Not this year, 2019, nor any other year in the near future, will I “arrive!” Actually, I’ve always believed this and never think of my life along these lines; however, I have had hopes I learned some lessons ‘FOR GOOD’, if this makes any sense.
Now, after having to backtrack my tracks, and rethink again my actions and reactions, I’ve begun to believe that because things and people and circumstances are always changing moment- to-moment, it’s all I can do to keep up, and keep my head on straight, as I try to do the right thing at any given moment in the NOW of anything and everything! This is a mouthful and a brainful too!!
As old as I am, nearing 82, it is never “Too soon old, too late smart”, as the saying goes. Guess there’s no real reason to always try to figure out stuff. Living in the NOW for nearly a year, I take everything as it comes for the ‘start up’ of each of my days, but now I’m finding out I don’t take the ‘end up’ of my days so well when I have some troubling experience pop up! It is still the NOW, but why is it so difficult for me to navigate this? What a conundrum!
As much as I love to look around every corner for the surprise of life, I think I’ve forgotten I also need to accept the surprises that occur, which may stem from familiar ground, but that ground hasn’t been remaining the same and, therefore, circumstances and people and things have been changing as well! True enough, nothing is carved in stone, no matter what!
What have I learned? Don’t come to a conclusion about anything. Always be ready for anything. What IS NOW is ONLY NOW. Everything presented to me is NEW IN THE NOW NO MATTER WHAT!
I don’t think I have to go back to my drawing board, but I fully intend to broaden my scope of thought about MORE (which may suggest futuristic thinking), from NOW on.
Happy New Day Everyone. I do believe I gained my one step back, and added another one ahead.
Let’s hear it for giving ourselves some ‘wiggle room’.
Kaye finds it difficult to drop the reins of her life and accept fully ‘what Is’. Of course, this stems from early childhood when it was near impossible to control her circumstances. Every day she comes closer to us with full Faith and Trust that ALL is perfectly fine. There is never a reason for her to be concerned. She knows she is part and parcel of ALL. ~Gaya
Blessed Be. To All Be Blessed.
I was thinking about how I was thinking this morning…how impatient I can think…how, perhaps, this could be interpreted as intolerant of others and where they’re coming from when they comment about something in conversation.
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