Scratching my Surface is A Deep Dig!

June 8, 2022 / / Uncategorized

Porter is Officially Mine!  Yesterday was adoption day and I have become a new pet owner once again.  So, I wear another hat!

Golly, I sure have worn many, many hats in my 85 years.  I am not just one person. Each day…or even each moment…I change my depth by virtue of what I am up to, what responsibilities I take on.  And, when I change my depth, I fill up inside, I fulfill myself and Beingness.  I learn what I can do and accomplish.  I am directing myself in every way.  It’s a personal drive in me.   There’s no competition  except an inner desire to always keep on keeping on! Call it the delicious flavor of life!

Through my years I have labeled myself, and I have restricted myself at the same time.  I’ve gotten hung up on an individual identity, as against a global identity while traveling  my Forever Path.  I haven’t been just a female of a living species called human being, I’ve been a daughter, sister, student, legal secretary, administrative assistant, wife, mother, divorcee’, neighbor, friend, shopper, car driver, parishioner, cook, waitress, housekeeper, house buyer, landscaper, author, hostess, guest, spiritual seeker and finder, Facebook member…and these are some of the titles (labels) I’ve given myself…others have also labeled me visa vie their opinions and observations of me.

I don’t want to live my life in such specificity.  I’d like to view myself as a ‘generalist in life’.  When I’m cleaning up after a meal, I’m a dishwasher, only for that time...everything I am doing is only for that time I’m doing it. Why think what I’m doing at any given time is so permanent?!!  When I keep my windows and doors of life opportunity open with a welcoming attitude, this is excitement for life and living it!

I am a multi-experiencer of life! I make the choices for my experiences!  I want to savor my experiences for what they are, not whether or not I like them,  but that I’m having them.  Let them come and go.  Accept them…this doesn’t mean I approve of all of them…but for the time being, they are what they are in my life experience. Cum se Cum sa, que sera sera, ob-la-di ob-la-da

I take on my responsibilities which for that time are just that:  MY RESPONSIBILITIES.  And I relinquish some of these semi-permanent responsibilities throughout my lifetime as well. My role as a mother changed as my children matured. I’m a retiree now, and choose my daily duties and when I’m going to do them.

I am the Pearl of My Own Oyster…we all are.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.  Stay Safe, Be Well.

You Are That You Are At The Time.   ~Gaya

Going Above and Beyond… Intentional Effort!

May 10, 2022 / / Conscious Living, Energy Connection, Faith and Trust, GAYA, Intention, Life and Living, Living in the NOW, Love, Manifesting our goals and dreams

I’ve set up a garden here at my new digs; I continue to have lots to do around my new home and the land around it; my little foster pup, Porter, definitely has my attention; and having turned 85 a little over a month ago, I seem to be more attentive to taking better care of myself in every way, i.e., physically, mentally, spiritually and socially.

This morning the phrase ‘going above and beyond’ came into my mind.  This is what I am doing these days and I’m realizing that this is what LIFE demands of me if I’m going to keep on keeping on with interest in what I’m doing and why I’m doing it!

Take the garden:  Chicago has nothing on Deming, New Mexico, when it comes to wind!  It’s usually westerly, and these winds come with gusty force.  Thankfully, in principle, I don’t mind wind, but for growing, I had to make sure my garden is shielded from the ferocity of this wind.  I put in some beet seeds and keeping them damp till they germinate is absolutely necessary.  Also scattered wildflowers in two raised beds and around a walkway…same thing, have to keep the ground damp. I bought two tomato plants but still have them in pots…they have to grow up a bit more before they can survive the garden, I think. I have lots of hope and faith here, but it’s the effort that I must put forth!

And Porter?  Today is a vet day!  The shelter pays for the visit, but the main thing is his overall health and wellbeing.  He is turning into a wonderful companion, very smart and wanting to please.  He’s a grateful, loyal little guy.

And ME?  I’ve taken on additional responsibilities, notwithstanding the fact I am advancing in age…and so I’m much more conscious of what I owe to myself to succeed! 

More than ever before I’m aware I take nothing for granted.  By the same token, I am ever conscious that I am inextricably connected to and unconditionally loved and supported by God. 

