218 posts by Kaye

There’s a Lot to Be Said for Expressing Yourself!

February 23, 2019 / / Conscious Awareness, Energy Connection, GAYA, Honoring Intention, Humility, Life's Impressions, Peace and Understanding, Self-Realization

 

I am mindful this morning that I have so many feelings inside of me, and if I don’t stop and sift through them, I’m missing the opportunity to express myself about them…either to myself, or to the world at large.  I think Self Expression rates high with Self-Esteem because to feel good about expressing myself out loud to others, I feel I have self confidence that my feelings are important to declare.

My feelings aren’t only about myself, either.  This is why I like to give credit where credit is due to others.  When I observe outstanding qualities in others, or their appearance, their demeanor which I find to be so exemplary, I’m almost forced inside to say something outwardly so others can feel my admiration.

It comes to mind  how I feel about what I’m observing has all to do with my inward perception and my outward expression of compassion and kindness.  When I’m able to express positive words and actions about another to someone else, I am extending positive energy to the ethos of humankind.

These kinds of feelings point out to me that I am loving myself well too.  The feelings that are inside for another generate from the feelings I have for myself…a softness, an awareness, and general state of well being for me and others.   The world is as harsh as it feels to me…and as welcoming too.  When I am comfortable as I wend my days, I’m comfortable with myself, so I will be comfortable with what is around me too.  I am also reminded that I have a generous heart when I think like this.  That I am thinking outside myself, and it isn’t about me!

From within, Kaye is realizing the ripple effect of what she receives from her connection with Source, and automatically perpetuates this connection with what is around her.  She is feeling the magnanimity of it all.     ~Gaya

 

 

Well, Somebody Has To Blow My Horn, Besides My Supportive Readers!

February 11, 2019 / / "Going for It", Conscious Awareness, Don't be held back, Energy Connection, Faith and Trust, GAYA, Grace, Humility, Life's Impressions, Manifesting our goals and dreams, Mindfulness, My Life, Self-fulfillment, Self-Realization

 

It just goes to show, I don’t know everything!  It took my endearing and well meaning Deep Friend and Messenger to suggest I might mention my books here in the blog.   In fact, it was also her objective viewpoint when she suggested displaying the books all together.  Initially, as she was talking, I was very resistant.  I couldn’t see a place for mentioning my books here, nor had I even considered that I could be more original whenever I do my minimal marketing.  (I’d say  my ‘minimal thinking’ is why I didn’t think of these things myself!)  I have come to the trilogy and,I believe, the final ‘book-publishing-time of my life!’   There continue to be so many ‘times’ of our lives.

I’ve stood on my authentic premise that I wrote these books for myself first. It was so much fun, and so self-fulfilling through the publishing stages while I worked with my esteemed book formatter and cover designer, along with individuals from the very beginning who today, almost 3 years later, are still close to my heart and, though  relatively newfound friends in my latter years,  their pulse in my life runs very deep and strong within me.

Amazing how the Universe has never-ending supply of exactly what we need when we need it.  How can one ever stay with a frame of mind that life is ho hum, boring, unfulfilling and ever so unforgiving, if they actually do listen to their heart’s desires, or all of the wonderful dreams they play in their mind?  We are the conductor and we stop our own music!

It all started for me with this blog! I write about my personal transformation which surfaced when I was 78.   I offered my first book, Unbridled Commentary…Without Flinch (From a Woman of  Years in the “Middle” of Her Life) permanently free on Amazon Kindle.   This book initiated my life dialog of conclusions that surfaced from nothing less than the ‘onion peelings’ I’ve been doing through these years in my blog here at Liferays.net.

When I start up a blog, it is my getaway within my head where I begin to iron out some of my rough spots, give myself credit for what I know I have come through, and always try to hold myself in a humble state. Without the Grace of the Universe, of which I am a part and connect to,  I would not be able to refer to these exciting times which are exactly why these years are referred to as “GOLDEN”!  As far as I’m concerned, I am sure of this!

I’ve opened my mind a wee bit more in the hope you readers have gotten to know me a bit better.  Life is a cornucopia of bounteous joyful new experiences – one after the other.  My books relate how our minds develop our lives.  I am proof that there is no bogey man, or Kodiak Bear (to which I’ve referred often in my books and here in the blog).  What there is when we face our Self-Truths are balloons after balloons of unfounded fears that we begin to pop, and set ourselves free from our own personal bondage.

