Faith and Trust

Here I am at DreamCatcher Ranch! I’m my own version of a 2022 Pioneer Woman! Life continues as long as we let it…until it stops us! And, this is just what I’m up to now!  I’m no different, really, except I’m polishing and planning every day in my new surroundings. On one hand, it’s ‘old hat’, and on the other, life continues to dish up new and exciting vistas.

I’ve come from my heart, my dreams.  I’ve trusted myself, my energy, my sheer guts and grit, and my God, Universe, Creator,  and in retrospect, in what seemed like a blink of an eye, I transported myself into another world of living!   I’m planted in totally new surroundings which feel familiar.  My experiences are self-fulfilling…like a prophecy.  I don’t have any feelings of having ‘arrived’.  It’s more like, “Oh, I see, this is what I’ve done now.”  And, “I wonder what I’ll be up to; I wonder where I’ll take myself.”

Life has so much promise and as I near 85 years old, it doesn’t feel like I’ve peaked!  This time of my life is not an Acme!  I’ve merely shown myself what a person can do when they pull out some of the ‘stops’!

I’ll say it again, I’ve never loved a time of my life more!  And, I’ve never loved myself more! 

I’m ever-grateful for every experience and person I’ve met along my Forever Path. The falling down, and the picking myself back up. I’ve never had more Faith than I have right now…in myself and in God, Universe, Creator.  We’re held in the hands of greatness that is personal only to ourselves.  Whatever swirls in our minds can be ours if we can conjure up our own, innate magic wand that is ever so powerful to perform our Will.

Napoleon Hill said it:  “Whatever the mind can conceive and believe it can achieve.”

Ask and it shall be given unto you; seek and ye shall find;

knock and the door shall be opened unto you.   

…Oh ye of little faith… ~  Jesus

Trust and rely on the Goodness of All Creation

and the connection to your Forever Path.   ~Gaya

Blessed Be. To All Be Blessed.  Stay Safe. Be Well.

 

I’m comfortable where I am.  I’m closer to nature than I have been in years. I can feel that I am going with the flow of my life. I’m meeting people who fit right into ‘my way’.  People around me show me they like my company.  I feel the generosity of others in many different ways, i.e., from a freely offered gesture to be of more help, to actual gifts of sincere budding friendship. I feel my Peace.  I feel my Gratitude.  I feel I belong.  I am happy.  I have joy in my heart.  I’m starting to deeply understand “what is” and it is becoming easier to ‘let it be’. I think there is a ‘Peace of God which passeth all understanding’ and an acceptance of that silent personal Power. I understand the dynamic of making myself happy through visionary accomplishment and achievement and self-fulfillment.

Tomorrow is New Years Eve Day and I’m mindful how I want to revere this particular time of my life.  I have started a new life.  The few constants in my life remain:  My Spiritual Practice, my belongings, my friends, my son and my activities on the internet. I am not a stranger…I feel my connection…my Presence.  My surroundings welcome me too. Each morning I await with anticipation what is presented to me.  I feel my Blessings.  I’m aware I am Blessing my surroundings as well, in particular, I am giving my new home so much loving care.  I am Careful, i.e., full of care for myself and whatever/whomever I encounter.  It feels like I am within a ‘networking circle’.  Information comes to me as I share my needs and interests, and this can be through my thoughts and aspirations as well as verbally.  I believe this is the Universe, God, Creator, whatever you call it, providing what I need.

  • Matthew 10:29-31 Are not two sparrows sold for a cent? And yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from your Father. But the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So do not fear; you are more valuable than many sparrows.
  • I feel complete and competent. I feel uplifted emotionally and spiritually. Little did I know 4-5 years ago when I bought a warm jacket that it’s perfect for this chillier Winter climate!  Unwittingly, I came prepared to this new state and home!

I am building my Faith, it’s inevitable.  LIFE is such a gift. What’s around us is such a gift. Those we meet are such a gift. Every experience we have is such a gift.

“Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That is why it is called the present.” ― Eleanor Roosevelt

All is meant to be.    ~Gaya

Happy New Years yet to come to All. Stay Well, Be Safe.  Blessed Be to All.