The least I can do for myself is Go Above and Beyond whenever I’m doing anything.  It’s part of the pleasure of living life to the fullest.  It’s part of the contentment I feel at the end of the day when I express my gratitude for everything I have. 

It’s an absolute privilege to Go Above and Beyond the best way I am able.  The Intention matters.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.  Stay Safe.  Be Well.

Today is your day … be gleeful and grateful.      ~ Gaya

NEVER say Never!

April 15, 2022 / / "Going for It", Don't be held back, Faith and Trust, GAYA, Life and Living, Presence

I’ve said to many lately, “I can’t believe I’m 85!  I simply can’t believe it!”  I’m still flabbergasted that I am living out my dream on my DreamCatcher Ranch!  AND, to top all off, I’m fostering a little dog, Porter, who has stolen my heart and I most probably will adopt him.  Before I moved to New Mexico, I had no animals and I said more than once, I’ll NEVER get another animal.

We form opinions with reasoning behind them…BUT, these reasons change, we come up with new ideas, we compromise, we recognize we have changed, become more open-minded and more compassionate for ourselves (in my case).  One of my main reasons for not wanting another animal was because I figured I’d pass away before the animal!  Also, I’ve had my fill of putting animals down!

But there’s a ‘meantime’ I haven’t considered until I made this move to a new state, new home, new friends.  I’m still living alone.  Porter rather appeared out of nowhere…it was synchronicity as I see it. I accepted his foster, and in a few short days, I also realized he was adding to my life!  He has forced me to alter my routine and consider his needs!

I am an ‘old dog learning new tricks’ from a young dog!  There’s lots to be said about making changes, moreover about choosing to make changes, take risks, look  around the next corner, drop the fear and dread and leap into the unknown with a vengeance.  It’s called continuing to live the life I have been given. It’s all too easy to stay in my comfort zone, but in so doing, I’m sacrificing new feelings and experiences and accomplishments.

I can never receive too much unconditional love and such love is in short supply. Porter is very special to my recent experience because I recognize what he is offering me and what I offer him as well.

I always want to keep my windows and doors wide open…how else do I welcome the NOW into my life with enthusiasm and acceptance.  The Now is always New.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed. Stay Safe, Be Well.

Giving love and seeing joy in another provides Graceful Peace.   ~Gaya

Common Sense/Intuition/Trusting Self

March 20, 2022 / / "Going for It", Conscious Awareness, Conscious Living, Faith and Trust, GAYA

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

So, I started this blog with a technical problem:  It wouldn’t work!  This is one time I couldn’t accept what is is, without looking into it further, right?  Without any panic, just using my God-given brain, I followed common channels and was able to solve the problem…obviously…I’m typing my new blog!

What is stirring within me right now is the recognition at a very basic level that I have internal power(s) which serve me well at any given time, and they are only interfered with when I allow myself to react rather than respond.  THINKING makes it so…irrational thinking, panic reaction and fear, turn me into a robotic anxious state, and off the rails I can go. I remember this from many instances in my past.

There’s no need to go off the rails at all!  All I have to do is quietly  (within myself) gather my composure and remind myself that I CAN!

(As an aside, I am now reminded that my mother once said that some of my first words were “I can, I can”, and this usually came when she was trying to take my hand to guide me, or she was trying to show me something.  Doesn’t this illustrate,  ‘out of the mouths of babes’?)

I’ve been working on getting my garden in shape at my new home.  This takes planning, hard work, and an attitude which says, how much will I get done today?  NOT  when will I finish, or will I get this done?!!  No question I have worked much more slowly, but it’s coming together. I can’t plant yet till I’m sure no more frosts are coming, but I’ll be ready!  Confidence! This is what I have.  It’s only about me wanting to tackle something that I’m confident I can do, however more slowly I must do it,.. I can still do it!

Atta Girl, Kaye.  You’ve still got it!  And, I’ll continue to ‘have it’ as long as I’m doing something.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.  Stay safe, Be well.

There is a non-conceptual intelligence which guides your words and actions

when you go within trusting your silent knowing.   ~Gaya 

 

 

And Now What Do I Do? KEEP ON KEEPING ON!

