Honoring Intention

I AM NOT ALONE…EVER!

April 9, 2019 / / GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, Honoring Intention, Self-fulfillment, Self-Realization, Source Energy

I have provided pretty good company for myself all these many years.  I guess living alone means different things to different people.  When parents experience the ’empty nest’ syndrome when children leave home for college or marriage, or whatever else, ofttimes they suffer this ‘loss’ for a time.  I don’t recall feeling this way, but I do feel the ‘loss’ when I have had house guests and when they leave, I experience a letdown which I combat by stripping the bed linens and bringing my house back to ‘my order of things’.  Tomorrow I’m going to be doing just this when my Sister in Heart returns to her home in Spain.  My son left this morning after a near-eight-week-stay…longest I can ever remember.

I’m in my silence now until I retrieve my ‘Sister’  this afternoon from her return off a jaunt she took while here.  We have this evening left together.

I feel it!  There is no undertone of company, except the dog and cat.  There are no echoes of loneliness either. The beginning of the memories are lodged and will fulfill themselves when I kiss my Sister goodbye tomorrow. This is all I know in this NOW.

I was encouraged by a guided meditation of Deepak Chopra this morning:  “Every day my Being seeks new ways to expand.”  This is exactly what I have been feeling.  I guess this is how I keep my good company with myself too.  Gaya, my non-physical friends, and I are in cahoots!  I am provided the fodder for my activities which in turn nurtures me, fulfills me, encourages and supports me, inspires me, loves me, and helps me to keep on keeping on.  Coincidentally, I can only do this alone and unassisted. In this awareness, I am being guided by this loving presence…my Source, my Guidance System…which is focused on me and, of course, on all others.  This awareness is the catalyst to my connection – my immersion with ALL.  There are no limits or boundaries.

In conclusion, I have been renewed in spirit by my son’s presence, and I have been filled and fulfilled by my Sister’s loving visit.  What wonderful blessings have been bestowed upon me.

Kaye’s intention supported this experience.  

Her consciousness of our forever-presence

perpetuates the flow of her joy, happiness and peace.   ~Gaya

 

 

 

An “Ah Ha” Moment is One Thing… a BREAKTHROUGH is Quite Another!

March 28, 2019 / / GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, Honoring Intention, Living in the NOW, Love, Peace and Understanding

I had occasion this morning to respond to a piece on Facebook.   My friend, whom I gave tribute to in my third book, writes through his personal spiritual connection, Rachael.  He was referring to “clarity” and its meaning in our daily lives.  I automatically typed my response.  It was Gaya responding. I knew I was having a personal Spiritual Breakthrough which finally had made its way to my conscious awareness.  IT’S HUGE!

I quote my response below in its entirety.  The design of this message has utterly opened a door for me that will undoubtedly  continue to re-play in my every day.  It totally expresses the Ease and Grace which I’ve been continuously looking to achieve as I enjoy the privilege of living my life.  It brings to the surface  how easy Life really can be, merely opening up each day with what we have inside of us:  we have an internal zest to thrive in life.  That is precisely why we keep on keeping on. But, in my case, if I don’t keep track of my efforts, and how they relate to my intentions of each day, it ultimately becomes a mish-mash of events…not the tightly woven masterpiece of what I’m really trying to accomplish.

  • “Kaye has been readying for her house guest’s arrival 4/1. This has been going on for some time now. She has been ‘preparing’ for it differently, i.e., doing a little something each day (thinking she tires more easily and doesn’t want to leave it all to the last week!) She realizes now that this really coincides with Rachael’s words, in that her clarity has been intention with completing tasks during each of these upcoming days. She has been choosing ‘details’ over and above the common ones, of floor and window washing, etc. She realizes every action is but a preparation for NOW – whether or not there is a guest arriving in a few days. Kaye is arriving each moment to her life.     ~Gaya”

I am now convinced my Soul, my Universe, my Source Energy, my Gaya, has held me with a tight grasp of love and care since I became; that I have been heard all of my existence, and have been guided and protected as I have made my way on my countless journeys, to exactly NOW.  I trust this will be infinitely so.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

Of course! Who Wouldn’t?!

