I’ve just completed what turned out to be a 22-day meditation experience with Oprah Winfrey and Deepak Chopra. Today was a ‘bonus day’ – in more ways than one for me! So much so, I knew in the meditation I would immediately come to my blog to express myself….I need to ‘expose’ my awareness NOW so I don’t let it slip away before I can totally integrate what I now know to be a huge awareness – a huge breakthrough – a huge truth for me, as I continue my spiritual journey on my Forever Path…now more than ever, No Endgame In Sight!
NOW, more than ever, I am able to see how it fits that Life has to be a moment-to-moment, day-to-day experience. Nothing has ever been written in ink, or carved in stone (at least by my interpretation this day). Instead, I have believed it to be that way! Ego has wanted me to believe it was so!
Those who have heard me speak, or followed these blogs, or read my books, have heard me refer to: “I’m no PollyAnna”, or “I can use a four-letter word whenever it fits”, or “I have a lot of hayseed in my hair”! I’ve come to believe these statements of mine are no more than “Ego Bluffs” which I’ve allowed to override my essential spiritual beliefs for many, many years. It seems although in my heart of hearts I knew my spiritual truths through these years, my Ego has been fighting to make sure I would maintain the egocentric side of things…keeping my small Self believing I wanted to enjoy the human condition more than my spiritual beingness which I have totally believed for years is My Essence. I AM now aware of the self-talk which HAS BEEN until now totally defiant of who I AM.
For years I’ve stated “I’m no “goody-goody-two-shoes!” For years, I have vehemently fought myself with the idea if I ever showed the loving, compassionate side of me I was risking my destruction! The vulnerable, sweet one, who until this very moment, didn’t understand I was at the same time the strong, able-to-take-care-of-myself one! MY WHOLE SELF.
So, my friends, I’ll have to see how this new awareness unfolds. You are getting to know me now…I must put forth my most current discovery in my excavation process toward my authenticity. It always will be in my best interests and to my greatest good, as I come from my heart in my most honest way. And too, I feel great humor in this discovery! Of course, the Universe would never disallow what I love so much in myself…MY RECOGNITION OF HUMOR AS I CONTINUE TO ENJOY THE PRIVILEGE OF LIVING MY LIFE!
I am grateful I am ‘Receiving Just a Little Bit More’, to paraphrase Deepak Chopra. Namaste’
Pleased you arrived at the realization that Kaye A. Peters is loving and compassionate just as anyone who knows you already knew! Not withstanding the fact that you are a strong, independent female! Can understand this discovery would be a real awakening! Walking is a good thing!!!❤️
Rose, thank you for your commentary here. Yes, let the information come..one way or another. It is relieving to me as I felt this whole breakthrough. Lots of ‘self-talk’ is around this as well…and some info from others that I believed. Bottom line we are a composite being and have all the qualities, frailties, fears, within us…waiting to be recognized and accepted…dealing with our truths the best we know how. In my case, it was realizing yes, I have the softness inside me as soft as my hard side is hard…to be felt and used when necessary. I appreciate your time to make a thoughtful response, Rose.