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My Intuitive Toolbox

April 16, 2024 / / Conscious Awareness, Me, MySelf, NOW, Our Essence, Silence

When I need a screwdriver, do I need a phyllips or flathead? Considering a project, do I need gloves, a scraper, a saw, some sandpaper?  I ask myself these questions each time I begin a project.. In other words, I go to my tool box or my shed and pick up the exact tools I need for the job.

Living life to my best ability, I have other tools, and they’re intuitive.  I began trusting my intuition about 20 years ago. It’s a process to be sure, and when I made that conscious decision I had only one caveat, if I thought I was supposed to get on a plane and go somewhere, I WOULDN’T! Living intuitively takes practice along with mindfulness and lots of FAITH.

Living in the NOW is spontaneous.  It’s a responsive process to that which LIFE presents to me.  I make no things-to-do lists. I mark appointments on a calendar and do a grocery list. Eckhart Tolle says he provides tools through his books and speaking.  I get it!  My books and other information from my spiriiual mentors are all tools, and I’m free to pick and choose exactly which tool I need for my LIFE PROJECTS! Sitting in the silence begins the solution.

Living my life is not about panicking or fearful thinking.  It’s about trusting self with the realization that my intuition is God speaking directly to me.  I’m speaking to myself! The trick is the LISTENING! There is no urgency to living.  There is thoughtfulness and joy and intention  and personal willingness to jump in with both feet! Ram Dass refers to the GAME.  Games are fun, and tricky and require strategy and they can be won.  In life, my game is not a competitive one. I open doorways and windows for me to see opportunity and warnings.  I recognize blessings and gratitude.  I provide my own soft pillows to fall upon.  I trust my intuition and it is serious business.

There is no need to worry when I trust my intuition because I know I am coming from my heart and as I’ve said many times, I don’t believe anything can go awry when I come from my heart. There is no place for ego.  It is a silent affirmation from me to me that I’m trying my very best in all situations to get the job done!

I have found more peace in my lifetime these days than ever before.  Granted, there was more hurry and scurry when I was younger and more activity in mainstream; however, there was more ego and less awareness and consideration back then as well.  I guess it is a Game of Life I’m in, and admittedly, it hasn’t been boring.  But there’s big truth in recommendations to stop and smell the roses, and sit in the silence and ponder how magnificent creation is.  Everything really is as important as it is unimportant. It’s about my own focal point. There is so much to realize.  It could never be forced on me.  I have been offered countless directions over the years, but it was the choices I made which led me here and NOW.

I love the Serenity Prayer:  “God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, oourage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.”

I think it’s the acceptance that is my  greatest challenge.  Of course, when LIFE provides me pleasure, it’s easy to accept it.  It’s when I am challenged with outcome which I don’t want that it’s difficult to accept.

I think serenity and courage and wisdom  are intuitive, and then acceptance reveals itself.

Ease and Grace and Safety come with Peace.   ~Gaya

Blessed Be. To All Be Blessed.

There is No Rhyme… But There is Always a Reason!

June 14, 2018 / / Faith and Trust, I AM WHO I AM, Life and Living, Living in the NOW, Me

So something begins to stir inside of me…what is that, anyway?  It’s that ‘same old feeling’ that I get for EVERYTHING when I know something isn’t quite right, and it is up to me to figure out where it fits and what it means in MY LIFE!

Well Oh Well, let’s just figure it out together!  I’ve defined this feeling before.  It’s like I’m guilty of something, but I’m pretty sure I didn’t do or say anything to feel guilty about!  So, I’m already getting to it…This morning someone said something to me which MY EGO picked up faster than the speed of sound  and I’m feeling insecure, not so sure of myself, about most everything that I’m doing online!  I’m also hearing myself say,   “There’s more, Kaye”…I’m feeling inadequate with a friend.

Oh boy, Kaye…just a minute… what did you write in one of your books about this:

An excerpt from my first book,  Unbridled Commentary…Without Flinch (FROM A WOMAN OF YEARS IN THE ‘MIDDLE OF HER LIFE) , “Love Me…Love Me Not?, You’d think after reading this far that I’d have all the answers down pat when it comes to who I AM, what I think of myself, where my self-esteem throttles, and how my confidence stabilizes most of the time…WELL, I’M STILL WORKING ON IT!…..I believe the Ego is the devil! It doesn’t serve me well.  It causes me to have doubts and question ME, the very one I trust, have faith in, and in whose strength I rely!….I have a ‘kicker test’:  Whenever I have any doubt about any opinion I support as my truth or any decisions I have made in my behalf, or when I am worrying about what anyone else might think about me or my actions, IT’S MY EGO undermining me!  Yes, folks, for me, this is it in a nutshell! This is my story and I’m sticking to it!  I love me, and if I love me, I trust me, and have faith in what I know are my life truths, and I make decisions based on this strong faith.  THIS IS THE LAST TIME I AM PICKING THE PETALS OFF A DAISY!”