Come Ahead.  You hold the easel, the canvas, and you provide the color.  Together, we create your dreams.     ~Gaya        

Life is for the living…So Let’s Live and Laugh at it All!  Blessed Be and to All Be Blessed.

 

 

What Do You Want to Make of It?

February 5, 2019 / / Conscious Awareness, GAYA, Gratitude, Honoring Intention, Humility, It's all in the Energy

Talk about an open-ended question!  “What do you want to make of it?”  And, then again, what a powerful suggestion:  YOU CAN MAKE ANYTHING YOU WANT TO MAKE OF ANYTHING!

I absolutely believe my mind’s thoughts create my world.   I am living one way or another by virtue of my perception of what is around me or presented to me.  Another absolute, as far as I’m concerned, is whatever I say and think comes from inside of me.  So, whatever I am up to, one way or another, is preceded by what is inside of me!  To admit and agree to this necessarily abides total responsibility for where I am at any given time in my life, my day, my thoughts, my happiness, my sadness, my satisfaction or dissatisfaction to everything.

If I have disorder in my mind, I have disorder in my life.  It follows this has not only to do with general orderliness in my home, but also the quality of my restfulness and peace and happiness in my day-to-day living.  I know I have written a blog or two on how  letting my mind wander into territory which has not one thing to do with my well being keeps me from tending to fluidity of my spirit.  I want a healthy spirit, mind and body.  I want to live a Spiritual Practice  of my Faith in what I believe to be the ground-rules of my existence.

If I don’t provide myself direction, where will I find myself at any given time?  If I am learning lessons along my pathway of spiritual questing, do I not owe myself the benefit of these lessons to be using them as I keep on keeping on?   My answer to these questions is, this is the Power I have!  

Living in the NOW requires  an immediacy of action without premeditation.  It takes intentional acceptance within Self  that I am able to provide intentional organizational response and this, in turn, assures connection to my Gaya, which is always in abeyance of my heart’s desires toward wholeness.

What is my Bottom Line?  I am a part of all Greatness of the Universe.  I came to be here in this NOW with aim and purpose, to experience everything I can that fills me up, and never diminish what I already am.

Together, We are Alpha and Omega for eternity.  We are each journey chosen. We are as deep as you wish to go. We are the sunrise and sunset.  We are inseparable.  We Are.               ~Gaya

“We” make “It”!

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

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Scales, Benchmarks, Graphs, Rules, Opinions…Life Measures – Only Mine Count!

January 27, 2019 / / Conscious Awareness, Energy Connection, GAYA, Honoring Intention, Peace and Understanding, Self-Realization

It’s getting close to month’s end and it just occurred to me that “keeping on keeping on” is exactly where it’s at for me!  Another phrase that fits for me is “steady as she goes”.

I’m coming to figure out that some of the peaks and valleys in the stream of my life are really ‘woman’ made!  My  Ego has a way of pinching nerves that irritate and agitate and this can draw me away from what I’m up to.  A stream of water doesn’t think, it just keeps on moving with the current, or around an obstacle, through an underpass or over rocks…it just keeps moving.

I’ve taken on significant new approaches which allow me greater peace and joy, awareness and understanding.  I’m meditating more, I’m attending online seminars which provide me new resources that enhance my well being.  This is very new to my experience, comparatively.

I’m noticing that I have a different countenance.  “Easy does it” is another one.   I’m getting where I’ve been wanting to go because I am thoughtful to it.  It may be that ‘coming of age’ has something to do with this frame of mind, but I’d like to believe it has more to do with learning how to navigate my life a little bit better with ease and grace.  I have to receive life on life’s terms; however, how I perceive it is up to me… how I participate in life is what matters to me.  It’s me that adds the flavor and texture and depth to my existence.   I provide my own perks and I reap the rewards of loving the privilege of living my life.

We would call this expansion.  To use your expression, ‘the world is your oyster’.  You are tasting the wellspring of some of all that is already yours.     ~Gaya

Early morning is an ideal time to think on these things.   I am on course.  My life has meaning and purpose to me.

Blessed Be. To All Be Blessed.

 

 

 

Peace, Silence, Clarity….Easier to Find Alone!