 

 

We’ve all heard ‘Never say Never’, right?  And too, we’ve all heard ‘Always follow your Dreams’! Well, I’ve done that, and at 84 years old, I am embarking on what I’ll call another journey…one that I’ve dreamed of since I was five years old.  I’ve written about it in this blog from time-to-time as well:  Finding my ‘ranchy thing’.

At 5:15 A.M. Tuesday, August 31st, I drove 341 miles to a smaller town (approx. 25,000 population) in New Mexico, met with my realtor, viewed 6 houses, made an offer on one, came back to Phoenix the next morning, put my house up for sale, sold it that following weekend, and since then have been performing my due diligence bringing this matter together.  Plans are I will be moving to New Mexico on October 28th.  Everything has gone very smoothly…no push and shove.

I found my “DreamCatcher Ranch”!

It seemed like this two-acre spot has been waiting for me.  When I viewed the property online, it felt like it was meant to be mine, and when I saw it that day and walked into the house it felt like home.  The trip certainly was worth it. 

These past many years I have lived a full life, had some wonderful experiences, came through some difficult times too,  and I’ve always held the special place in my heart and mind for the ‘ranchy place’.  I put the dream on hold more than once, and one time actually said, “I’m done looking!”  That was my brain speaking but not my heart.  Recently, when I revved up my motor again, it was quite unexpected, but there was a newfound energy with it.  All of a sudden the pieces began to fit together, and as I wrote above, the events unfolded and I’m here writing about it a short 3+ weeks later!

Interestingly, when I embarked on the move to Phoenix for the final time 30 years ago, my eldest son made the trip with me.  I was so excited to finally get here.  Now, I’ll be riding with my other son with the same excitement to an adjoining Southwestern state…  an expansion of my horizon.  My life is coming full circle, as I see it.  This move isn’t completing me, it is fulfilling me.  It feels so comfortable and I am ready for it.

I hope this message is inspiring to others.  Life is meant to be lived and enjoyed.  Experiences are meant to be had through the choices we make for ourselves. Dreams are meant to be fulfilled.

Miracles do happen! I am so grateful for every moment, every NOW.

You had this in you all the time, Kaye.  When you speak of property,

you say, ‘Location, Location, Location’…when you speak of

manifesting your dreams, we say, “Timing, Timing, Timing”.   ~Gaya

Blessed Be. To All Be Blessed.  Stay Safe and Be Well.

 

 

 

 

 

These days, I’m going for peace, and serenity and equanimity.  One might think this is easy, but it really isn’t!

I live alone and am left to my own devices.  I can choose not to turn on the TV or radio.  I don’t have to say a word to anyone…I can go about my business and shun the world if I wish.  BUT, this isn’t the kind of peace I’m speaking about.  I want peace within the world in which I live.

Peace of mind requires an overall viewpoint of acceptance.  It requires generous thinking…it is living a life of allowance. Of course, dealing with responsibilities in life creates a certain amount of effort, it requires me to change what is.  It requires me to think about what I can do to pre-empt chaos.  This is as simple as changing the oil in my car to avoid engine trouble, for example.  It’s the same thing when it comes to people.  My demeanor dictates  my surroundings.  I am free to do and say that which maintains the space around me. I try to put the best construction on everything without judgment.  If peace is foremost on my mind, then I don’t want to ruffle the waters. I want smooth sailing… I don’t have to go anywhere near the water.

We say, we are in the world, not of  the world.  I can be a contributor to this world I’m in, beginning at my own doorstep.  Peace and calm is a construct of holding oneself in composure.  It’s a posture. It can’t be achieved in arrogance.  In fact, if it is not authentic, it deflates and causes chaos within my mind!

Peace is not achieved easily…it takes time and practice and knowing myself.  It is almost a skill.  I’ve found everything and everyone around me are my ‘peace testers’.  Funny, isn’t it!?  As long as I am given to ‘triggers’ or any kind of dissatisfaction, I am totally aware I always have work to do.  I love this position.  It keeps me humble at the same time I am in such earnest in achieving my intent.

It’s keeping the thoughts at bay.   I say to myself, “New thought, or No thought!”  This works for me.  It tones down the noise in my head which the Ego wants me to tolerate and keep me confused and in unrest.  Isn’t it wonderful we have the capacity to overrule, or override our minds.  We have great personal power.  When we come from the heart, this power exceeds all.  It’s clean and loving and totally well-intended.  What’s outside does not have to enter inside.  We have the keys to that doorway.

