Gratitude

Time Is Always At Hand.

April 7, 2020 / / Authenticity, Conscious Awareness, GAYA, Gratitude, Honoring Intention, Life's Impressions, Living in the NOW, Mindfulness, Responsibility

‘Now is the time for all good men [women] to come to the aid of their country.’  Does this look familiar to some of you?  It is the sentence we used in typing class.  Why I thought of it this morning, I don’t know…but isn’t it appropriate?

If I’m going to come to the aid of my country, I have to come to my own aid first.  This means back to basics when I think this way.

I turned 83 this past week and I must say, it feels good.  I’ve been on this earth quite a long while.  So much has happened. And, these days, we are experiencing something very new…IT’S A FIRST FOR ME IN ALL MY YEARS.  In all my time, I guess it’s the right time for me to experience this pandemic virus, Covid 19.

Every time is the right time for each one of us.  We all have our own perception of things, we have our own reality, we think peculiarly to ourselves.

TIME. I have as much as I need to do what has to be done.  There is always just enough of it to complete each moment I am alive.   It’s always available to me…like an never-emptying vessel. I have it when I’m sleeping and when I am awake.  I can use it however I wish, to do with as I choose.   I can choose to repeat, or change, or waste it.  I can spend time, I can never save it.  Yet, it’s always at my fingertips.

Time is like a magic wand.  Wherever I place my attention and intention, I make choices and take actions and create my world…all in the time I have.  At the end of the day it’s about ME and how I’ve utilized MY time.  At the end of the day, it’s about what I’VE been up to!

As of this moment, I have a new respect and concept of TIME.  I value it more. It is truly an overlooked treasure. As long as I am breathing, I am ‘in the Grace of Time’.  I am the magician in my life.  I can take time to do anything.

Blessed Be. To All Be Blessed.  All Be Well.

Closer she comes to more clarity and understanding of what is important to her.  ~Gaya

 

 

How Many Nudges Does It Take To Wake Myself Up?

January 14, 2020 / / Conscious Awareness, Energy Connection, GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, Honoring Intention, Intuition, It's all in the Energy, Love, Self-Realization, Source Energy, True Freedom

I AM more than a body and a personality!  I AM a spiritual being living in a human condition, inextricably connected to, and loved and supported unconditionally by, God, Universe, Source, Creator, since I became.

It has been in this 82nd year of my life that I’ve come to know and believe with understanding the above statement….and Oh, What a Mind-Blowing Comfort It Is!

“Living” in the spiritual sense, is not personal at all.  My Essence, the Soul, the Higher Consciousness, my Higher Self,  my Intuitive Wisdom, is IT!  There is no judgment..there is “the interactive passage of energy between us”, the descriptive definition I first gave to this blog, Liferays.net, almost five years ago…but I didn’t fully understand this when I did it!

“Living” in the human sense, however, is very personal.  I have thoughts, my attention and intention, which become choices and actions which create my world. This is my personal power and my Higher Self is in constant communication with me, offering information and  awareness and enlightenment to the degree which I can understand it.

My heart is in direct communication with my Essence and these huge forces of nature have continuously supported my human existence toward one end:  To realize my true self.

I realize now that life is  serious personal business.  It is absolutely important that I concentrate on my human connection to my spiritual essence so I can relieve myself of all worry, anger and fear.  There is a Divine Mind in the spiritual plane which I can choose to think about.  This Divine Mind is part of me, and it is up to me to become a part of IT.

How do I go about bringing myself closer to that which created me?  I think it begins with Gratitude and  an acknowledgment of the myriad Blessings which come from a bottomless urn. This way of thinking is a state of being…it comes directly from my heart.  It feels holy.  As I continue to practice this, trying to make the connection, I get glimpses of how superficial and limiting the human existence really is.  All the labels and judgments and programming of  the mind are so inhibiting and restrictive, so fraudulent and withholding.

I become a small-minded person, and I am so far away from my spiritual essence, when I put such emphasis on the worldly things.  Take “Love” for instance.  It is an overview,  not a performance. I see it as an understanding of  ‘live and let live’ joined with the compassion of “How can I help you?”.

I am committing to devoting just one hour a week toward thinking on connecting with the Divine Mind.  Through a Wayne Dyer course I have been introduced to new reading and this will further my attention and intention to this end.  The Impersonal Self,  and The Life and Teachings of the Masters of the Far East (6 vols.).

