Peace and Understanding

I Am My Own Ripple Effect!

December 2, 2018 / / Conscious Awareness, GAYA, It's all in the Energy, Life and Living, Peace and Understanding, Self-Realization

When I come here, I’m travelling in my small world.  I’m working with my NOW, as Life appears in front of me.  I guess I receive my own “Liferays”!  I do believe I am connected to ALL THERE IS.

Last evening, I learned from the well-known spiritualist, Ram Dass, about a quiet meditation with nothing more than a repetition of  the mantra “I Am Loving Awareness”.  Initially these words come from the brain and then I move my experience slowly to my ‘spiritual heart’…continuing to silently repeat the mantra, waiting for another door to open to an expanded place of awareness.   I was reminded that Loving Awareness is loving everything I am aware of.

This is remarkable to me because I often say out loud, “I love this”, when I’m doing stuff around the house.  Whatever the eyes rest on, or whatever warm feeling I have inside, there is that added space of awareness where I audibly acknowledge ‘I love it’! Believing everything is part of me, it follows IF I LOVE MYSELF, I LOVE EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE AROUND ME AS WELL.

This is no ‘arrival’ for Kaye, but rather a new door which is opening in her personal journey.  We welcome her search and meet her with support and guidance which is exactly what she invites.  What is wanted and needed is what we provide to ALL who ask.       ~Gaya

I find it fitting that I have apparently entered a new phase of understanding and I look forward with excitement to what will present.  This business of living in the NOW continues to amaze me.  Yesterday, I wasn’t thinking like I am today!  Nothing stays the same.  Life is an exploration of thoughts and things we do, who we think we are, who we think we want to be, what we think we like, what we decide to discard…I guess we are in a movie, and may as well sit back and take it all in.

It makes so much more sense now when I remarked  a while back I didn’t think I would be continuing my New Year’s Eve “encounter with my life”.  Thoughts change, things change, life changes, and I’m changing right along with it.  Changing for the better, I’d say!

A new second, minute, hour, day, month, and soon, new year.  Time begins to mean less and less.  ‘It’s’ IT!  What ‘Is’, IS!…but FOR NOW.   I’m learning to savor it ALL in its time.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

 

FACE IT!

October 26, 2018 / / "Going for It", Energy Connection, Faith and Trust, GAYA, Life and Living, Peace and Understanding, Self-Realization

What’s in a face?  Why save face?  Why put on a happy face?  Face forward! Why use make-up to cover up the face?  There is nothing wrong with the REAL FACE!

A while back, in another exercise toward authenticity,  I was determined to strip away whatever labels I had attached to myself:  I went to a gym to strength train; I walked a mile in 18 minutes; I kept my weight pretty strictly between 130-132 pounds (and was proud of it!).  ALL…drum roll please…at the age of 78-80!  This was my picture of Kaye…I prided myself in it.  I had convinced myself this was part of the REAL ME!  “How Great Thou Art, Kaye”!

I’m getting better at recognizing when my  prideful EGO slivers into my consciousness and it is much easier to recognize and peel off  “that face, that face, that beautiful face”, and idle back to the ME that is  JUST ME!..The perfectly imperfect ME… the ME that I smile at every morning in the mirror  with fond recognition.  It’s more than  good enough for me, and that’s all that counts!

Facing facts  as I relax into my ‘easy peasey’ comfortable-with-ME space, I find I am far less concerned about what others are up to!  Everyone else can figure out their own stuff. It’s my peace I care about and my awareness that I’m continuously gaining because I do care more about me and love me more than anyone else.  I can be authentic around anyone, whether or not they are authentic with me.

Kaye has figured out that beneath ‘it all’, rests everything that is sweet and comfortable in her privilege of living her life to the fullest, and she knows it isn’t fancy, or loud or flashy, it is more on the mundane side of things because there is so much joy and happiness that extends to everything around and within her.  She has figured out that there is nothing specific that makes her happy.   She is happy for happiness’ sake.    ~Gaya. 

There is no question, I am working with another aspect of living in the NOW with myself.  I am more serious about what I have inside of me that must come out.  This isn’t necessarily about peeling my onion as much as it is about my Spiritual Nature, my Soul Self, my Higher Self.  I believe I have a Personal Emotional Guidance System and my consciousness wants a deeper connection to it.  I now have a sense that my innate ‘independent nature’ may well be that very System that has always been a part of my character.  I am on untread ground.  I am turning an unfamiliar corner far deeper within.  These aren’t answers carved in stone. This is how I pursue unanswered questions, as I stay interested and open waiting for answers.  ASK and I shall RECEIVE.

