space.  It’s a happy day for her and for me, but not one of ‘relief’; rather, my feelings are of personal satisfaction and happiness that I was able to complete my personal COMMITMENT . I’m a much better person in most every way! It’s sort of like I’ve been on a retreat for these past 7 weeks.

I don’t think I have ever been so consistently and deliberately authentic with another person.   We had determined we had to interact this way in order to keep our open communication on the same page.  Believe me, folks, if you have the opportunity or desire to make a positive difference in your own life, take it from me, there’s a stack of rewards from your effort that comes to you.

My son will be arriving within a couple of weeks and he and a friend will spend the night and then return home. ln mid-December he will return for an extended stay.He has his own rig with living accommodations.  I am looking forward to his visit because I have the same COMMITMENT in mind and already I am swirling with ideas of how I can be, helpful, considerate, understanding, compassionate and fair-minded.  I always have love in my heart, but as I have experienced from time-to-time sometimes  something can go haywire and off track.

I intend to use my entire experience of these past weeks…what a training session, with first-hand knowledge to rely upon.

One thing’s for sure, it is I who must carry the torch to success!

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

Intention with effort is everything. Always do your part.   ~Gaya

is everything.  Light-heartedness goes a long way too.  ~  Gaya

 

I Am An Erector Set!

June 30, 2023 / / Awareness, GAYA, Gratitude, Living in the NOW, Mindfulness, Our Essence, Peace and Understanding, Self-Realization, True Freedom, Truth to Self

I’ve been realizing these days that I am the only one who can give myself peace of mind.  This said, I don’t spend much time mulling things in my mind which wastes my time…if I observe myself doing it. I try to be more centered on thoughts that fill me up with enthusiasm for life and doing things which project my optimism moment by moment.  I really do spend a great deal of time expressing my gratitude for so many things.

I wrote a poster not long ago which defined “Commitment” as no other option.  Gosh, believing this makes life even simpler, albeit more serious as well.  To me it’s satisfying that I can propose options to myself to most everything when it comes to choices.  Subsequently, I already know  that I will like the outcome because of the intentional actions I take.

I can take  mystery out of my life on a daily basis, and welcome what presents to me which is the joy of living in the NOW. And, when I am then faced with more choices, I can review what I will and won’t commit to, and what I will allow occupancy in my day for the entertainment and pleasantry for as long as I wish.

We all know worry does nothing but upset us.  We also know that acceptance is a key to streamlining our days and relaxing in the flow of the action.  I also keep reminding myself that it is I who dictates where I will stand…I am not a tree, I can move around any which way to get my footing and reposition myself.  Like I said in one of my books, I believe if I made my bed I have to sleep in it; however, I can move it around any way I want in this process.  Nothing is so ultimate except death….and perhaps regret,

I have a friend staying with me for 6 weeks.  We both made a commitment to make it work. We don’t know each other very well,  so we are customizing our positions with pure consideration for each other.  This isn’t always easy, but we continue to remind ourselves that we committed to the arrangement for our individual reasons.  I’m glorifying my position in this, because I  have begun to realize what it takes to commit to something/someone and how important my word and actions are.  They are absolute!!  I am proud of myself and also, I am learning such vital lessons yet to learn this late in my life about how to make the best of everything.  I have been given a great personal life  opportunity by fulfilling this commitment. I realize how instrumental I am about everything in my daily life and how it affects me and others.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

Gratitude is a Connection to Everything.   ~Gaya

 

 

 

 

Gratitude is a Fabulous Creator.

October 15, 2021 / / Awareness, Conscious Living, GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, Intention

I didn’t think I’d be writing another blog before I moved to New Mexico, but this morning, it came to me:  I’ve been living more consciously these past weeks than I think I ever have in my lifetime!

Since I purchased my new home and sold my current one, everything I’ve been doing has been methodically planned, starting with how I began packing to how this whole move will happen.  My calendar is my ‘assistant’ and it has become my go-to-first-thing every morning!  There are stages to moving, as there are stages to life, and there are patterns which I’ve resurrected from my past moves/packings and I’ve enjoyed creating new, more efficient ways to complete some of these repetitious tasks of yesteryears.

The fact is, I’m so conscious of what and how I am behaving during this time.  I keep schedules, I’m reliable to myself, I keep on keeping on until I reach a plateau of accomplishment.  All of this time is so self-fulfilling, and I’m enjoying the repetitive tests of my mental, physical and emotional agility in this process.  I’m amazed at my personal strength of will and desire to continue to achieve what I am setting out to do as what probably may be the biggest life experience attempt I have very consciously made for myself.

