April 2019

Life Is All My Perspective – Instructions to Self

April 22, 2019 / / GAYA, Honoring Intention, It's all in the Energy, Living in the NOW, Mindfulness, Self-Consciousness

It’s  a Monday, first day of 365 of  a work week of 52, in a month of 12, which makes up a year… all keeping up with time I claim doesn’t really exist!  I even entitled a chapter in my second book, The Book of Kaye (I AM), “All the time we have is all the time we need.”

This almost sounds like a riddle.  We take time out of our days to do something else, we stretch time to finish a project, we keep track of time as a measure of fulfillment  (baking a cake, finishing college, reaching scheduled appointments, etc.), we regret wasting time, and  yet, we claim we never have enough time.  For something that I claim doesn’t exist in space, I’m using time right now to express myself.

I sit here drinking my ginger-lemon tea, not knowing exactly what’s coming up for my ‘day fill’, and already I can sense I’m wondering about it.  Why wonder?  I live in the NOW!  I’m drinking tea NOW so there’s no going beyond that!  Furthermore, I’m writing a blog about it, so that’s about all of  the ‘NOW’ IN THIS ‘TIME’ I can handle!

And, what about rushing  around ” like a chicken with it’s head cut off”, or multi-tasking,  and all those birds we try to kill with one stone?

No wonder we have phrases like “Stop and smell the roses”, or “Slow down”, “Easy does it”,  “Savor the moment”, and so many more.

When all is said and done, I’m the one who is doing all of this to myself.  It’s for my pleasure I guess…something in my thoughts is giving me the ‘rule’ or the ‘direction’.  Now, I am reminded I recently mentioned in a live stream I was becoming more self-conscious because I was more aware of my thoughts and intentions. This is exactly why I am writing this blog.  To open myself  to more insight and shed more light upon my darkened corners.

I want to enjoy the privilege of living my life with as much peace and joy and thrill as possible.  With this in mind, I want to lose track of time altogether and pull myself inward to the awareness of really ‘being in the moment of the doing’. If I don’t get to it…So What?  All the more reason to Savor what I am into.

   Cherish every single moment as the most important. 

You don’t have to figure out anything more beyond this.  ~Gaya

 

I Choose The Swings!

April 13, 2019 / / Conscious Awareness, Energy Connection, GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, Love

It surely is time well spent sitting in the silence of mediation for 15 minutes or so.  I suspend away from thoughts and drift into a space of nothing and everything  and somehow I allow myself to be reached from the beyond, my Gaya, Source Energy,  and when I ‘return’,  the phrase I coined many years ago comes to mind.  “Everything is as unimportant as it is important”.

I’m sitting in this ‘glow’ right now and it feels so wonderful not being tumbled into anything…just sitting in the inclusion of ALL.    Why would I want to stir up things around me?  I am a sentient being and aware when I am disrupting…reacting…feeling the touch of dis-ease within my beingness.  I allow myself to be in tune when I am calm and not restless.  I can feel the difference when I deliberately tune out and away when activity outside of me is not serving me.  I don’t need to have an energetic judgment thought, I can simply weave myself away and out of reach to stay in my peace.

I am feeling gratitude for the realization that I am a part of something far larger than my day-to-day activity or preoccupation with living my life.  I’m on the fringe of beginning to understand that LIFE is pure experience to be hallowed.   I am a life transmitter!  There are dictates inside of me that are always sparking.  My Higher Self thrills when I step beyond thought and planning and move into the doing of life.  This is beyond attitude or a state of mind.  This is making my own way through the ease and grace of living life to my fullest joy and elation with new awareness and understanding of where I am intending to go.  The feeling is like when I was a child and went on the swing.  I could pump myself higher and higher and pretty soon I would be swinging so high it was scary but so exhilarating too….and it was I who controlled it all.  

What a wonderful state of Being.

Enjoy!    ~Gaya

I AM NOT ALONE…EVER!