ABOUT FACE!!  BACK TO MY SPIRITUAL QUESTING!!

 

 

 

 

 

Perception…Reality! It’s all mine!!

October 19, 2018 / / Energy Connection, Faith and Trust, GAYA, I AM WHO I AM, Peace and Understanding, Self-Realization, Truth to Self

I will not allow my Joy to be snuffed by others’ actions! I will not allow my state of Beingness to be maligned by words from others’ mouths!  I am whole and complete…I am totally perfect at Essence, and I have been in the process of transformation since I became!

Yes, I am in perpetual  transformation, filtering information that comes to me through ‘intended sources’ which at perfect timing resonates with me, and I then begin to understand and integrate it into my whole SELF.

At 81+ years old, I am still at the tip of the proverbial iceberg. Slowly but surely I am melting into myself and I am seeing with more clarity.

Just what is it that stirs me..opening up my brain to see a little more of who I am?  Is it “Spirit” moving me?  Is it Source Energy…my Gaya…that finds a crevice to enter so I can see that bit more light that provides more answers?  I come to believe this day that I don’t have to name it! I just have to be aware that IT IS!  I believe because I feel the impact within,  I know I AM IN TOUCH WITH WHAT IS! 

I know there is much more and my unquenchable thirst thrusts me forward in my search…a Spiritual Addiction..meaningful only to me…slicing through me, letting all the air out of the balloon veils releasing and freeing me from the shackles of others’ dictates and judgments of who I am; my self-talk that restricts me from accepting I am made in the likeness of God, Source Energy, My Creator, The Universe...ALL THAT IS! 

Somehow, it  now seems so simple to be able to entertain this as truth, instead of holding on to all the other stuff that is negative and hurtful to me…which my EGO would have me do.  Yes, it is the EGO endlessly trying to devalue and foil me…it is EGO-PURPOSE.

I will be more conscious to enforce and reinforce my Essential Goodness.  My transformation will continue as I remind myself of my Spiritual Composition:  Love and Light.

It is in the awareness that transformation takes place.  There is a countenance of  internal understanding that pervades  and rests easy inside you, Kaye.  You have found, yet again, another piece of your ‘knowledge puzzle’.           ~Gaya

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

Think a little here…Think a little there…SEE A LOT!

October 10, 2018 / / GAYA, Life and Living, Living in the NOW, Peace and Understanding, Self-Realization, Truth to Self

Today I am coming face forward to something that I admit to myself I started as a seed thought well over a year ago!

What am I saying?  I’m trying to explain that I am witnessing the dynamic of just how the mind creates what it wants to see…and as long as that initial seed thought is there and germinating, the ‘workings from Source Energy’ are continuing toward the manifestation of this thought.

I can’t explain why I originated that seed thought…and believe me, I am honest with myself that I did, indeed, originate it!  It must be something from another life, is all I think it could be.  After all, when something or someone appears in our life…something or someone I have never known before in this life…there is a ‘lesson’ that is presenting to me.  Yes, a lesson is coming,  and I already know, it is my own integrity and honor and depth of character that is being tested.  I WILL MAKE IT!!!

No, Kaye, this is not from another life.  This is Your Essence bringing an experience to work through yet another lesson which needs to be dealt with, once and for all.  It is You, Kaye,  who has the propensity  either to ‘fall short’…or, as you say, “I will make it!!!”  You are acting out your own movie within the movie of this life and as We see, You are working through it successfully.   ~   Gaya

What a wonderment this blog has turned out to be for me!  I am the one who sits on my own shoulder monitoring carefully what goes on with me!  Call it Conscience or Wisdom or Character or Integrity or Honor or Truth to Self.  Yes, it’s Truth to Self.  

Little did I know when I began this journey of transformation  July 4, 2015, when Liferays.net was originated, what was in store for me.  Thankfully, I  have tried to come from my heart and in honesty the best I know how.  

Living in the NOW requires mindfulness and sincerity of purpose.  I have known this all along.  To be mindful means I have had to slow down…observe, not only my thoughts, but also that which presents to me.  Today’s awareness is an Acme of personal awareness.  It’s like I’m extinguishing a part of me…it’s letting go of something that I have been capable of doing which has never served me well.   As I write these very words, I feel extremely powerful in saying NO!  I WILL NOT GO DOWN THIS ROAD  AGAIN!  