Clearly,  there is direct parallel between this very personal experience and how I want to live my life every day, after the move is completed.  I’m alert, self-directed, purposeful, goal-oriented, self-satisfied and self-fulfilled every day.  I give myself compliments and ‘Atta Girls’ all the time…sometimes audibly!  Yes, my stamina isn’t as long-lived as when I was in my 50’s and 60’s, but my Will to Do  is constant.  I’m never disappointing myself.  I do what I can do and respect my body’s signals to take a rest and resume later.  I am not feeling rushed about anything.  I receive the NOW comfortably as I go.

I have overflowing continuous gratitude for this whole experience – I’m developing more patience because as we all know, things don’t necessarily go wrong, but often they do go differently than we want them to go at times! At the end of each day there are more boxes closed up, piled upon each other, I’ve taken the time to eat and rest and take pleasure in doing one thing at a time.  I don’t scatter my energy nor my intention.

Thirteen days left…and there has been an Ease and Grace which is so assuring.  I acknowledge my blessings and, again, I am so Grateful.

Blessed Be and to all Be Blessed.  Stay Safe and Be Well.

Conscious Living provides myriad rewards.   ~Gaya

IT’S WHAT I DO THAT COUNTS!

June 24, 2021 / / Awareness, GAYA, Generosity, Intention, Our Essence, Responsibility

I’ve said for years, “Life is a Two-Way Street.”  But lately, I’m discovering that this may not be!

I’ve said if my friends don’t stay in contact with me on a regular basis, why should I always be the one to initiate  contact? BECAUSE IT MAKES ME FEEL GOOD!  BECAUSE I WANT THEM TO KNOW I CARE ABOUT THEM! I think these are actions of being considerate, showing interest and kindness.  It has nothing to do with ‘having skin in the game’, but it has all to do with showing up in life…after all, whatever is part of my life, mind and spirit, is my responsibility, and no one else’s.  It’s part of me tending my life’s garden.

It’s my ego which tells me, ‘even Steven’…if I called last time, you call next time.  You show me how much you care for me!  REALLY?  Is this how it goes?  I think what I do in this life and how I tend my garden is more about how much I put into it…how much I make myself known, with no thought to any return.  It’s like any other altruistic act…one ought not be looking for recompense when one does something selfless.  Selfless actions are full of self!

It’s not up to me to analyze the whys and wherefores of another’s behavior; however, it is every bit my responsibility to know why I do something.  Life is about feeling good about what I’m up to, there’s no tit for tat.  There’s no rhyme or reason to it either.  Life is spontaneous in the moment, in the NOW.  Whatever approaches us and confronts us is what we deal with to the best of our ability.  Mindfulness is very important because it suggests we have the ability to think before we act.

We’re told to stop and smell the roses.  These days I’m telling myself stop and pick a colorful bouquet!  This wonderment…the kaleidoscope of life…offers itself whenever an opportunity to make a kind and helpful gesture comes before us. When I take the time to make something more beautiful, even when it comes down to dusting off a table or polishing some brass or silver.  I, too, provide the fragrance and taste to life by virtue of my attitude and energy which I exude at any given time.  Am I  jolly and optimistic and friendly, or am I  grouchy, soar-voiced and disengaging?  IT’S ALL UP TO ME!   It’s very important that I’m concerned about how I present myself, not what someone else presents to me.  THAT’S ON THEM!

Knowing myself is so very important.  The more autonomous and confident I am, the more freeing my life is.  I owe nothing to no one.  I am free to give of myself at my own will, in the quantity of my own choosing for my own sake.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Well.  Always be safe and stay well.  May you feel happy, may you feel healthy, may you feel safe, and may you feel at ease.

You give yourself endless Peace, Joy and Happiness by virtue of what you 

think of yourself and what you can give to others.   Gaya

Who Do We Think We Are!

May 25, 2021 / / Authenticity, Awareness, GAYA, Humility, Mindfulness, Presence, Saving space for another, Self-Realization, True Freedom

We see what we see…why can’t we leave it at that?!

When we go to the woods, we expect to see trees, lots of them, different varieties perhaps, along with other plantings like ferns and moss and maybe a variety of vines. A forest is a forest. What we watch out for is poison ivy or poison oak!

If we suffer from allergies,  we know exactly what to do to fend off the symptoms of our pollen or food reactions.

If we’re not a good swimmer, we stay out of the deep waters.

When we’re growing a garden, we know we have to water and fertilize it to realize a good crop, and when we have pets, we know we need to look after their food and shelter and health needs.

We’re born into a world of people, and as infants we don’t differentiate.  People are people. They laugh, and cry, and shout.  They can be tender or rough.  We soon find out some people are easier to be around.  We recognize kindness and compassion, and we know when we are ignored.  We know when we are welcomed into a room and when we are shunned.  Very early on we seem to learn what is expected of us!   We learn there is a demand that we must please someone else…for our own sake!  We learn by our own experience when we make a friend and lose one.  We learn trust and mistrust.  We learn fair-mindedness and ruthlessness.  We think we have to belong, and we learn how to play that game, and at this precise time, we realize we are compromising our integrity, our  beingness, our own authenticity, and the question then comes, WAIT JUST ONE MINUTE! WHAT’S HAPPENING HERE?!!