January 21, 2019 / / GAYA, It's all in the Energy, Love, Manifesting our goals and dreams, Peace and Understanding, Self-Realization

I am in it right this minute!  Silence!   I’m able to hear!  Isn’t it wonderful, this Silence.

I remember when my brain was a rampage of activity.  When I had such immense concerns in every day…when life was always on the hustle and the bustle…when either a kid was crying, or the car wouldn’t start in winter, or money was getting short and payday was a way off.  I remember when I felt at my wit’s end… when I was so frantic with the acute anxiety shaking that just wouldn’t leave me…or when I realized I had made another bad marriage choice (Enough! I’ve remembered enough to increase my heart rate!).

NOW IT IS DIFFERENT! I have just given myself the contrast:  the grateful reminder that life continued to get better when I began to participate in it.  I have now become a part of the world I have been living in for so long.  My  picture  of existence has become more clear and I now enjoy my human condition so much more because I am living my Gaya connection...my Wholeness…my Essential Beingness…my Spiritual Beingness in this human experience.

My small world has begun to expand to the ethereal one where I now welcome myself to explore how I feel and how I want to feel. It is by my own choices and intention and desire to elevate my consciousness and to find ways to do this.  It is in the silence when this happens to me.   This is truly a ‘between-me-and-me’ experience.

I am in the cockpit soaring. It is important I check my compass NOW.  Nothing and no one around me can be of assistance.  This is a solo flight.

We are everything of you.  We are the joy and happiness you seek. We are the high notes you want to sing, the love you want in your life.  And so it is, there is nothing outside of you which you cannot give to yourself.    ~  Gaya

 

 

Two Steps Forward, One Step Backward…What Is, IS!

January 6, 2019 / / Conscious Awareness, GAYA, Humility, Life and Living, Life's Impressions, Living in the NOW, Think

Not this year, 2019, nor any other year in the near future, will I “arrive!”  Actually, I’ve always believed this and never think of my life along these lines; however, I have had hopes I learned some lessons ‘FOR GOOD’, if this makes any sense.

Now, after having to backtrack my tracks, and rethink again my actions and reactions, I’ve begun to believe that because things and people and circumstances are always changing moment- to-moment, it’s all I can do to keep up, and keep my head on straight, as I try to do the right thing at any given moment in the NOW of anything and everything!  This is a mouthful and a brainful too!!

As old as I am, nearing 82, it is never “Too soon old, too late smart”, as the saying goes.  Guess there’s no real reason to always try to figure out stuff. Living in the NOW for nearly a year, I take everything as it comes for the ‘start up’ of each of my days, but now I’m finding out I don’t take the ‘end up’ of my days so well when I have some troubling experience pop up!  It is still the NOW, but why is it so difficult for me to navigate this? What a conundrum!

As much as I love to look around every corner for the surprise of life, I think I’ve forgotten I also need to accept the surprises  that occur, which may stem from familiar ground, but that ground hasn’t been remaining the same and, therefore, circumstances and people and things have been changing as well!  True enough, nothing is carved in stone, no matter what!

What have I learned?  Don’t come to a conclusion about anything.  Always be ready for anything. What IS NOW is ONLY NOW.   Everything presented to me is NEW IN THE NOW NO MATTER WHAT! 

I don’t think I have to go back to my drawing board, but I fully intend to broaden my scope of thought about MORE (which may suggest futuristic thinking), from NOW on.

Happy New Day Everyone.  I do believe I gained my one step back, and added another one ahead.

Let’s hear it for giving ourselves some ‘wiggle room’.

Kaye finds it difficult to drop the reins of her life and accept fully ‘what Is’.  Of course, this stems from early childhood when it was near impossible to control her circumstances.   Every day she comes closer to us with full Faith and Trust that ALL is perfectly fine.  There is never a reason for her to be concerned.   She knows she is part and parcel of  ALL.             ~Gaya  

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

 

 

 

 

Today Is My Forever…I Can Work With That!

December 26, 2018 / / Conscious Awareness, Energy Connection, GAYA, Honoring Intention, Life and Living, Life's Impressions, Living in the NOW, Love, Self-Realization

I awake and it is ‘Today’, and if I live through the night, I awaken to another Today, and so it goes.  I guess there really is no time.  We put it into segments to be orderly for work hours, we separate night and day and we have created weeks and months and years.   We age ourselves from our birth dates, and in our early years of development we monitor such development by standard, and in our later years we monitor our decline, again by standard.