I realize this may read as an unsolved mystery, but believe me, Another of My Mysteries Has Been Solved!  Another mask has been pulled off!   HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

THIS IS [MY] LIFE FOR YA’!

September 16, 2018 / / Consistency and Consideration, Honoring Intention, It's all in the Energy, Life and Living, Living in the NOW, Peace and Understanding, Self-fulfillment, Self-Realization, Truth to Self

I love my introspection, my considerations and my resilience!  I love my tenacity, my good intentions, my ability to objectively  criticize myself without bringing me to my knees of low self-worth.  I love it when finally I don’t have my first knee-jerk reaction of defensiveness; that I can listen, evaluate, and give myself time to assess a situation.  It’s the Peace in it that allows me to move ahead, with a much clearer head! 

Isn’t it interesting that she is now able to write out loud , as she has already been thinking out loud?  It is good she is feeling so comfortable with herself knowing she is opening the gates of Connection to her Source even wider.          ~Gaya

The first descriptive word I used above is Introspection.  I am finding when I have no anxiety or rush to anything,  I am able to just ‘sit with something’ while I figure out the wrinkle I want to iron out.  The ‘answers’ reveal themselves for Consideration.  

In the past, and  up to relatively recently,  I always created an urgency to get to the bottom of something…seeking closure.  It was like I forced myself to wrap it up ..get it out of my thoughts…and move on.   My marriages and divorces are good examples here.  In retrospect, I think this is what created even more chaos in my life! Nothing is so urgent, except if  a person needs to get to the hospital for immediate medical care!

I am much easier on myself these days (and years). I like the feeling of moseying along, picking up on my own innuendos  – taking to heart what presents and how I am triggered by it.  Still, there’s no need for urgency, just an indicator that I know I want to make a change, or  tweak something I’m doing with my Life.  I think life is simple if I keep it simple.  It is as simple as that! 

It is good to take on new experiences just for the sake of that experience.  The only commitment necessary is to honor the intention of taking on that experience.  EGO can destroy good intention.

The expression, “Take your good old-fashioned time” makes better sense to me now more than ever before.  What’s the rush to most things…there’s no fire!

I am always finding My Way Along My Forever Path. 

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

 

Whither Thou Goest, I Will Go….Whither Thou Leadest, I Will Follow You.

September 10, 2018 / / Energy Connection, Faith and Trust, GAYA, I AM WHO I AM, Living in the NOW, Peace and Understanding, Self-fulfillment, Truth to Self

And  so it happens…I am led to open up my blog and begin!  I am already led and I am following.

Awareness is so interesting.  It is a feeling, it is a knowing, and it is such an ‘insider thing’.  It is not something I can easily share with anyone because it relies upon intimacy, and laying myself out so vulnerable.  It is sharing a piece of me that is so deep within, I can hardly give it definition, but it is worth this try.

Years ago, I coined a phrase:  Everything is as Unimportant as it is Important.  Now and then this comes into my thinking…like today…and the truth of it rings much louder.  It is almost deafening.

As I continue to learn how to live in the NOW,  I am getting better at dropping off  ‘stuff’ which has absolutely no place in the NOW.   I’m becoming more keen about where I want to be emotionally, i.e.,  Happy with Myself, Joyful about my Life.   The essence of my Character is looming very relevant.  I don’t have to prove anything to myself or anyone else anymore.  Now is the time for me to mine the gold that is ME beneath the layers and masks while I continue to peel away.

I have come to love the word Release!  There is a feeling of  Willingness that accompanies it…as in releasing a bird to flight, letting go of the string to a balloon, sending a child off on their own, riding a two-wheeler for the first time.

Finally, I think I can jump off the high-wire of life that has held me back from really enjoying the simplest of things while enjoying the privilege of living my life.  

Speaking only for myself, of course, being a hip-shooter is pretty exciting… I switched up life whenever I thought I was bored, or needed some action!   I realize now that it is  the other side of the same coin of being ‘on stage’... I wasn’t good enough, unless I ‘performed for an audience’…I couldn’t just be myself!  I don’t care how I came to be this way, but I do care that this is NOT WHO I AM! 

This current observation isn’t a night-and-day  “ah ha” moment for me. It is, however, an affirmation that I have been on the right track for quite a while now, and  my onion peeling has been totally worthwhile and will continue to be so.