March 11, 2019 / / Conscious Awareness, Consistency with consideration, GAYA, Gratitude, Honoring Intention, Humility, Life and Living, Love, Manifesting our goals and dreams, Mindfulness, Peace and Understanding

Of course, I love sincere Compliments!  Of course, I love to be Missed!  Of course, I love being Welcomed into a room!  Of course, I love it when someone mentions they enjoy being Around me!  Of course!  Of course!  Of course!  Don’t we all love being on the receiving end!  But, clearly there’s more to living a life as a receiver, and that goes for all the BS we hear and receive and take into our being…some may be directed to us, some is peripheral noise that swirls around us, whether we’re at work, play, shopping, even conversing with someone else.

Mahatma Gandhi famously said, “You must be the change you want to see in the world.” This says it!  This means I am in that driver’s seat all of the time.  Being the change in my own world!  When I deem there are changes I want to see in my own world, it is the very beginning of my own Peace and Happiness.  When I am in Peace and am Happy, everything around me takes on being ‘well with the world’ at large because I am making my own difference.

We know happiness comes only from within.  We also know when one is complaining it is the signal that there is unhappiness from within being projected outward.  Doesn’t it make common sense, then, when I concentrate on my own happiness and self-fulfillment I give out this same countenance and, therefore, this fabulous energy spreads to everyone and everything around me.  To my view, yes it does!

No getting around it, we still have to be sweeping our own front doors all of the time.  There is never an extra moment we have to be concerned of what another person is up to, except when we perceive someone is hurting in some way and if we are in a position to give a kindness, we must give it.  This fills us up too.  Our actions do speak louder than words…and is it our Ego straining to receive, and are our actions demonstrative of what we are entertaining for our own welfare?

We need to gather ’round our own flagpoles that celebrate our existence on this planet.  We need to operate with gratitude all of the time for our very breath.  There wouldn’t be time nor inclination to be tearing down someone else, making note of the differences instead of our similarities, if we were much more conscious where our own behavior is taking us.  It comes to my mind, this is truly selfish when we always have to be satisfying our own ego needs.  Instead, ought we not be thinking how to satisfy our own love needs? Ego satisfaction is fleeting and never satisfied.  Love is permanent, and the gestures made in the name of love are enduring in all times.  Again, it starts with Self.  Yes, I want to BE the change in MYSELF FIRST.

I’ve come full circle now with the help of Gandhi.  I do want to be the change I want to see in my world.  I belong to it, and all that live in it too.  As long as I have an attitude of Hope and Willingness to Change something in my own small world, I am automatically making a positive difference to my World at Large.

We are in harmony when vision expresses itself through awareness.   ~ Gaya

 

 

There’s a Lot to Be Said for Expressing Yourself!

February 23, 2019 / / Conscious Awareness, Energy Connection, GAYA, Honoring Intention, Humility, Life's Impressions, Peace and Understanding, Self-Realization

 

I am mindful this morning that I have so many feelings inside of me, and if I don’t stop and sift through them, I’m missing the opportunity to express myself about them…either to myself, or to the world at large.  I think Self Expression rates high with Self-Esteem because to feel good about expressing myself out loud to others, I feel I have self confidence that my feelings are important to declare.

My feelings aren’t only about myself, either.  This is why I like to give credit where credit is due to others.  When I observe outstanding qualities in others, or their appearance, their demeanor which I find to be so exemplary, I’m almost forced inside to say something outwardly so others can feel my admiration.

It comes to mind  how I feel about what I’m observing has all to do with my inward perception and my outward expression of compassion and kindness.  When I’m able to express positive words and actions about another to someone else, I am extending positive energy to the ethos of humankind.

These kinds of feelings point out to me that I am loving myself well too.  The feelings that are inside for another generate from the feelings I have for myself…a softness, an awareness, and general state of well being for me and others.   The world is as harsh as it feels to me…and as welcoming too.  When I am comfortable as I wend my days, I’m comfortable with myself, so I will be comfortable with what is around me too.  I am also reminded that I have a generous heart when I think like this.  That I am thinking outside myself, and it isn’t about me!

From within, Kaye is realizing the ripple effect of what she receives from her connection with Source, and automatically perpetuates this connection with what is around her.  She is feeling the magnanimity of it all.     ~Gaya

 

 

What Do You Want to Make of It?

February 5, 2019 / / Conscious Awareness, GAYA, Gratitude, Honoring Intention, Humility, It's all in the Energy

Talk about an open-ended question!  “What do you want to make of it?”  And, then again, what a powerful suggestion:  YOU CAN MAKE ANYTHING YOU WANT TO MAKE OF ANYTHING!