There you have it my friends.   ‘We’ came to my answer.  It didn’t take us so long, and ‘that feeling’ has left me and I am as confident as ever and I am on my right track once again!

I AM SO GRATEFUL I don’t cower to myself when I’m at this ONION PEELING!  I have welcome tears flooding my eyes letting me know “I’ve still got it!”  I am in tune with Source Energy!  I persevere to ‘BE’,  TO BE FREE.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

P.S.  If you haven’t already, take my first book, it’s the FREE one! You might even decide to buy the second one (smile).

What AM I Bid? PRICELESS!!

October 26, 2017 / / Life and Living, Me, MySelf, True Forgiveness and Understanding

Today I find myself absolutely tenacious when it comes to the subject of ‘SELF VALUE’.  You’ll note I have deliberately exchanged the words here – from ‘worth’ to ‘value’.  I already have done a video for The Royal Society about this very subject, and I’m still able to write about it in this blog.  WHAT DOES THIS SAY?  It says I have made a breakthrough, of sorts, in this very personal area of my life that has reluctantly  invited new information so I could ‘up my price’, so to speak!

I can’t get much of a handle on why I haven’t made more progress with this than I have in my 80+ years.  Oh well, thank my lucky stars that there’s always room for one more awareness to pack into my ‘soul space’, which will, of course, give me more peace and joy as I continue to enjoy the privilege of living my life…(and now I’ll add, as Kaye A. Peters [during this life]).

How is this going to enhance my beingness?  I already feel I have a somewhat different countenance – it feels like more security within ME; that I am providing my own security.  I feel as though my feet are anchored more securely to the ground…I’m more surefooted.  Coincidentally, I don’t feel the need to explain anything.  I don’t feel I have any act(s) to follow.  I AM who I AM at whatever time someone gets ME…with no conditions.

HINT:  I have determined that the word ‘worth’ held definition in my mind connected to opinions from outside input….what am I worth to others?  When I substitute the word ‘value’, I ask myself what is my value?  Just like when I used to place a value on items within my home.  I put the value on me!  These puzzle pieces are almost magnetizing themselves together as I see the picture so much more clearly.

WOW!  If I present myself unconditionally, IS THIS SAYING THAT I ACCEPT MYSELF FOR EXACTLY WHO I AM AND THERE ARE NO IFs, ANDs, OR BUTs ANYMORE?  …..not quite so fast, Katie girl!   When I have this claim to fame, that’s pretty close to my ‘destination’…I’ll pass, and accept I have made great strides toward releasing myself into my forgiving arms…..

I LOVE GETTING THIS UP-CLOSE-AND-PERSONAL.    I MIGHT JUST HAVE A BIDDING WAR!!! 

Blessed Be All.

I’ll Be the Judge! It’s All Good!

October 19, 2017 / / Gratitude, Life and Living, Me

Well, now, where am I? I’m at the same computer desk, doing what I love to do:  Figure out who I am!

I try to maintain a modicum of peace within me and in my space around me.  Since I published my book it’s critical to me that I recognize just exactly what my self-talk is and if I believe what I’m telling myself!   

I guess the only thing that has changed is that I’m in a new public venue.  I wrote a book, published it, hope people like it, and my well being and wholeness has nothing to do with that outcome.   This is what I’m trying hard to integrate!  The truth is I feel wonderful that I have finally finished a book, much less published it!  To be fair to myself, I never thought I was worth any less when I didn’t finish three I had started before in my lifetime, so the fact that I have finished and published one now, shouldn’t really have anything to do with inflating my self-worth either, right?   I’m the same person… just completed another project.

I have always coveted my writing.  It never mattered to me what others thought about it.  Now, however, when others get to ‘judge’ and ‘review’ my work, does it matter more to me what they think?   On the one hand, of course, it’s nice to hear compliments….but on the other hand, I know intellectually that nothing from the outside fills me up on the inside.

I want to share what I am experiencing right now, because I want to honor myself  from within.  I don’t want to take an EGO  trip which falsifies my authenticity and the depth of what really matters.     Truth be known, what matters is what I think about my book, my writing, my accomplishment and the self-satisfaction I feel  from writing it!

I’m proud of this new picture for my blogs, I’m proud of my first book, Unbridled Commentary…Without Flinch! FROM A WOMAN OF YEARS IN THE ‘MIDDLE’ OF HER LIFE,  and I’m proud to offer it free to everyone at Amazon.com, Apple and Barnes and Noble.

