April 2018

What is Expected of ME?

April 30, 2018 / / Gratitude, Life and Living, Life's Impressions, Self-fulfillment

What a question I have posed.  This is interesting territory!  Is the pressure ON or OFF?!!

In my small world, I am firstly, a single woman of years… a mother… a friend… a neighbor… an author…a Buddhist practitioner…the host of a weekly online  ‘live’ broadcast from my Facebook page, Just Sayin’   Kaye A. Peters… a member of a few authors’ groups on Facebook…a customer in any retail environment…and at the end of each day, lastly, I am still a single woman of years enjoying the privilege of living my life in the Human Condition with no endgame in sight, but, first and foremost I am a Spiritual Being, and must attend to my Soul.  

Each hour that I am privileged to live, I try to fulfill my roles to whatever degree my responsibility presents itself.  I essentially believe I am ‘living my purpose’ to its fullest,  doing the very best I can and being the very best I can be.  Thus, it follows, by my intentions I am nourishing my Soul and providing myself with joys and happiness and continued awareness and enlightenment that become a perpetuation of self actualization.

I am finding that I have what I will call ‘soulful antennae’.  These are feelers that extend from me and ‘pick up’ mixtures of energies that are always swirling around me and from within me too.  I notice I find it difficult to distinguish them when it comes to what, if any, action is required of me.  I’m concluding right now that it is primary that I decipher what is mine to tackle.  I am responsible to leap my own hurdles.  Sometimes there has been a soft place for me to fall, and sometimes I have been that for another too. Kindness, interest, encouragement and support are wonderful gestures to lend a hand or a leg up to someone on their own path.  Altruistic Action.

The answer to my question,  What is expected of ME?    Whatever I can do that fills my Soul while providing self-fulfillment to my human life purpose, honoring my Creator in gratitude for my well-meaning Presence in the larger world picture.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

 

Self-Fulfillment…Oh, What a Beautiful Morning, Oh What a Beautiful Day!

April 21, 2018 / / Life and Living, Self-fulfillment

…And a Good Morning it Is!…And a Good Day it Will Be!  When I feel Self-fulfilled, I Feel the Joy and I Feel the Peace!

I’m breaking into the crust of what Self-fulfillment means to me when I Put My Intention to Doing what I Need to Do to Feel It!  It’s all about choice!

I’m meditating now with ritual.  What this means is that I am following through with a commitment to myself which I made after the 21-day meditation experience with Oprah and Deepak.  I commented online after one of the sessions that I was going to include meditation in my daily routine…and this was because I was feeling the positive results early on.  I wrote down all of the thoughts for the day, and the mantras so I am following that…and this is providing me guidance.

When I hoofed this morning it came to me that when I have truly felt self-fulfilled in my lifetime (and most of these times were when I completed projects…and, of course, the highlight of the feeling was when I birthed my sons) I didn’t have to go for the same experience again! 

Let’s take the first time I refinished a piece of furniture.  This was years and years ago when I was raising my sons, and had very little extra money, so when I wanted to ‘see something different’ in my home, I couldn’t just go buy something from a store to augment my rooms…I had to think of a way I could do it with what I already had.  I could afford a can of ‘zip-strip’ to take off furniture finish, and either paint or apply color stain for my ‘new look’.  That ‘first time’ was like none other! I worked extraordinarily hard because I had no past experience, and I followed the directions to a ‘T’. Everything was an unknown.  I was certainly in the NOW and didn’t even know it!  When the final coat dried and I sat back and admired my work…I was overcome with pride of accomplishment.  I loved everything about it, and the absolute glow within myself of self-achievement and the self-fulfillment that accompanied my whole idea in the first place was ENOUGH FOR ME.  There wasn’t any compliment I subsequently received  that came close to my knowing what I had done and how wonderful I felt about my tenacious attitude toward the hard work to get the job done and looking so good.

Since that time I’ve completed many similar projects, and of course, felt self-fulfilled. When I start out a project I already know I can do the job and I know I’ll love the result. I’m not needing that feeling again…I’m loving the ‘hobby of it”.

I’m trying new things these days…new approaches, new logic.  This is about my eating habits, folks.  I’m experimenting with just what choice(s) I can make as I go for some ‘thing’ or some ‘way’ of doing something.  I’m extraordinarily aware of  how I’m thinking about it…and the cream is rising to the top, slowly but surely.  I’m realizing how wonderful I really do feel when I make a deliberate choice to do something that I know is to my best interest and good and ‘feelings about myself’.   Case in Point:  Each day that I have been making such deliberate experience choices, I am creating a snowballing effect of the feeling of self-fulfillment.  My thoughts are not about depriving myself…my thoughts are how I’m thriving and about how capable I am looking after myself….I am feeling the power…I am feeling the joy of taking the reins deliberately!

This is about ME PUTTING INTO ACTION THE WOMAN I AM, THE PERSON WHO IS CONFIDENT OF SELF, THE PERSON WHO KNOWS I CAN MAKE GOOD DECISIONS FOR MYSELF…MOREOVER, I WANT TO MAKE GOOD DECISIONS FOR MYSELF!  