My spiritual practice is important to me.  I already am realizing the benefits from my conscious endeavor.  In my mind’s eye, I’m a member of a spiritual team which will continue to infinitely love and support me unconditionally.  This is a Powerful Presence.

Each new Awareness presents a New Beginning.   ~Gaya

 

 

Grab that Peace of Christmas and Peace of Mind.

December 21, 2019 / / GAYA, Gratitude, Life and Living

It’s all a matter of perspective!   I have three decorations up this year…no tree…yet there’s a hint ‘Tis The Season to Be Jolly!  I’m not playing Christmas music yet, and don’t know if I will.

A couple of weeks ago I celebrated Thanksgiving and Christmas with my son.  It was the traditional couple of days of prepping and cooking and at the end of the day I was whipped!  It was worth it, but at this time of my life (82+), I’m planning to downsize in this department too.

I have found as I age there’s a lot of modifying that goes on.  Call it accommodating.  It’s smart, for the body’s sake and keeps me mindful that some of the traditional ways I’ve done things for years can be approached differently…accomplishing the same thing, albeit slower.

I’m giving myself a jar-opener for Christmas!  I also bought a long-sleeved cashmere sweater and gold-plated small hoop earrings.  The ones I have are 8 years old and really dull.  I still have my cashmere sweaters which I toted here from Minnesota thirty years ago…have always worn them with jeans.  Love ‘the look’.   These things will make me happy.  People see me on my live streams and may notice I pretty much wear the same thing over and over again.  That has been ‘my way’ through the years…”Waste not, want not” was something my mother said fairly often in my upbringing.  Not a bad mantra.  I have never gone without in my lifetime, and for that I’ve always been grateful.

I’m happy each year I have enough to pass forward.  My donations focus on children and animals.  I know every amount counts up, and I’m grateful I am doing my part.

I haven’t gone to the stores much this month.  From Black Friday after Thanksgiving onward, parking lots are outrageous, people are streaming everywhere, and the whole energy is Buy, Buy, Buy.  When I see people walking out of the stores with carts brimming, somehow I relate to gluttonous eating.  Such overkill in one seasonal fell-swoop to celebrate and please others.  It’s like ‘drop what’s gone on all year’ and put on a “Happy Face” for the gala.

I do admire those who decorate their homes and outside yards for others to enjoy.   I do believe these people thoroughly enjoy the season and entertaining others with their creativity.  It’s a very sincere way of giving I think…for the hard work it takes to pull it off.

I spent so many years overspending at Christmastime when my sons were young.  Talk about a brainwash that it’s a ‘must’ to have way too many presents under the tree for children.  I recall one year my one son played with the vacuum cleaner all Christmas morning for a long time…he was around 2.  He liked his presents, but it’s whatever catches the fancy that gets the attention at the time.

I’ve said before, ‘Age is No Free Pass to Wisdom,’ but I will say, it’s a blessing to lift the burden of the ‘have-tos’ and ‘musts’ and finally do exactly what makes me happy…and fits my budget too.

SEASON’S GREETINGS TO ALL.  MAY YOUR DAYS BE MERRY AND BRIGHT.  BLESSED BE.  TO ALL BE BLESSED.

PEACE ON EARTH, GOOD WILL TOWARD MEN.

Namaste’

We thrill to your full heart, Kaye.     ~Gaya

 

I Know What I Want To Do… Relax And Follow My Own Dictates.

October 29, 2019 / / Energy Connection, Freedom, GAYA, Grace, Gratitude

I’ve mentioned before I’ve taken two Tai Chi courses, and still haven’t been able to practice the art the way I wanted to!  I never saw myself as graceful, and as long as I envisioned myself as clumsy, It ‘was what it was’!  I’ve bookmarked many a UTube on the practice, and still haven’t been able to achieve what I thought was how I was supposed to perform this incredible healing art.

Well, the tide has turned today for me on this subject.  I listened to a video today which covered, among other things, the art of breathing.  Most of my meditation courses deal with this as well, but for some reason, the presentation I was working with today reached that part of me where I felt my own ease and grace and alignment and it hit me like a ton of bricks!  I’ve been trying to do something the way I have observed others doing it, instead of doing it the way it feels TOTALLY COMFORTABLE for me to do it.   I do not need a class for me to move my body the way my body knows it can move and wants to move to achieve that feeling of alignment, being in tune, enjoying my own movement just as I choose it.  It’s no different than dancing like nobody’s watching!