When does the line get fuzzy when it comes to how we treat other people? When do we figure out that it is up to us  to trust ourselves when it comes to how we treat others? We have such good intuition when it comes to how we feel about others.  The Bible says treat others as we want to be treated.  How difficult is that?  The Bible doesn’t say “treat others who look like you” the same as you want to be treated!  (And just who looks like us anyway?  Some of us are fat, skinny, tall, short, Asian, African, Caucasian, Native American, crippled, blind, and the list goes on.)

Think of the restaurants we frequent.  We are extremely open-minded (because we are pleasing ourselves looking to satiate our appetite) when we choose ethnic foods.  We’re very polite when we order, and when we’re finished most often we are very gracious in thanking someone for the wonderful food.  We find no barriers then! AND THINK:  This is quite an intimate setting, considering we are trusting someone who is not of our own race to prepare our food!

Is this not hypocritical?

I guess what I’m trying to point out is that we have ‘selective bias, or racism’, and we exert it at will and probably it is when we feel threatened (whatever that means).  When we are ‘frequenting the world’, we are rubbing shoulders with other shoppers, tourists, diners, sports enthusiasts, hobbyists, animal lovers, etc., and we don’t give it another thought.  In these venues, we enjoy our commonality.

Well, then, can we finally realize that as human beings we have one commonality in the world, and it is that we are all human beings, trying to make it, get along in both good and difficult times, that we all have the same needs, i.e., food, shelter and clothing,  along with desires for educational opportunities, and personal livelihood pleasures, like owning a home, a bike, a car, if we want one., and we all have the same fears too.  What is it in some people who have  a need to drive someone down and hold them there?  Fear of competition?  Fear of equality?  Fear of loss?   I  happen to think it is a personal fear that they will be found out that they aren’t who they pretend to be!   And, who better to pick on but those who they don’t see as competition!!  This is nothing short of a bully attitude!

It seems human beings have to put everything to their own personal litmus test…which at best, is flawed.  Going back to the Bible, “He who has not sinned, cast out the first stone.” Now that’s a litmus test!

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.  Continue to Stay Safe and Well.

There is only one picture:  The Big Picture…Broad Vista…beautiful to behold.  ~Gaya

 

I NEED TO BE HERE, NOT THERE!

February 23, 2021 / / Awareness, GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, Honoring Intention, Mindfulness, Peace and Understanding, Presence

The peace I am feeling these days has to do with tending my own garden.   I am the controller of my thoughts, and it is my sole task to make sure these thoughts go in a positive direction and are in alignment with my intention.  You can’t keep a garden properly watered if you spray in a direction away from the plants!

Glancing over my shoulder, worrying at any level (the greatest exercise in futility in my estimation), comparing my progress in anything to another, and forgetting that gratitude comes absolutely first in order to posture myself in tune with more abundance and happiness, are the most significant distractors from my original intention:  expanding my awareness and continuing to have a fully exploratory experience of the greatness that comes with the huge privilege of living my life.

If I am not on top of my game, mere thoughts that haven’t even solidified into any kind of reasonable pattern can cause me to swerve and diverge, and before I know it, I’m off on a tangent of go-nowhere thinking, which ultimately doesn’t make me feel good. This total distraction lures me away from my purpose if I’m not actively holding myself to task.  You’ve heard when someone says, “Don’t go there” [with that kind of conversation].It’s the same thing.  I don’t want to go there either!  I must stay here!

I have to be an active participant in my life all of the time.  I am responsible to hold myself accountable…thought, word and deed.  This takes attention and intention, a game plan.  It takes sincerity and seriousness about what I have figured out is important to me.  It requires me to follow my own star(s), because I am unique, and therefore, my experiences are also unique.  Since ever, I have been formulating my Forever Path…I’ve made good and not-so-good choices, I’ve solved and resolved, learned, fallen and always risen back up, and there has been a reason for all of it.  I am forging ahead, always looking for more to expand my consciousness.

Clearly, the more difficult my experience, the more difficult the lesson.  My entire life has been by design just for me.  I’m planning it all of the time.  It is becoming easier because I am understanding more, and I am seeing the results of my attention and intention.  There is a rhyme and a reason for everything.

I know I’m doing good when I am feeling good about what I am doing.

“Only you can make an impact on your own life. It has to do

with the wisdom you gain along the way.”  ~ Gaya

Blessed Be. To All Be Blessed.  Be Safe, Stay Well.

 

 

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