There is a Peace of God.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.  Stay safe.  Be Well.

Have Faith in your connection to that which created you.  This connection

leads and supports you on your Forever Path.  ~  Gaya

 

I’ve stated many times that I talk to myself, and I really do believe this inner dialogue is between me and my Higher Self.  The thing is, I have so many thoughts all of the time, and it’s the important ones I want to hold dear.  I’ve discovered how I select which are the important thoughts: I’m nudged to write them down, like in a post, or in my books, or in a journal, or in this blog. I have a Word file which I label Hope and Faith.  I add to this all of the time.  It’s my glossary of excerpts I have written in comments/answers online, and it’s also others’ words which I have found so profound and meaningful to me.

So what am I trying to say?  In my introspection, I know I’ve repeated during live streams that I do them for me as well as for anyone who finds them meaningful and helpful.  Now I’m beginning to think they’re much more for me when I’m trying to get in touch with myself.

Some say it’s through pain and suffering that we find our way as we resolve and solve and triumph repeatedly throughout our lifetimes.  I agree; however,  I also think when I’m quiet and in deep thought because I am searching for some answers, and when I have asked for help in finding my way, these answers seem to appear from me to me.

I’m certain I’ve touched on this theory in prior blogs, but now I’m much more specific to my point. If I can help it, I don’t want to go down the pathway of pain and suffering as a final option just because I’ve neglected to read the signs that are given to me each and every day…and they are in black and white!  My own words!  My own instructions to Me!  My walking my Talk! These are Blessings, it is God-given Grace.

Never to forget I am a Divine Being, living in a human condition.  I have intuition…I know when I am in tune, going with the flow, acknowledging my own inquiry.  I hear it:  “Be still, and know that I am God.”

There is no such thing as being lost, you are your own audience.

When you ask the question, you are prepared to give yourself the right answer.  ~Gaya

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed. Stay Safe and Well.

 

Today in meditation, I spent more time – longer than ever before – as I wandered around in my mind, situating myself with the IT…The answers I keep trying to find.

I have this mind which governs the day-to-day  choices I make as a human being, and these human choices create the activities and experiences and emotions and solutions and resolutions I have in response to it all. I realized in my silence that there is so much repetition, so much recurrence of the same old same old…like I never seem to get through IT, or get IT done! Furthermore, I also realized that because I know how long I have spent on IT, I can reasonably conclude that I have done all I have  to do, I don’t need to concern myself with IT anymore, and I can trust that God, Universe, Source Energy, Creator concur!

I’m letting go of the lead rope!  IT can handle ITSELF!

I am a Spiritual Being.  At Essence I am totally whole and innocent. When I became, I had properties which I implemented at will. I implanted  into the human consciousness.  The Spirit is in the human journey of experience.  The human being creates its reality.  I’ve been aware for some time of the ‘split’, i.e., my spirit beingness and my humanness, but until today in meditation, I had never realized the two plateaus could be observed simultaneously.  I observed what Kaye has been up to, what her consciousness has been concentrating on, right along with what Spirit was sensing:  This is my time to understand the relationship between the two minds, if you will.

My Spirit wants to keep on going.  It doesn’t want to be waylaid for any length of time on an experiential event…it wants to continue to learn and advance consciousness through experience. which has to do with the human choices.  The human mind thinks it is optimum…that it’s all-powerful, that it’s IT.  But, it is not!  The Spirit is IT!

I am consciously allowing my Spirit Mind to lead me through this concept.  I want to continue on….I feel fulfilled and finally, I think  I am better resonating and integrating all of the words I have  ever said and written – in my books, my posters, my posts, these blogs, my comments.  There is more to just believing something…one has to fully integrate and resonate and then very consciously live it…this is what being Mindful is all about I guess… Understanding more and more.  It is the PEACE OF GOD.

Make no mistake, this is no ‘arrival’; however, it is a huge understanding as I see it. I am peeking into my two minds:  My Spiritual Mind and my Human Mind.  The Ego has no place in the Spiritual Mind. The Spiritual Mind is loving and non-judgmental, encompassing whatever the human mind chooses.  The Spiritual Mind has Patience and Understanding, and offers Intuition and Wisdom to the human mind.  I am choosing to link my human mind with my Spiritual Mind to expand my conscious awareness and exalt my  human experience.