I spent every New Year’s Eve for more decades than I can count monitoring my past year’s accomplishments and then fast-forwarding 10, then 5 (as I aged) years ahead  semi-seriously dabbling in what I thought I might want to do in that future time space.   This was an elaborate exercise of listing things to do, looking to the future, and somehow trying to bring the dead past to life with the reminiscence of it all.   It all seemed to be so valuable to me, and none of it had to do with the PRESENT, the TODAY OF MY LIFE.

No more of this for me…I hinted last year was to be the end of this practice for me, and so it was! It’s my TODAY I breathe, touch, smell, feel, think about and do something about…My NOW!

No holding onto past accomplishments – that was then, this is NOW! No waiting for a set of circumstances to be perfectly in place before doing something.  It’s called strike while the iron is hot!  Our heart has a perfect way of letting us know when we want to do something.  It’s our mind that starts doing the calculating, provisioning, and conventionalizing our heart’s desire, until we finally can’t see where to begin…it becomes a downer instead of a motivated wonderful dream intention which our heart brought forward for us to act upon in the first place.

I have all I can do to take care of my own business and stay out of that of others; it’s the same about working with each  TODAY I’ve been given.  It requires devotion to myself, love of myself, filling each moment I am  breathing with an attitude of well-being, recognizing my gratitude and Blessings and my own POWER TO MAKE MY LIFE BETTER  during EACH DAY!  There isn’t much more time for anything else that I can do anything about.  The future isn’t in my grasp until it is TODAY.

I’m feeling wonderful about this shift in my thinking.  It falls into perfect place with my view on aging too.  As I’ve said before, I have no end game. My life IS, until it ISN’T, and when that happens, it will be ‘a TODAY’.

HAPPY NEW DAY EVERYONE!   Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

 

 

 

 

Serenity, Courage, Wisdom and Gratitude, Faith in Intention, and Acceptance

December 15, 2018 / / GAYA, Honoring Intention, Humility, It's all in the Energy, Love, Peace and Understanding, Self-Realization, True Forgiveness and Understanding

People say, “Wake up!”, or “They just haven’t awakened”, or “They haven’t seen the light”, or whatever.  In a way, isn’t this a demeaning, dismissing way of viewing others, if one thinks ‘they have‘!  To me this rather sounds like “I’m here, you’re there, I outrank you, but you’ll get there someday, but until that time, I’m of a higher echelon group, a bit more elevated, I’ve ‘attained’, but I can ‘help you if you listen to me’, but I love you just the same.”  I guess when one can say these things, and write words around them, one believes them.

I’ve spent nearly four years publicly excavating myself to authenticity right to this moment.  In looking back, this was actually the beginning of my  intentional living and practicing my spirituality as I have been working with it.

I have had a constant thread intention of wanting to rid myself of as much Karmic Debt as I can before I take a hike!  So, what exactly does this mean to me?  When I have these ‘itchy, gut triggers’ which spontaneously erupt, I figure this is a sign to ‘get at it’.  BUT, BIGGER THAN THIS is the constant rub I have with certain loved ones  which doesn’t go away.  I know we’re together for a reason – more than the ‘family/friendship thing’ – and for a couple of years I’ve been pretty clear that there’s some healing to be done!  Frankly, I don’t want to have to get into this stuff in another life if I can help it!

I learned a while back I’m the one who has to see things differently, I’m the one who has to get things to be as I want them to be right in front of me, and I’m the only one who has to keep switching up the lenses until I see what is actually there, not what I think is actually there!  What this turns out to be is the Art of Loving as I’ve come to feel it.  I’m not here to be teaching others – except by example, of course, but I am here to teach myself.   This loving is all-inclusive, beginning with me, then reaching out to all around me.  The responsibility is always on me first, loving myself first, so I already have within myself that intention of creating the peace and understanding and compassion and kindness and thoughtfulness toward another. When I am able to extend myself like this, I have struck the chords within me that prove to be enlightening and I get personal awareness of my successful achievement of having  found my goal of understanding what I’ve needed to learn.  Nothing can be achieved without self-honesty.  There’s no proving anything to myself; there is the opening up of my real self to Me and then there is what I will call pure understanding and light.  It is an amazing experience and I’ve just spent a full week in this Grace of Life.