I absolutely believe my mind’s thoughts create my world.   I am living one way or another by virtue of my perception of what is around me or presented to me.  Another absolute, as far as I’m concerned, is whatever I say and think comes from inside of me.  So, whatever I am up to, one way or another, is preceded by what is inside of me!  To admit and agree to this necessarily abides total responsibility for where I am at any given time in my life, my day, my thoughts, my happiness, my sadness, my satisfaction or dissatisfaction to everything.

If I have disorder in my mind, I have disorder in my life.  It follows this has not only to do with general orderliness in my home, but also the quality of my restfulness and peace and happiness in my day-to-day living.  I know I have written a blog or two on how  letting my mind wander into territory which has not one thing to do with my well being keeps me from tending to fluidity of my spirit.  I want a healthy spirit, mind and body.  I want to live a Spiritual Practice  of my Faith in what I believe to be the ground-rules of my existence.

If I don’t provide myself direction, where will I find myself at any given time?  If I am learning lessons along my pathway of spiritual questing, do I not owe myself the benefit of these lessons to be using them as I keep on keeping on?   My answer to these questions is, this is the Power I have!  

Living in the NOW requires  an immediacy of action without premeditation.  It takes intentional acceptance within Self  that I am able to provide intentional organizational response and this, in turn, assures connection to my Gaya, which is always in abeyance of my heart’s desires toward wholeness.

What is my Bottom Line?  I am a part of all Greatness of the Universe.  I came to be here in this NOW with aim and purpose, to experience everything I can that fills me up, and never diminish what I already am.

Together, We are Alpha and Omega for eternity.  We are each journey chosen. We are as deep as you wish to go. We are the sunrise and sunset.  We are inseparable.  We Are.               ~Gaya

“We” make “It”!

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

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Scales, Benchmarks, Graphs, Rules, Opinions…Life Measures – Only Mine Count!

January 27, 2019 / / Conscious Awareness, Energy Connection, GAYA, Honoring Intention, Peace and Understanding, Self-Realization

It’s getting close to month’s end and it just occurred to me that “keeping on keeping on” is exactly where it’s at for me!  Another phrase that fits for me is “steady as she goes”.

I’m coming to figure out that some of the peaks and valleys in the stream of my life are really ‘woman’ made!  My  Ego has a way of pinching nerves that irritate and agitate and this can draw me away from what I’m up to.  A stream of water doesn’t think, it just keeps on moving with the current, or around an obstacle, through an underpass or over rocks…it just keeps moving.

I’ve taken on significant new approaches which allow me greater peace and joy, awareness and understanding.  I’m meditating more, I’m attending online seminars which provide me new resources that enhance my well being.  This is very new to my experience, comparatively.

I’m noticing that I have a different countenance.  “Easy does it” is another one.   I’m getting where I’ve been wanting to go because I am thoughtful to it.  It may be that ‘coming of age’ has something to do with this frame of mind, but I’d like to believe it has more to do with learning how to navigate my life a little bit better with ease and grace.  I have to receive life on life’s terms; however, how I perceive it is up to me… how I participate in life is what matters to me.  It’s me that adds the flavor and texture and depth to my existence.   I provide my own perks and I reap the rewards of loving the privilege of living my life.

We would call this expansion.  To use your expression, ‘the world is your oyster’.  You are tasting the wellspring of some of all that is already yours.     ~Gaya

Early morning is an ideal time to think on these things.   I am on course.  My life has meaning and purpose to me.

Blessed Be. To All Be Blessed.

 

 

 

Today Is My Forever…I Can Work With That!

December 26, 2018 / / Conscious Awareness, Energy Connection, GAYA, Honoring Intention, Life and Living, Life's Impressions, Living in the NOW, Love, Self-Realization

I awake and it is ‘Today’, and if I live through the night, I awaken to another Today, and so it goes.  I guess there really is no time.  We put it into segments to be orderly for work hours, we separate night and day and we have created weeks and months and years.   We age ourselves from our birth dates, and in our early years of development we monitor such development by standard, and in our later years we monitor our decline, again by standard.

I spent every New Year’s Eve for more decades than I can count monitoring my past year’s accomplishments and then fast-forwarding 10, then 5 (as I aged) years ahead  semi-seriously dabbling in what I thought I might want to do in that future time space.   This was an elaborate exercise of listing things to do, looking to the future, and somehow trying to bring the dead past to life with the reminiscence of it all.   It all seemed to be so valuable to me, and none of it had to do with the PRESENT, the TODAY OF MY LIFE.