Blessed Be to All.  Stay Safe and Be Well.

The present unfolds into the known, and then the past. Cherish the Newness of Life.  ~Gaya

 

Life is so fluid, and I keep moving along with it, whether I like it or not.  One thing’s for sure though – my thoughts have to stay current with my days!  This is a mouthful, folks!

When I decide something, it becomes a moot point.  My thoughts bring me to my choices and actions right away. Then, off I go to the races to other thoughts that are determining my Forever Unending Pathway.  Concurrently, I am experiencing contrast – some by my own doing, and some through Life’s presentations.  I try to thoughtfully respond, but all too often I react instead.

I think I keep way too much in my head after I have made a decision about something.    It may be because it’s familiar territory, and it’s easier to chew over the same cud rather than begin again and again, but the fact is, life is a continuous stream of  new experiences.

It is my responsibility to keep up with the fast-paced stream, and I also have to keep myself current with what my attention and intention is.  It’s as simple as that!   I want to know where I want to be in all of the activity.  I pretty much stay out of the fray anyway.  I go where I am interested in going.  I won’t be dragged along by others anywhere.

I guess what I’m pointing out to myself is that this NOW I’m trying to live never has a past or a future, only NOW, and this is just enough for me to handle.

As I’ve gotten older, I can look back to ‘simpler’ times, but why?  Those who came after me never knew of them, they’re living what they know NOW.  And to look back and lament is a warped way of complaining as I see it.

Come to think of it, as I grew up and lived my life, things were moving fast too, and I was learning new things all the time.  I never sat with my experiences and asked Life to slow down.  I mostly thought of the ways to resolve and solve what needed attention.

So, I guess the long and the short of this message is an affirmation that I always have been at the helm of my ship, directing my course, whether I was aware of it or not.  Fast pace or slow, I’m always responsible for my actions and words, and what I create

I am a powerful spiritual being, aligned with God, Source, Universe, Creator.

No one is alone…lest in their thoughts.  Breathe in the healing energy,

and breathe out that which no longer serves you.    It is good to  honor

your inextricable connection to God.   ~Gaya

 

 

 

I am a Wonder of the World.  We all are!

I’ve stated that I think it is good to take our own inventory.  Somehow, this suggests looking at our flaws and frailties so we can get in touch with how we judge others so harshly, which has no place in love.

I come to think now that taking my own inventory ought to be in a loving and kindly way.  Pulling out my goodness and my divinity.  Holding my head up high and proclaiming how special I Am.  Reminding myself that I’ve spent these 82+ years polishing myself up, learning so many lessons, softening my heart, and marveling in the revelation that I am a  spiritual being living in a human existence inextricably connected to, and  unconditionally loved and supported by, God, Source, Universe, Creator, since I became.

I realize I am more than a body and personality and I am stretching my limits and expanding my understanding of Higher Consciousness and Intuitive Wisdom toward more awareness and enlightenment.

I continue to rip off masks of self-deception, and thrill to newfound freedom of spirit.  It’s becoming so much easier to admit “I’ve been wrong”, “I’m trying to understand you”, “I’m listening and I’m interested in what you have to say”, “I care about you”, and above all, “I’ll take that risk!”  in Faith, to enlighten my path.

There are many times my intuition nudges me and I might not be alert enough to follow the needle on my life compass. I can no longer ignore the interconnection of everything.  Why?  Because it starts with me, and how I think; where I place my attention and intention.  I am not separate and apart from anything.  I float in the same stream with the wafting leaf.  I hear and see, as All hear and see me.  We speak the same language:  I AM HERE TOO. WE ARE ALL HERE TOGETHER. WE KNOW THINGS. I ACKNOWLEDGE YOUR PRESENCE. LET US RESPECT EACH OTHER.

Life is a trial-and-error, live-and-learn proposition. Nothing goes unnoticed by Everything that IS.

Blessed Be… To All Be Blessed.  From My Heart to Your Heart.

Kaye continues to tell her story…we enjoy her expression and resolve, as does she.    ~Gaya

No mirrors and no one around me?  A ‘writing out loud’ moment.