I’ve been brought to another awareness of how easy it is to put oneself in a pressure cooker, or rush toward a finish line which doesn’t exist.  It’s Grace and Glory to wake up a bit more and feel the purity of my life and the privilege of living it.

I quoted years ago, ‘my life is by my own design’ and this means much more to me this day.  Freedom abounds…choices are abundant…joy is the continuous discoveries that we make that fit like a second skin.  Oh what a glorious 360-degree picture.

Now you know what a true sigh of relief feels like..It’s breathing us in

and breathing out, at your own rate…and acknowledging it feels so good.        ~Gaya

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

THOUGHTS OUT LOUD.

August 23, 2019 / / Authenticity, Conscious Awareness, Energy Connection, GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, Honoring Intention, Humility

No question, ‘in the middle of my life’ in my senior years, I am taking a renewed interest in Life and how I’m living mine.  I’m all for making whatever changes which suit my attention and intention.  I want to achieve as much peace and joy in my life as possible.

“Peace” is a big word…and I can see how I instigate myself away from peace when I choose to get involved in another’s experiences.  I know I mean well, but the fact is, just because I think I may have a remedy to be considered, that isn’t to say that it’s workable to another person whose mind isn’t at that same place.  Said another way, maybe I should  listen and offer nothing!  Now that would be a switch!

I think I confuse myself when I think how I define ‘communication’:  The giving and receiving of information between people.  There is more to it than this.  Some people just want to vent.  Maybe they like to be in their quandary.   It’s just something on their mind and sometimes I’m the handy one to receive it.  I think it’s me assuming that because a person wants to say something to me, they’re interested in my response...but they are not!

I recall hearing years ago something like this:  When you’re in a room with a group of people – say 5, as the example – each person is responsible for only 1/5 of the conversation.  I also remember this particular wisdom included that people are very uncomfortable in silence, and what may seem like minutes between talking, is really only a few seconds, and most usually, one of the 5 will begin speaking just to break that silence.  Sit in the silence!

Sometimes when a person makes a less-than-flattering statement about themselves, most usually a listener will jump right in and ‘get them off a hook’.  A person might make a leading comment, such as ” I think I’m way too outspoken, bordering on rude.”  Quick enough the savior will respond, “Oh, no, I don’t think so.  You’re just being honest.”   A manipulation occurred, and there was approval.  The wisdom to this example is to let the would-be manipulator have that last word. Allow people to be responsible for what they say. 

I love looking into myself.  I am giving myself this attention for a reason.  My entire life has been a series of lessons of polishing …allowing me to keep on shining more brightly, making everything worthwhile.  It’s the opportunity to revive some of my greatest moments in gratitude and maintain humility, as I  continue to tweak and make changes that I know enhance me, my character and my authenticity, as I awaken and fill my Soul.

We so enjoy these conversations, Kaye. Look straight into your crystal ball.

You will not lead yourself astray.  We are One and we are Peace and we are Joy.   ~Gaya

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

 

 

Aquariums…Still Waters…Choppy Waters!

July 16, 2019 / / Conscious Awareness, Faith and Trust, GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, Humility, Love, Peace and Understanding, Self-Realization, True Freedom

Peace, Tranquility, Equanimity, Silence, Serenity, Unflappable,  Oneness, Wholeness, Connection.  Beyond… way beyond….the Observer,  disallowing any interference.

These were the sensations I was feeling this morning during my meditation experience.  Amazing…Absolutely Amazing.  Let me tell you folks, it’s worth the wait!  It has been my intention to Practice my Spirituality.  In so doing, meditation has become a part of this practice, and I’d be the first to express it hasn’t been easy!  I’ve enlisted the aid of Deepak Chopra, Ram Dass, Echart Tolle… all of whom graciously offer their own experience selflessly.  I listen to podcasts on the subject of meditation, I join free seminars. I’m in a 21-day meditation experience with Deepak and Oprah right now.  Thankfully, I believed their promises that I would be the better for the experience…that my life would be enhanced and my awareness would increase…all toward learning the purpose of why I am here in the first place.

As I listened to Deepak’s words this morning, already in my meditation position, eyes closed, hands folded, I readied myself as usual.  When the time came to ‘begin’, I began to resonate with “I am unbounded changeless self”.   I then began to open up to being changeless and whole, and it slowly made sense that whatever was around me all of the time is that of perpetual change, and subject to all kinds of outside interference and as a human being, I respond and react to what comes to me…Yet…I then saw an aquarium in my mind’s eye, and clearly, the water beneath the surface was still…not moving, not changing…even though the surface was choppy and wavy! 