No more of this for me…I hinted last year was to be the end of this practice for me, and so it was! It’s my TODAY I breathe, touch, smell, feel, think about and do something about…My NOW!

No holding onto past accomplishments – that was then, this is NOW! No waiting for a set of circumstances to be perfectly in place before doing something.  It’s called strike while the iron is hot!  Our heart has a perfect way of letting us know when we want to do something.  It’s our mind that starts doing the calculating, provisioning, and conventionalizing our heart’s desire, until we finally can’t see where to begin…it becomes a downer instead of a motivated wonderful dream intention which our heart brought forward for us to act upon in the first place.

I have all I can do to take care of my own business and stay out of that of others; it’s the same about working with each  TODAY I’ve been given.  It requires devotion to myself, love of myself, filling each moment I am  breathing with an attitude of well-being, recognizing my gratitude and Blessings and my own POWER TO MAKE MY LIFE BETTER  during EACH DAY!  There isn’t much more time for anything else that I can do anything about.  The future isn’t in my grasp until it is TODAY.

I’m feeling wonderful about this shift in my thinking.  It falls into perfect place with my view on aging too.  As I’ve said before, I have no end game. My life IS, until it ISN’T, and when that happens, it will be ‘a TODAY’.

HAPPY NEW DAY EVERYONE!   Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

 

 

 

 

Serenity, Courage, Wisdom and Gratitude, Faith in Intention, and Acceptance

December 15, 2018 / / GAYA, Honoring Intention, Humility, It's all in the Energy, Love, Peace and Understanding, Self-Realization, True Forgiveness and Understanding

People say, “Wake up!”, or “They just haven’t awakened”, or “They haven’t seen the light”, or whatever.  In a way, isn’t this a demeaning, dismissing way of viewing others, if one thinks ‘they have‘!  To me this rather sounds like “I’m here, you’re there, I outrank you, but you’ll get there someday, but until that time, I’m of a higher echelon group, a bit more elevated, I’ve ‘attained’, but I can ‘help you if you listen to me’, but I love you just the same.”  I guess when one can say these things, and write words around them, one believes them.

I’ve spent nearly four years publicly excavating myself to authenticity right to this moment.  In looking back, this was actually the beginning of my  intentional living and practicing my spirituality as I have been working with it.

I have had a constant thread intention of wanting to rid myself of as much Karmic Debt as I can before I take a hike!  So, what exactly does this mean to me?  When I have these ‘itchy, gut triggers’ which spontaneously erupt, I figure this is a sign to ‘get at it’.  BUT, BIGGER THAN THIS is the constant rub I have with certain loved ones  which doesn’t go away.  I know we’re together for a reason – more than the ‘family/friendship thing’ – and for a couple of years I’ve been pretty clear that there’s some healing to be done!  Frankly, I don’t want to have to get into this stuff in another life if I can help it!

I learned a while back I’m the one who has to see things differently, I’m the one who has to get things to be as I want them to be right in front of me, and I’m the only one who has to keep switching up the lenses until I see what is actually there, not what I think is actually there!  What this turns out to be is the Art of Loving as I’ve come to feel it.  I’m not here to be teaching others – except by example, of course, but I am here to teach myself.   This loving is all-inclusive, beginning with me, then reaching out to all around me.  The responsibility is always on me first, loving myself first, so I already have within myself that intention of creating the peace and understanding and compassion and kindness and thoughtfulness toward another. When I am able to extend myself like this, I have struck the chords within me that prove to be enlightening and I get personal awareness of my successful achievement of having  found my goal of understanding what I’ve needed to learn.  Nothing can be achieved without self-honesty.  There’s no proving anything to myself; there is the opening up of my real self to Me and then there is what I will call pure understanding and light.  It is an amazing experience and I’ve just spent a full week in this Grace of Life.

When one understands the soul-connection one has with the Whole of Everything, it is the heart-consciousness meld experiencing the joy and happiness and fulfillment of all the heart’s wishes which are nothing but the extreme love of Self and the extension of that love to all others.   ~Gaya

What I have just written has come from a very deep place within me.  It’s from the Soul Knowledge Treasure, perhaps.  It’s a beautiful pearl which I have found in my World Oyster. 

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

 

 

 

I Love Hearing the Silent Sounds!

October 29, 2018 / / GAYA, Gratitude, Honoring Intention, Life and Living

Don’t ask me why and how I am truly moved to begin another blog…it’s those almost deafening ‘silent sounds’ that pull me to the page!