Getting back to the Awareness of it all….Life is becoming pretty darned comfortable.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 We are never away.  You have come with us, as we have come with you.       ~Gaya

 

 

 

 

Listening is Indeed an [He]Artful Action.

August 29, 2018 / / Energy Connection, GAYA, I AM WHO I AM, It's all in the Energy, Peace and Understanding, Truth to Self

I’ve mentioned before that I  often talk out loud to myself.  I’ve mostly laughed it off,  explaining it’s because I live alone, and aside from acknowledging my animals from time-to-time, it’s pretty quiet in my house.  My TV has been turned off for some time now, so I don’t have that ‘white noise’ either.  Top this off with the fact I routinely get up early every day…like 3:00 A.M. …So,  believe me, it’s really quiet around here then!

Yesterday, I was out of sorts.  This is very unusual for me.  I most always have a good attitude, even if I happen to be wrestling with some event occurring in my day-to-day which requires my attention.  I’ll call it a ‘mood’.  I felt like a huge black cloud was hovering over me, and it was weighted!   Of course, I know there’s something going on with me, and it’s much different than most days, and it throws me for a full loop!

It’s overt onion-peeling time once again.  Get underneath this, Kaye, dive deep within where there’s something else which needs to be brought to the surface!

So, you’re human after all!   No matter how happy you are on a day-to-day, you can still be tripped…or, should I say, you can still trip up yourself?  What have you told yourself as one of your truths before?  Ego is the devil…and I know when I feel unsure of myself, or in any other way unsteady, it is the Ego undermining me!

“You are a good person, Kaye.  You mean very well.  You try so very hard as you walk your journey into your light.  Never lose sight of your willingness to keep on going, to keep on learning more and more.  Continue to treasure your sound Faith and Happiness and Joy which you have attained because you are learning the keys that open these doors…And, above all, you can trust yourself, just as you say…you know yourself, you always will know what to do if you continue to come from your honest heart.”   ~  Gaya

Until I find differently, I am going to listen to what I say to myself out loud…these are my conversations with Gaya.  These are affirmations of my connection to that which continues to light my Forever Pathway toward continued Peace and Joy.

Blessed Be. To All Be Blessed.

 

 

I’M IN ANOTHER ‘STAGE’ OF MY LIFE…DEVELOPMENTAL!

July 26, 2018 / / Faith and Trust, Life and Living, Living in the NOW, Peace and Understanding

My gosh!  One thing’s for sure….LEARNING NEVER STOPS…NEVER!  And to top off  this belabored true statement: THE WAYS WE LEARN CHANGE ALL OF THE TIME!

By forces well beyond my control, I am becoming more aware that there have been so many personal introductions to my life and the way I live it!  Said differently,  I continue to look around corners, jump into new experiences with excitement and no contemplation of outcome.  Actually, this is nothing short of  ‘just living in the NOW’, without any particular plans, and certainly no trepidation.

I’m so excited right this minute as I write this blog, I am hard-pressed where to start.  My heart is so full, and so grateful, and I’m intent on offering my experience for others to consider.

I’m 81 years old…for a first-time reader…and life continues to hold me up to a wonderful standard of wanting to continue to enjoy the privilege of living IT!  It thrills me to tell myself in no uncertain terms:   Kaye, keep your head on straight!  Be aware of all of the blessings that you are continuously being granted  because you are looking for and accepting them as they appear.  Always keep in mind that in your own small world you  are continuously opening up an infinite world of possibilities just for you, Kaye, and it is here that you will always thrive, learn, grow, become aware, and continue to follow your Forever Path…  yes, Kaye, your Forever Path of Joyous living toward your Willingness to address whatever triggers your deepest Beingness, and your ultimate countenance of Peace.

As I type this conversation to Self, I know I am in tune with Source Energy and this is my message for today, meant to be written NOW.  And, as I have said so many times in Just Sayin’  “Live”, I trust the words which come from me are meant to be said in the way I say them, and will be heard by those who are meant to hear them.

I’m almost addicted to keeping my windows and doors open  so all those who are meant to come into my life, and all the teachings I am meant to receive, will appear.

This is my absolute FAITH and TRUST in all that brought me to this place in this life, and I have no doubt I will be brought far beyond.

This is the right of passage for us all...finding the many  Pearls in our own Oyster.

Blessed Be All.  To All Be Blessed.

 

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