I am totally grateful for this glimmer-awareness of my Essence…my unflappable Spirit.  The power and strength of this Spirit is unmistakable.  It is that which has kept me from drowning in the choppy waters!

Blessed Be my reassurance that beneath whatever upsets or dishevels me is this Spirit of  Wholeness of Being, which cannot be changed…”a bulwark never ceasing.”

Living life is never in vain.  We provide the stairs and railings, and we ascend as One.   ~Gaya

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

 

I’m Glad My Antennae Are Working!

June 25, 2019 / / Energy Connection, Faith and Trust, GAYA, Gratitude, Intuition

I had a rear-bumper-bender on June 4th.  Thankfully, after the bumper was taken off the car was still operable.   What followed was a week of  receiving information.  I got ‘her’ to a body shop for a damage repair estimate.  Would my car be totaled?  This prospect didn’t rest well with me.    In the past 6 months I had spent well over one thousand dollars in repairs!  A 1999 Chevrolet Malibu doesn’t have much book value, but she has much heart value to me.  Her gas mileage is outstanding (23-28 mpg in town), and besides, she’s the vehicle I had purchased  in 2011, just prior to the death of my eldest son.  I had relied on her to make several trips  when I retrieved his belongings, and I was so grateful ‘we’ accomplished those trips without event.  That’s how she got her name:  Angel. 

After discussion with my son and deliberation over my options, I decided to keep the car and have her repaired.  I know her better than I would another used car that would most probably have its own set of problems.

It’s June 25th, Angel hasn’t come home yet.  On the 19th, I returned my rental, knowing I could manage without a car for a ‘period of time.’  At the latest, I thought she’d be back by yesterday.

As I’ve stated many times, Life is a Series of Events.  I’m sharing this experience to express my gratitude for the privilege of living my life, as these events occur.  During this time I have relied upon my intuition, and I am aware that it feels like I am going with the flow.  I had even gone to the store before returning the rental to pick up a few items, just to be safe.  When I was in the store, I kept thinking get cat food.  I bantered with myself back and forth…the car would be back in but a few days…no, I don’t need it…or, do I?  I walked away from the pet food aisle, and stopped.  Go back and get cat food!  As it turned out, today I ran out.  Not to worry,  as I looked at the bag on the shelf and smiled.

This is my testimony and my affirmation of my gratitude.  I am so grateful when I am able to witness these series of events and recognize that this is what it means when I am in tune.   It will be nice to have Angel back home.

We’re together in all of these events.  We’re in your heart space.     ~Gaya

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

 

 

 

God Grant Me the Serenity to Accept the Things I Cannot Change and Change the Things I Can…In ME!

June 11, 2019 / / Conscious Awareness, Faith and Trust, GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, Humility, Living in the NOW, Responsibility, Source Energy, Truth to Self

When I am in problem – especially repetitive problem – it is good to try to put into perspective why I choose to view my problems as such hindrance, as against such privilege for me to gain awareness.  It is all too easy to immediately point fingers outward at people or circumstances and make them the objects of  why my life has chaos in it. Of course, my reaction to everything is key, but as I sit in the silence right now writing this blog, I can’t circumvent the fact that if I choose to be affected by anything outside of me, I have chosen to be attached to it in some way.

At birth I was physically detached from my mother when the umbilical cord was severed.  Henceforth, I became emotionally attached, totally dependent upon her nurturing and physical sustenance.  In the process of maturing, I learned rules and social skills from everyone I was around.  School became the first introduction to existence within another social setting and exposed me to academia and socialization in preparation for my entrance into the world as an independent human being, presumably ready to care for myself and become successful in my own life.

Trial and error, tripping and falling and getting back up for another stab at succeeding became routine. Through the years this process became easier because I learned I was capable; I was resilient; I was Faithful and Hopeful that this process of living life was totally worth it;  I was Blessed to have met certain Earth Angels who guided me and loved me through some difficult times; circumstances offered me opportunities along the way too – some of which I grabbed onto and some I missed.

Through all this, what can I apply to continue on my Forever Path with more ease?  Today I sit in the silence and again realize I need to find the answers within me.  I need to clarify my perception of my position within the chaos.   As much as I certainly do need others around me – friends, colleagues, peers, and neighbors – I am essentially alone.  The chaos I am feeling, is none other than my attachment.