I’m hoofing again, and I think this has something to do with it!  I’ll never be able to explain how easily I can leave the hoof for so many months and then, when I return, it’s like I can’t figure out how I could have taken that hiatus from the activity that keeps me alive in so many ways!

It’s like my singing in the shower.  I know fully well why I started it up those 3+ years ago, and today, there is a fulfillment in it…almost a ‘swan song’, if you will, that screams to me silently, ‘You Did It, Kaye”!  I’ve always known what I was attempting to do and why I had set this goal inside of me.  It was all part of the onion-peel!  I knew what I was lacking and I had figured out a way I could slowly, but surely, bring it out of me:   Self-Confidence!   Now, it’s just plain pure pleasure when I let my ‘inside Angel’ loose as the water streams!

We told her this morning, she was meant to sing, speak and write and we are so happy for her and she is aware.  We found it comical and childlike.  She was four years old.  It was Christmas Eve in church with her parents…without any hesitation, she slipped from the pew and walked up to the front of the church and sang “Silent Night, Holy Night”, and then returned to her seat.  Pride, yet embarrassment, swept through her mother.  What a Blessing to Remember, Kaye.    ~Gaya

I enjoy my inspirations, and how I can muse to myself now with such clarity.  It’s hard to describe the peace and understanding that I feel and continue to enjoy every step on my Ladder(s) of Life.

My Ladder(s) of Life Progress are interesting:  I can easily come to a Vee.  I can move forward in certain areas of my life and then there are other areas which hold me as if I were in mud!  I always continue in both directions, and while I’m in the mud, I stay with it…trying for the breakthrough to veer back on the full-progress track.  Presently, my ‘mud’ is “Detachment”.  Loving those I love, while detaching from them in that love, and in this process enjoying the exquisite peace and understanding that as individuals we are duty bound to travel our own ways as we reach for our own successes and awareness.  Intellectually, I know this is attainable.  The integration of this whole concept takes its good old-fashioned time while the work continues.  I’ll share with everyone every step of ‘this way’.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

 

Questions, Answers, and The Truth of it….As I Understand It.

October 2, 2018 / / GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, Honoring Intention, Manifesting our goals and dreams, Truth to Self

 

When I give my word, I want it to mean something.  Until this morning, I figured I wanted it to mean something to someone else.  When I make an appointment time, I’ll be there on time, or a bit before; when I say I’ll call you back, I’ll do so; when I say I’m here for you,   I WILL, I AM.  It’s important to me that I be a reliable person to another person.  I know this is part of my ‘integrity puzzle piece’.

This morning, it comes to me VERY LOUDLY,  do I care as much about keeping my word to myself?  On the surface, this seems like such a simple question/answer.  BUT, the picture I have in my mind’s eye has a much more far-reaching scope.

My word ties to my thoughts…My word has a subliminal message that is meaningful only to me…that is, if I want to dig a little for it.  My  ‘word’ actually has placed me at any given time in the setting of a day, week, month, or year(s) of my life.  My ‘word’ as it relates to self-talk, is the truth to myself…my opinion about myself, unless I am careful NOT to believe me!

She’s talking about the ‘unspoken word’.  The thoughts she knows she has had all of her life, her deep down thinking that she now knows confiscated her life for the time she bowed to mistakes in her assumptions about situations, and people.  The times she thoughtlessly participated in activities that were not in her best interests nor to her greatest good.  She is  resurrecting and excavating again to her authenticity how she could misguide herself by her lack of awareness that thoughts have cemented her to the result, as surely as the verbal words of intention, as she knows now  create her life every step of the way.                                                        ~  Gaya

It is important for me to ask the important questions to myself, and even more importantly, make sure I am giving myself the accurate answers.  I am my own parent and always have been, after I reached the age of majority and began to give myself permission.  I don’t want to trip any more than necessary; I want to be able to fully rely upon myself with clear intention.  

I guess when I look back, there really aren’t any surprises as to where I was at any given time…I was following my subtle dictates and desires and whims, without thinking twice as to the wisdom of my actions.  It’s again another Freedom of the Choices that I recognize now I will make with  more attention and clarity of mind toward my REAL INTENTION TO MY LIFE.

There really doesn’t have to be a ‘flip side’ to life, if I steadfastly hold onto the helm of my ship!  My internal compass knows exactly where I want to be headed.  No more unspoken words to myself!  I am capable of giving myself straightforward responses to my straightforward questions.  Straightforward from the heart receives straightforward from Source Energy, My Gaya.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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