I AM FILLING MYSELF UP WITH DELIBERATE THOUGHTS AND CORRESPONDING CHOICES  SO I CAN BE THE VERY BEST I CAN BE…ONE THOUGHT AT A TIME…ONE DAY AT A TIME…AND I AM ABSOLUTELY AWARE THESE DELIBERATE THOUGHTS AND CHOICES ARE RESONATING DEEPER AND DEEPER INTO MY SPIRITUALLY AWAKENING SELF…MY SOUL SELF…ONE-TIME THOUGHTS AND SELF-FULFILLING FEELINGS THAT ONLY I CAN GIVE TO MYSELF FOREVERMORE.  

I know this much:  When I have an AUTHENTIC SELF-FULFILLING EXPERIENCE, I DON’T HAVE TO REPEAT THAT EXPERIENCE AGAIN.   I JUST WANT TO KEEP ADDING MORE CREAM TO THE CAKE…LOVING MYSELF MORE AND MORE!

The more self-confident I become, the more authentic and less vulnerable I AM.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

I Am Not A Bad Arse After All! THE EGO MADE ME DO IT!

April 9, 2018 / / Life and Living

I’ve just completed what turned out to be a 22-day meditation experience with Oprah Winfrey and Deepak Chopra.  Today was a ‘bonus day’ – in more ways than one for me!  So much so, I knew in the meditation I would immediately come to my blog to express myself….I need to ‘expose’ my awareness NOW so I don’t let it slip away before I can totally integrate what I now know to be a huge awareness – a huge breakthrough – a huge truth for me, as I continue my spiritual journey on my Forever Path…now more than ever, No Endgame In Sight!

NOW, more than ever, I am able to see how it fits that Life has to be a moment-to-moment, day-to-day experience.  Nothing has ever been written in ink, or carved in stone (at least by my interpretation this day).  Instead, I have believed it to be that way!  Ego has wanted me to believe it was so!

Those who have heard me speak, or followed these blogs, or read my books, have heard me refer to:  “I’m no PollyAnna”, or “I can use a four-letter word whenever it fits”, or “I have a lot of hayseed in my hair”!  I’ve come to believe these statements of mine are no more than “Ego Bluffs”  which I’ve allowed to override my essential spiritual beliefs  for many, many years.  It seems although in my heart of hearts I knew my spiritual truths through these years, my Ego has been  fighting to make sure I would maintain the egocentric side of things…keeping my small Self  believing I wanted to enjoy the human condition more than my spiritual beingness which I have totally believed for years is My Essence.   I AM  now aware of the self-talk which HAS BEEN until now totally defiant of who I AM.

For years I’ve stated “I’m no “goody-goody-two-shoes!”  For years,  I have vehemently fought myself  with the idea if I  ever showed the loving, compassionate side of me I was risking my destruction!  The vulnerable, sweet one, who until this very moment, didn’t understand I was at the same time the strong, able-to-take-care-of-myself one!   MY WHOLE SELF.

So, my friends, I’ll have to see how this new awareness unfolds.  You are getting to know me now…I must put forth my most current discovery in my excavation process toward my authenticity.   It always will be in my best interests and to my greatest good, as I come from my heart in my most honest way.   And too, I feel great humor in this discovery!  Of course, the Universe would never disallow what I love so much in myself…MY RECOGNITION OF HUMOR AS I CONTINUE TO ENJOY THE PRIVILEGE OF LIVING MY LIFE! 

I am grateful I am ‘Receiving Just a Little Bit More’, to paraphrase Deepak Chopra.  Namaste’

 

 

 

BREAKTHROUGH!! I’ve Abused My Freedom Through Choices I Have Made.

April 1, 2018 / / Life and Living

I’ve most always referred to my “awarenesses” or “enlightenments” but I’ve come to believe that they are BREAKTHROUGHS, which continue to inure to ONE VICTORY…My Freedom!

I’ve been in a 21-day meditation course offered by Deepak Chopra and Oprah Winfrey.  I’ve never been this consistent as I am now to this meditation process, and I’m receiving wonderful benefits from it.  I have put my whole heart into it.  I am mindful that anything I do should have my whole heart into it!  How else do I accomplish anything AND FEEL THE UTMOST SELF-FULFILLMENT FROM THAT VERY ACCOMPLISHMENT?

It occurred to me today that I have had an innate FREEDOM all my life as I know it, and it is through the choices I have made where I undercut that freedom and caused my own kind of misery!  

Let’s take making changes in my own life when I realize I need to make them. We call them ‘bad habits’, I guess.  Well, the truth of this to me is that I AM THE ONE WHO CREATED THESE BAD HABITS IN THE FIRST PLACE!  When I finally realized I don’t like them and wanted to change them (like my eating choices and the way I implement them, for instance) until today, I didn’t connect those dots:  I INSTITUTED THE HABIT, AND I HAVE TO ‘UN-INSTITUTE’ IT!   THIS IS THE BREAKTHROUGH!   THIS IS THE FREEDOM CHOICE I HAVE!

If ever there was an ‘inside job’  it is when I realized it comes down to the course of action I must take in my life …the good-and-not-so-good choices …realizing “I made ’em, and it’s up to me to break ’em!”  AND THIS IS THE FREEDOM PIECE:  I CAN DO THIS IF I INTEND TO DO IT!  I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN DO THIS!  AND IT DEPENDS UPON HOW MUCH I WANT TO CHANGE A HABIT I MADE IN THE FIRST  PLACE!

 We are in charge of writing all of our success stories.  We write all of our life stories…the good and not so good ones…NO ONE CAN ARGUE WITH SUCCESS!  

LET [OUR] FREEDOM BELLS/STORIES RING!  Blessed Be and Blessed Be All.