February 18, 2022 / / Faith and Trust, GAYA, Life and Living, Manifesting our goals and dreams

Here I am at DreamCatcher Ranch! I’m my own version of a 2022 Pioneer Woman! Life continues as long as we let it…until it stops us! And, this is just what I’m up to now!  I’m no different, really, except I’m polishing and planning every day in my new surroundings. On one hand, it’s ‘old hat’, and on the other, life continues to dish up new and exciting vistas.

I’ve come from my heart, my dreams.  I’ve trusted myself, my energy, my sheer guts and grit, and my God, Universe, Creator,  and in retrospect, in what seemed like a blink of an eye, I transported myself into another world of living!   I’m planted in totally new surroundings which feel familiar.  My experiences are self-fulfilling…like a prophecy.  I don’t have any feelings of having ‘arrived’.  It’s more like, “Oh, I see, this is what I’ve done now.”  And, “I wonder what I’ll be up to; I wonder where I’ll take myself.”

Life has so much promise and as I near 85 years old, it doesn’t feel like I’ve peaked!  This time of my life is not an Acme!  I’ve merely shown myself what a person can do when they pull out some of the ‘stops’!

I’ll say it again, I’ve never loved a time of my life more!  And, I’ve never loved myself more! 

I’m ever-grateful for every experience and person I’ve met along my Forever Path. The falling down, and the picking myself back up. I’ve never had more Faith than I have right now…in myself and in God, Universe, Creator.  We’re held in the hands of greatness that is personal only to ourselves.  Whatever swirls in our minds can be ours if we can conjure up our own, innate magic wand that is ever so powerful to perform our Will.

Napoleon Hill said it:  “Whatever the mind can conceive and believe it can achieve.”

Ask and it shall be given unto you; seek and ye shall find;

knock and the door shall be opened unto you.   

…Oh ye of little faith… ~  Jesus

Trust and rely on the Goodness of All Creation

and the connection to your Forever Path.   ~Gaya

Blessed Be. To All Be Blessed.  Stay Safe. Be Well.

 

“Accomplishment” Is All About Perspective…EGO BE DOWN!

January 24, 2022 / / Conscious Awareness, GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, Humility, Peace and Understanding, Presence

I’ve now come to the conclusion that living life is the accomplishment of life itself!

Was it Laurel and Hardy who said, “Now that’s another mess you got me into”?  Looking at my life like this, boy I got myself out of lots of messes!  Now that was accomplishment too!  Coming through the tunnels of pain and grief and sorrow, self-hate, forgiving another (beginning with forgiving myself)…huge accomplishments! Falling down, and getting up more; keeping Faith and Love and Compassion and Kindness in my beingness after I felt I had been denied it;  finding an optimistic viewpoint, no matter what seemed to be existing to the contrary as I continued on my Forever Path – these were all unsung accomplishments as I continued to live my life.

Ah, yes, perspective:  as I produce a different thought I receive a different feeling which then produces another reality for me to consider.

Recently, I’ve been viewing my life in terms of dreams being fulfilled.  These were conscious dreams. These dreams were filled with wishes and hopes and ‘ifs’.  I wanted them enough to keep them alive, and this is important. But what about all the other positive results and happenstances of my life which I wasn’t ‘conscious’ of?  What about the Blessings I have received throughout my lifetime which involved Grace?  

There is no need to bolster myself up and make claim to what all I think I’ve done in my lifetime.  It matters not to the world at large.  It’s the intrigue about it…that it has happened, in spite of everything else that has happened. I am a hero to myself, that’s all there is to it.

It’s GRATITUDE that fills me with humility right now. I’ve been doing what I came here to do for 84+ years, and I will continue to do just that!  It’s nothing to brag about, but it is something to respect and remind myself that whatever I have done has come through me, and then I gave it form.  This is what I do.  I conceive an idea, grab onto it if it resonates with me, and then I make choices which give my ideas form.  Again, it comes through Blessings and Grace and to realize this sets my EGO on its heels!

How often have I said, ‘there but for the Grace of God go I’?  Why would I  find it necessary to use the misfortune of another to compare my own situation so I can feel better!!

I have found another level of awareness…another shift in my perspective… Peace and Calm… I love myself more right now. I love you more right now. WE all are LIFE, not to be compared…we are unique unto ourselves.  

Living is what Life is About…It is Everything.    ~Gaya

We Don’t Have to Die to Be in Heaven!