April 9, 2019 / / GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, Honoring Intention, Self-fulfillment, Self-Realization, Source Energy

I have provided pretty good company for myself all these many years.  I guess living alone means different things to different people.  When parents experience the ’empty nest’ syndrome when children leave home for college or marriage, or whatever else, ofttimes they suffer this ‘loss’ for a time.  I don’t recall feeling this way, but I do feel the ‘loss’ when I have had house guests and when they leave, I experience a letdown which I combat by stripping the bed linens and bringing my house back to ‘my order of things’.  Tomorrow I’m going to be doing just this when my Sister in Heart returns to her home in Spain.  My son left this morning after a near-eight-week-stay…longest I can ever remember.

I’m in my silence now until I retrieve my ‘Sister’  this afternoon from her return off a jaunt she took while here.  We have this evening left together.

I feel it!  There is no undertone of company, except the dog and cat.  There are no echoes of loneliness either. The beginning of the memories are lodged and will fulfill themselves when I kiss my Sister goodbye tomorrow. This is all I know in this NOW.

I was encouraged by a guided meditation of Deepak Chopra this morning:  “Every day my Being seeks new ways to expand.”  This is exactly what I have been feeling.  I guess this is how I keep my good company with myself too.  Gaya, my non-physical friends, and I are in cahoots!  I am provided the fodder for my activities which in turn nurtures me, fulfills me, encourages and supports me, inspires me, loves me, and helps me to keep on keeping on.  Coincidentally, I can only do this alone and unassisted. In this awareness, I am being guided by this loving presence…my Source, my Guidance System…which is focused on me and, of course, on all others.  This awareness is the catalyst to my connection – my immersion with ALL.  There are no limits or boundaries.

In conclusion, I have been renewed in spirit by my son’s presence, and I have been filled and fulfilled by my Sister’s loving visit.  What wonderful blessings have been bestowed upon me.

Kaye’s intention supported this experience.  

Her consciousness of our forever-presence

perpetuates the flow of her joy, happiness and peace.   ~Gaya

 

 

 

WHEN I RESIST, I AM MAKING A JUDGMENT CALL AND THE WALLS CAN’T TUMBLE DOWN!

April 4, 2019 / / GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, It's all in the Energy, Life and Living, Mindfulness, Peace and Understanding, Self-Realization

There’s nothing like dusting off and shining up a glass-topped table!  It comes to me that this is not unlike clarifying my thoughts or experiences as I continue to pick up some pieces of my long life and drop off as many others as I can, fully knowing they don’t serve me anymore.

I work with wanting as much Peace in my life as possible, and to get this Peace, I must travel the same roads that caused the chaos and dis-ease within me.  I’ve had to acknowledge that my reactions to the myriad series of events in my life are exactly the driving force which bring about outcomes and these outcomes remain ‘alive and in play’ as I move along my Forever Path.

Let’s get down to the nitty-gritty here!!!  If I’m in a happy state, I have no resistance to Happiness…I am essentially at Peace and I like what goes on within me and around me as well.   However, when I decide/judge or predict some negative conditions are looming, I stiffen up and ‘prepare’ for the onslaught of what I alone have predetermined to be adversarial to me!   The War Is On!

All the more reason to be mindful of letting life BE  and be very mindful of keeping myself out of the fray of it all...being the observer not the participant of what happens around me, and not allowing it to happen TO me!  I am the puppeteer, and the puppet…I am the ventriloquist and the dummy!  If I stay within my Soul Beingness as much as a conscious human being can accomplish this, I can place myself in a Peaceful State AROUND and not IN a chaotic circumstance.  It turns out Soul Business is key and it overrides Ego Business if I am mindful to this to the best of my ability.

It is a wonderful Forever Path that ALL choose

when they hold up Gratitude and Generosity of  Spirit Heart

and reap the Abundance and Grace which is awaiting them.    ~Gaya.