   I am humbled and grateful for all experiences I am receiving as I enjoy the privilege of living my life.  I KNOW WHO I AM.

I’m No Killer….and I’m Not Small…and I Try Not to Waste!

July 4, 2017 / / Life's Impressions, Me, Think

I was thinking about how I was thinking this morning…how impatient I can think…how, perhaps, this could be interpreted as intolerant of others and where they’re coming from when they comment about something in conversation.

I know I’ve used the expression, “Oh, I’ve just been killing time”, or “I don’t do well with small talk”, or “I’ve wasted a lot of time and energy” .   I think this is the first time I actually subjectively put these thoughts to my thoughts, or down on paper!

Now that I’ve brought these issues seriously to my thoughts, I have decided without question I do not want to be a killer of the very time I try so hard to use as I embrace my excavation of Self to my authenticity, and I certainly do not want to ‘quack away’ saying nothing about nothing and make myself small, and additionally, I’ve always prided myself to repurpose, regift, “waste not, want not”, rewarding my compost gladly with food scraps that I will not be able to eat.

I consider so much all the time when it comes to my responsibility for where I am at any given moment about everything.  There are few things I would not discuss or debate….  religion and politics for two.

I’m aware not everyone is at the same place in their lives as I, and I have no expectation nor impatience regarding that progress.  I fully don’t expect others to think as I do, or believe what I believe.   Life is a personal experience and as I see it, how I interact with other living beings is the extension of me, and therefore, says everything about me!

I see myself as a mover and a shaker.  This only means to me that I’m on my own “Go”.  I move myself along…I start my own engine…I create my own enthusiasm, notwithstanding, of course, I’ll use catalysts that appeal to me and literally pull out of me what’s inside of me already, if you get my meaning.

I think I’m still developing my own life philosophies!  Here, I just turned 80 in April, and to my way of thinking, I can still keep myself on track and move forward by entertaining new thinking that appeals to my ‘stage of enlightenment’ and l recognize it excites me.  It’s like receiving another piece to my life puzzle that makes my life easier, happier, more fulfilling and joyful and rewarding and I’m feeling really good.

So, fellow travelers, Love, Light and Peace.

My newly added words to myself are:  Kaye, try to do it with ease and grace.   I’m trying…I’m trying.

 

 

LIFE STUDY 101….Just the tip of this iceberg!

April 13, 2017 / / Faith and Trust, Gratitude, Life and Living, Life's Impressions, Me

Years ago, one of my bosses said to me,  “Kaye, I don’t think you take yourself seriously!”    I was so cocky in that time of my life, I didn’t bother to ask him directly what he meant, but for years I wrestled with that off-the-cuff remark.

I wonder why schools don’t offer subjective curriculum on living life. Would it make a difference if we had classes in kindergarten focusing on human similarities and importance of family?    How about classes on feelings… how to work with them… why we have them?  When should a child learn they really do come first and  how do they learn to love themselves when they are not being shown love?  Knowledge on finance is one thing, but when and how does one learn that money is really just a means of exchange, and integrity, honesty, self-satisfaction, peace, contentment,faith, love and gratitude are the MEASURES of abundance in life.

Parents and teachers can’t have all of these answers – they have their own problems!   A downhill spiraling ripple effect exists, and what I observe is yet another target for change at depth is being ignored.   I must hold myself accountable and insist others around me do the same.

I learned so late that I was my best friend and my opinion about myself was the only valid one.    Peer pressure couldn’t exist if we trusted our own decision-making, strength and commitment to being the best we can be,  following our own personal dictates.   Life’s learning lessons are more  a privilege  we receive when we are alert and serious about the choices we are making as we mature.

I started a much more serious spiritual journey in 2011, after my eldest son took his life.   I saw his image on my kitchen wall  two days after he passed, and when I finally got over the startle, my introspective nature surfaced with purpose and  I began weaving some of the loose ends of my ‘Forever Path’ tapestry.  Clearly, beginning this blog in 2015, is evidence of how my Higher Self has led me in my journey toward my truth.

In these senior years, I am learning  living life is so much easier as I continue to explore and excavate just exactly  how important am I to ME?    My peace and liberty depends upon these answers.  I’ve had to get much more serious about how I think about everything that has to do with living!

Each day I awaken presents the OUTCOME of my choices.  As I zero-in on who I am and WHAT I AM BECOMING, I know that sincere, honest and undivided attention to where I’m headed is required.    

I CHART MY PROGRESS BY THAT WHICH ATTRACTS TO ME and THAT WHICH SLIPS AWAY.   Blessed Be.