December 30, 2021 / / Conscious Awareness, Conscious Living, Energy Connection, Faith and Trust, GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, Humility, NOW, Peace and Understanding, Presence

I’m comfortable where I am.  I’m closer to nature than I have been in years. I can feel that I am going with the flow of my life. I’m meeting people who fit right into ‘my way’.  People around me show me they like my company.  I feel the generosity of others in many different ways, i.e., from a freely offered gesture to be of more help, to actual gifts of sincere budding friendship. I feel my Peace.  I feel my Gratitude.  I feel I belong.  I am happy.  I have joy in my heart.  I’m starting to deeply understand “what is” and it is becoming easier to ‘let it be’. I think there is a ‘Peace of God which passeth all understanding’ and an acceptance of that silent personal Power. I understand the dynamic of making myself happy through visionary accomplishment and achievement and self-fulfillment.

Tomorrow is New Years Eve Day and I’m mindful how I want to revere this particular time of my life.  I have started a new life.  The few constants in my life remain:  My Spiritual Practice, my belongings, my friends, my son and my activities on the internet. I am not a stranger…I feel my connection…my Presence.  My surroundings welcome me too. Each morning I await with anticipation what is presented to me.  I feel my Blessings.  I’m aware I am Blessing my surroundings as well, in particular, I am giving my new home so much loving care.  I am Careful, i.e., full of care for myself and whatever/whomever I encounter.  It feels like I am within a ‘networking circle’.  Information comes to me as I share my needs and interests, and this can be through my thoughts and aspirations as well as verbally.  I believe this is the Universe, God, Creator, whatever you call it, providing what I need.

  • Matthew 10:29-31 Are not two sparrows sold for a cent? And yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from your Father. But the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So do not fear; you are more valuable than many sparrows.
  • I feel complete and competent. I feel uplifted emotionally and spiritually. Little did I know 4-5 years ago when I bought a warm jacket that it’s perfect for this chillier Winter climate!  Unwittingly, I came prepared to this new state and home!

I am building my Faith, it’s inevitable.  LIFE is such a gift. What’s around us is such a gift. Those we meet are such a gift. Every experience we have is such a gift.

“Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That is why it is called the present.” ― Eleanor Roosevelt

All is meant to be.    ~Gaya

Happy New Years yet to come to All. Stay Well, Be Safe.  Blessed Be to All.

 

 

Was That An OWL I heard?

December 14, 2021 / / Conscious Awareness, Freedom, GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, NOW, Our Essence, Outside of Time, Presence, Silence

That’s what I said early yesterday morning! Can’t remember the last time I heard an owl, that’s for sure.  It brings me pause…undoubtedly there have been myriad things in my lifetime that were so important at the time that simply slipped away because I didn’t capture them.  We’re told “Stop and smell the roses” (or the coffee). Then, there’s this poignant one:  “You’ll never miss your mother ’til she’s gone.”

I’m reminded that everything is notably important at the time!

When I am in the state of conscious gratitude I can list some things that come to my mind.  BUT, as I write this morning,  clearly there is much more specificity to life.  There is an urgency each moment and that’s what living in the NOW is all about.  It’s all these fleeting moments that have made up my life.  I am an artist, after all!  And my amazing life portrait is captured by my eyes only! The thrills are never gone.  The colors never fade. I am the beholder! All of life is special!  As long as I cherish my life, I’ll have no regrets.

I recall a live stream I did many years ago where I used the phrase ‘exalt yourself’.’  We ought honor and exalt ourselves and our existence.  We have such ability to always be the prize in our own lives.  It is an invaluable treasure we discover when we silently realize synchronicity in our lives; when we begin to grasp the broader scope of our Beingness; when life takes on this specialized opportunity of awareness.

I am at the tip of my own iceberg. I realize now there have been so many iceberg tips! Eureka! There’s always something new coming to me.  How on earth can I ever be bored and without wonder? What an appropriate time of year to express JOY TO THE WORLD! … JOY TO MY WORLD!

Listen in the silence, and see in the darkness, no need to question, all is right NOW.  ~ Gaya

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.  Stay Safe and Be Well.

 

 

Now What?!