When one understands the soul-connection one has with the Whole of Everything, it is the heart-consciousness meld experiencing the joy and happiness and fulfillment of all the heart’s wishes which are nothing but the extreme love of Self and the extension of that love to all others.   ~Gaya

What I have just written has come from a very deep place within me.  It’s from the Soul Knowledge Treasure, perhaps.  It’s a beautiful pearl which I have found in my World Oyster. 

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

 

 

 

I Am My Own Ripple Effect!

December 2, 2018 / / Conscious Awareness, GAYA, It's all in the Energy, Life and Living, Peace and Understanding, Self-Realization

When I come here, I’m travelling in my small world.  I’m working with my NOW, as Life appears in front of me.  I guess I receive my own “Liferays”!  I do believe I am connected to ALL THERE IS.

Last evening, I learned from the well-known spiritualist, Ram Dass, about a quiet meditation with nothing more than a repetition of  the mantra “I Am Loving Awareness”.  Initially these words come from the brain and then I move my experience slowly to my ‘spiritual heart’…continuing to silently repeat the mantra, waiting for another door to open to an expanded place of awareness.   I was reminded that Loving Awareness is loving everything I am aware of.

This is remarkable to me because I often say out loud, “I love this”, when I’m doing stuff around the house.  Whatever the eyes rest on, or whatever warm feeling I have inside, there is that added space of awareness where I audibly acknowledge ‘I love it’! Believing everything is part of me, it follows IF I LOVE MYSELF, I LOVE EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE AROUND ME AS WELL.

This is no ‘arrival’ for Kaye, but rather a new door which is opening in her personal journey.  We welcome her search and meet her with support and guidance which is exactly what she invites.  What is wanted and needed is what we provide to ALL who ask.       ~Gaya

I find it fitting that I have apparently entered a new phase of understanding and I look forward with excitement to what will present.  This business of living in the NOW continues to amaze me.  Yesterday, I wasn’t thinking like I am today!  Nothing stays the same.  Life is an exploration of thoughts and things we do, who we think we are, who we think we want to be, what we think we like, what we decide to discard…I guess we are in a movie, and may as well sit back and take it all in.

It makes so much more sense now when I remarked  a while back I didn’t think I would be continuing my New Year’s Eve “encounter with my life”.  Thoughts change, things change, life changes, and I’m changing right along with it.  Changing for the better, I’d say!

A new second, minute, hour, day, month, and soon, new year.  Time begins to mean less and less.  ‘It’s’ IT!  What ‘Is’, IS!…but FOR NOW.   I’m learning to savor it ALL in its time.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

 

The ‘Inside Explosions’ are the Absolute Best!!

November 20, 2018 / / Faith and Trust, GAYA, Life and Living, Manifesting our goals and dreams, Self-fulfillment, Truth to Self

Something fabulous happened this morning! I just had to tell a member of my Literary Team,  the one who formats  my books and designs my book covers.  Just Sayin’.

In my earlier years, I just had to tell everything to everyone in my world… friends and strangers alike.  It appeared I was bragging. What I was really doing was trying to bring myself UP from the lower place of lack of self-worth.

My small world never heard how scared I was while I was raising my sons.  NO!  Everyone saw  “Of course, I can do it…I chose it, I do it, I survive, I’m great, I can twirl all the plates and juggle all the balls without blinking an eye!”  You already know that got me seven years of acute anxiety shaking!

Now, I ‘explode’ to my “Insiders”…the small circle in my small world.

The only ones that know me anymore are in my inner circle.  I realize I have been leading myself UP to every Today, every Now, and it finally occurred to me this morning that I have to be ‘caught on the fly’…because living in the NOW doesn’t have a resting place.  I don’t sit down and take inventory anymore.  I live, I respond from my heart, I see the fantastic results and I register absolute gratitude for everything in my life.

The world at large doesn’t need to hear an explosion out of me anymore. My life unfolds now. I am my example. 

Kaye’s explosive nature clearly is recognizing internally, she is resolute and content with the way we are continuously unfolding her dreams and desires to perfection.   ~Gaya

Happy Thanksgiving!  My favorite holiday.  My heart is full of gratitude.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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