If I was on a desert island I wouldn’t have others’ opinions to deal with, I wouldn’t be comparing myself to anyone else, and I wouldn’t make disheartening self-judgments.  I’d be living a trial-and-error existence, one of survival and experience and experimenting, always improving and moving forward.  I’d be creative and enduring.

If I was on a desert island I’d probably feel moments of dissatisfaction with my progress, but on the other hand I’d have moments of peak joy of accomplishment too.  I’d be having ‘inside moments’.   I’d recognize my efforts.  I’d be creative and enduring.

If I was on a desert island I’d be a spontaneous human being and there’d be no one standing in the wings ready to rain on my parade.  I’d make decisions about my life using my own rationale.   I’d rely upon my own standard as to the how and why I was making my decisions.  My intuition would be a reliable guide and I’d listen.  Instincts would alert me because there wouldn’t be the chatter of anyone else in my ears trying to control me.  I’d be creative and enduring.

If I was on a desert island I’d have to be self-reliant and alert.  I’d learn how capable I am in finding solutions for obstacles.  There wouldn’t be the opportunity to blame others, I’d be dealing with myself and nature…the Source of all things, the Creator of what Is and ME.  I’d be creative and enduring.

If I was on a desert island I’d be grateful for the sunshine and all the goodness in my life that provided me food and shelter and clothing and a body to wear the clothing, eat the food and enjoy my shelter.  I’d be grateful for the peace I could enjoy.  I’d be grateful for the hands I had to take care of myself, for my eyes which see the beauty of the world, for my taste buds as I prepared and ate my food.  I’d be creative and enduring.

If I was on a desert island I’d be my own entertainment, I’d sing my songs and dance and give thanks.  There’d be no thought about what I looked like, but rather, how I felt.  I would be asking my heart, not anyone else, what do you want from me today?  I wouldn’t need a mirror, I’d be creative and enduring.

Of course, I’m not on a desert island, but I’m brought to myself when I think like this and I’m reminded that essentially, it’s always between me and my Gaya, Source, Creator, Universe.  And, there is great comfort in my faith that I am unconditionally supported no matter what I do... there are always lessons to learn, yes, but I am no less worthy or important no matter what’s going on each day.  I’m reminded that it is I who create my reality.  It is exactly how I think things are that appears in front of me.  I am reminded that my conscious awareness is a state of beingness which I create.

In this fast moving world,  I can visit my desert island whenever I wish.  I am creative and enduring.

When you feel our connection, you feel the blanket of unconditional love and support.

Draw us closer into your heart and know we are with you.    ~Gaya

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

 

 

LIFE IS A CURRENT!  Whatever appears in our daily lives will stay as long as we are attached to it.  Sometimes we even forget about it, but do not deliberately let go of it, so it wafts around in our mind like a leaf in water following the ‘current’.  It’s never really top dog in our ‘current’ affairs but it’s not gone and rendered useless either UNTIL WE GRAB IT AND DISCARD IT PERMANENTLY!

Living in the NOW means working with what is ‘currently’ going on in the moment.

I had an experience in the past two days which involved my beginning another design of my life.  I was serious and had to get all ducks in a row.  THREE COMPREHENSIVE  PREPARATORY FACT SHEETS!  I was involving a professional person and no way could I expect this person to give me time out of her very busy schedule without my being fully prepared to provide all the information she would require.

I feel so productive right now.  My introduction to this new person in my life proved successful in more than one way.  She will support me and I believe has become a new friend.   With clear attention and intention, I look forward to a mutually beneficial association.

It comes to me that we are always in preparation for life.  It’s not about the mundane stuff we go through every morning after we get up.  It’s about welcoming what presents to us every moment…new people, new information, new dreams and goals, whatever Life presents to us  and to which we respond.  This includes thoughts and ideas which we create for ourselves as we co-create our lives and experiences.

So what is the point I’m trying to make?  I want my life to be orderly and I want to be able to work with what is ‘currently’ in front of me, whether it is presented to me or I have brought it up for consideration.  I don’t want ‘old facts and figures’ around to confuse the ‘current’ picture.  I want my emotions to be up front and calm so I can deal with whatever comes up.  I don’t want long gone events to blur my vision.  I don’t want to be scattered.

I am feeling the pulse to my life and there is an added  cadence as I continue to be mindful how I’m enjoying the privilege of living it.

We are in unison with your wisdom.   ~Gaya

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.