Life serves itself up to me every day!  I live in the NOW of my life the best I can.  Life is nothing more than continuous NOWS, which fleet into PASTS.  Attachment is in the mind and wreaks havoc!

I need to let everything and everyone BE and I need to unconditionally accept ALL as it IS.  This goes for  accepting ME too!  I am FREE to change my perceptions to suit my Joy, Happiness and Peace.  I must be KIND in the face of adversity…kind to others and to myself as well.  This is a GENEROUS act.  I am Grateful.

My saving Grace is my desire and willingness and courage to change the things I can…ME.

We are your support, your anchor, your wind in your sails. We become One in your Hope and Faith.   ~Gaya

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

             

I Choose The Swings!

April 13, 2019 / / Conscious Awareness, Energy Connection, GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, Love

It surely is time well spent sitting in the silence of mediation for 15 minutes or so.  I suspend away from thoughts and drift into a space of nothing and everything  and somehow I allow myself to be reached from the beyond, my Gaya, Source Energy,  and when I ‘return’,  the phrase I coined many years ago comes to mind.  “Everything is as unimportant as it is important”.

I’m sitting in this ‘glow’ right now and it feels so wonderful not being tumbled into anything…just sitting in the inclusion of ALL.    Why would I want to stir up things around me?  I am a sentient being and aware when I am disrupting…reacting…feeling the touch of dis-ease within my beingness.  I allow myself to be in tune when I am calm and not restless.  I can feel the difference when I deliberately tune out and away when activity outside of me is not serving me.  I don’t need to have an energetic judgment thought, I can simply weave myself away and out of reach to stay in my peace.

I am feeling gratitude for the realization that I am a part of something far larger than my day-to-day activity or preoccupation with living my life.  I’m on the fringe of beginning to understand that LIFE is pure experience to be hallowed.   I am a life transmitter!  There are dictates inside of me that are always sparking.  My Higher Self thrills when I step beyond thought and planning and move into the doing of life.  This is beyond attitude or a state of mind.  This is making my own way through the ease and grace of living life to my fullest joy and elation with new awareness and understanding of where I am intending to go.  The feeling is like when I was a child and went on the swing.  I could pump myself higher and higher and pretty soon I would be swinging so high it was scary but so exhilarating too….and it was I who controlled it all.  

What a wonderful state of Being.

Enjoy!    ~Gaya

I AM NOT ALONE…EVER!

April 9, 2019 / / GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, Honoring Intention, Self-fulfillment, Self-Realization, Source Energy

I have provided pretty good company for myself all these many years.  I guess living alone means different things to different people.  When parents experience the ’empty nest’ syndrome when children leave home for college or marriage, or whatever else, ofttimes they suffer this ‘loss’ for a time.  I don’t recall feeling this way, but I do feel the ‘loss’ when I have had house guests and when they leave, I experience a letdown which I combat by stripping the bed linens and bringing my house back to ‘my order of things’.  Tomorrow I’m going to be doing just this when my Sister in Heart returns to her home in Spain.  My son left this morning after a near-eight-week-stay…longest I can ever remember.

I’m in my silence now until I retrieve my ‘Sister’  this afternoon from her return off a jaunt she took while here.  We have this evening left together.

I feel it!  There is no undertone of company, except the dog and cat.  There are no echoes of loneliness either. The beginning of the memories are lodged and will fulfill themselves when I kiss my Sister goodbye tomorrow. This is all I know in this NOW.

I was encouraged by a guided meditation of Deepak Chopra this morning:  “Every day my Being seeks new ways to expand.”  This is exactly what I have been feeling.  I guess this is how I keep my good company with myself too.  Gaya, my non-physical friends, and I are in cahoots!  I am provided the fodder for my activities which in turn nurtures me, fulfills me, encourages and supports me, inspires me, loves me, and helps me to keep on keeping on.  Coincidentally, I can only do this alone and unassisted. In this awareness, I am being guided by this loving presence…my Source, my Guidance System…which is focused on me and, of course, on all others.  This awareness is the catalyst to my connection – my immersion with ALL.  There are no limits or boundaries.

In conclusion, I have been renewed in spirit by my son’s presence, and I have been filled and fulfilled by my Sister’s loving visit.  What wonderful blessings have been bestowed upon me.

Kaye’s intention supported this experience.  

Her consciousness of our forever-presence

perpetuates the flow of her joy, happiness and peace.   ~Gaya

 

 

 

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