November 29, 2021 / / "Going for It", Conscious Awareness, GAYA, Grace, It's all in the Energy, Manifesting our goals and dreams, NOW, Presence

It’s not ‘same old, same old’;  I realize I make my life  ‘same new, same new’!

So, folks, I made my move.  I’ve accomplished making a new thought come true.  It’s about creation.  It’s about listening to my inner voice.  It’s about self-fulfillment, satisfaction, and self-motivation.  Now that I’m here and settling into my new home, I have turned a new page in my life, and there are new horizons…literally.  Life now presents a newness to me, and my feelings are that I’ve been waiting and readying myself for this time  and NOW THIS IS THE TIME TO ENJOY IT FULLY.

I don’t feel alone.  I don’t feel lost. I feel more like I have found newness in my life.  New friends, new scenery, new creativity, and most of all, I feel comfortable with all of it. This is living!

I am now catching the dream at my DreamCatcher Ranch!  There’s lots to do here. And, I have the desire and time to spend doing it!  There’s no rush…just greeting each day with enthusiasm and gratitude and an optimistic attitude. (Wait a minute…isn’t this the way it’s supposed to be every day? YES!)   And I realize I am always responsible for making it so.  Making a move out of state may sound a bit radical, but apparently, it was what I needed.  I guess the point is, when I recognized I had impetus for making this big change, it felt easy and doable and ultimately it was. Things fell into place…I had lots of help…there was no push and shove…and looking back, it really does feel like it was meant to be.  I guess all things we do are meant to be.

Life is a gift of experience and learning. And, it’s by our own doing we liven things up when we see we are ready for newness and change.  There will always be something around the next corner I guess.  But Here and NOW, I am grateful for recognizing what all has gone into this life I am living right NOW.

I am mindful of a daily prayer:

This morning I will say, something great is on the way, God sends his blessings to me.

God is the light of my life, the source of my imagination, God in the midst of me knows.

He gives me food for thought, ideas for excellent service, divine intelligence and an abundance of faith.

God in his love pours forth his goodness upon me and my life and world show forth his perfect order.

You are Life.   ~Gaya

I Always Come Along…No Matter Where I Go!

November 10, 2021 / / Uncategorized

My move has been a wonderful experience!  BUT, one thing’s for sure:  I haven’t gotten away from anything about me. In fact, I’m moving toward more about me!

It’s called Baggage!  Whatever issues I’ve had are still mine.  My spiritual practice remains so important to me as I navigate my new life, living in this new NOW…(every NOW is new, of course!). I feel a different aliveness.  I feel a new sense of how I go about ‘things’.  I always want to succeed, whether it’s fixing up this house, making new friends, learning the territory, and in doing this, I’m very aware how I’m tackling these new things.

Having lived in my former home for 19 years, I had become accustomed to my lifestyle.  Now, I’m creating a new lifestyle.  I’m finding new places for things, I have upset my routine. It’s a good thing. 

It is I who created the change, and this is an interesting dynamic. ‘They’ say the elderly don’t accept change easily.  Well, we do when we instigate it!  It’s more like we don’t like being told how and when to do something!  We don’t like surprises!   I’ve said, “Age is no pass to wisdom”.  Now I’ll also say, “Age is a pass to experience.”  No matter what, the more years we have lived, the more experience we have garnered and, hopefully, the more we have figured out about what works for us.

I’ve never loved my life more than this time of my life’  Living life has gotten me ready for living more life! It’s about using  the time I have to do what I want to do.  I appreciate my strengths, and stamina, and interests. The old adage, “If you want it done right, do it yourself” rings a chord these days.

I had lots of help pulling off my move.  My son was exceedingly helpful when we first arrived, and he extended his stay for a few days.  I needed this and was so grateful for his thoughtfulness and aid.  But when he left, I was ready to stand alone and I felt confident.  I drew upon past experience. Independence is a wonderful feeling that hinges with Faith. I have felt the support of the Universe.  I have felt the ease and grace that comes along without push and shove.  I have recognized the synchronicity in my life through this massive choice-experience.  I know I will continue to experience self-fulfillment.

It is true, I am inextricably connected to, and unconditionally loved and supported by, God, Universe, Creator…call it what you will.

Of course,.   ~Gaya

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.  Stay safe and Be Well.

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