Self-Realization

Scales, Benchmarks, Graphs, Rules, Opinions…Life Measures – Only Mine Count!

January 27, 2019 / / Conscious Awareness, Energy Connection, GAYA, Honoring Intention, Peace and Understanding, Self-Realization

It’s getting close to month’s end and it just occurred to me that “keeping on keeping on” is exactly where it’s at for me!  Another phrase that fits for me is “steady as she goes”.

I’m coming to figure out that some of the peaks and valleys in the stream of my life are really ‘woman’ made!  My  Ego has a way of pinching nerves that irritate and agitate and this can draw me away from what I’m up to.  A stream of water doesn’t think, it just keeps on moving with the current, or around an obstacle, through an underpass or over rocks…it just keeps moving.

I’ve taken on significant new approaches which allow me greater peace and joy, awareness and understanding.  I’m meditating more, I’m attending online seminars which provide me new resources that enhance my well being.  This is very new to my experience, comparatively.

I’m noticing that I have a different countenance.  “Easy does it” is another one.   I’m getting where I’ve been wanting to go because I am thoughtful to it.  It may be that ‘coming of age’ has something to do with this frame of mind, but I’d like to believe it has more to do with learning how to navigate my life a little bit better with ease and grace.  I have to receive life on life’s terms; however, how I perceive it is up to me… how I participate in life is what matters to me.  It’s me that adds the flavor and texture and depth to my existence.   I provide my own perks and I reap the rewards of loving the privilege of living my life.

We would call this expansion.  To use your expression, ‘the world is your oyster’.  You are tasting the wellspring of some of all that is already yours.     ~Gaya

Early morning is an ideal time to think on these things.   I am on course.  My life has meaning and purpose to me.

Blessed Be. To All Be Blessed.

 

 

 

Peace, Silence, Clarity….Easier to Find Alone!

January 21, 2019 / / GAYA, It's all in the Energy, Love, Manifesting our goals and dreams, Peace and Understanding, Self-Realization

I am in it right this minute!  Silence!   I’m able to hear!  Isn’t it wonderful, this Silence.

I remember when my brain was a rampage of activity.  When I had such immense concerns in every day…when life was always on the hustle and the bustle…when either a kid was crying, or the car wouldn’t start in winter, or money was getting short and payday was a way off.  I remember when I felt at my wit’s end… when I was so frantic with the acute anxiety shaking that just wouldn’t leave me…or when I realized I had made another bad marriage choice (Enough! I’ve remembered enough to increase my heart rate!).

NOW IT IS DIFFERENT! I have just given myself the contrast:  the grateful reminder that life continued to get better when I began to participate in it.  I have now become a part of the world I have been living in for so long.  My  picture  of existence has become more clear and I now enjoy my human condition so much more because I am living my Gaya connection...my Wholeness…my Essential Beingness…my Spiritual Beingness in this human experience.

My small world has begun to expand to the ethereal one where I now welcome myself to explore how I feel and how I want to feel. It is by my own choices and intention and desire to elevate my consciousness and to find ways to do this.  It is in the silence when this happens to me.   This is truly a ‘between-me-and-me’ experience.

I am in the cockpit soaring. It is important I check my compass NOW.  Nothing and no one around me can be of assistance.  This is a solo flight.

We are everything of you.  We are the joy and happiness you seek. We are the high notes you want to sing, the love you want in your life.  And so it is, there is nothing outside of you which you cannot give to yourself.    ~  Gaya

 

 

Today Is My Forever…I Can Work With That!

December 26, 2018 / / Conscious Awareness, Energy Connection, GAYA, Honoring Intention, Life and Living, Life's Impressions, Living in the NOW, Love, Self-Realization

I awake and it is ‘Today’, and if I live through the night, I awaken to another Today, and so it goes.  I guess there really is no time.  We put it into segments to be orderly for work hours, we separate night and day and we have created weeks and months and years.   We age ourselves from our birth dates, and in our early years of development we monitor such development by standard, and in our later years we monitor our decline, again by standard.

I spent every New Year’s Eve for more decades than I can count monitoring my past year’s accomplishments and then fast-forwarding 10, then 5 (as I aged) years ahead  semi-seriously dabbling in what I thought I might want to do in that future time space.   This was an elaborate exercise of listing things to do, looking to the future, and somehow trying to bring the dead past to life with the reminiscence of it all.   It all seemed to be so valuable to me, and none of it had to do with the PRESENT, the TODAY OF MY LIFE.

No more of this for me…I hinted last year was to be the end of this practice for me, and so it was! It’s my TODAY I breathe, touch, smell, feel, think about and do something about…My NOW!

No holding onto past accomplishments – that was then, this is NOW! No waiting for a set of circumstances to be perfectly in place before doing something.  It’s called strike while the iron is hot!  Our heart has a perfect way of letting us know when we want to do something.  It’s our mind that starts doing the calculating, provisioning, and conventionalizing our heart’s desire, until we finally can’t see where to begin…it becomes a downer instead of a motivated wonderful dream intention which our heart brought forward for us to act upon in the first place.

I have all I can do to take care of my own business and stay out of that of others; it’s the same about working with each  TODAY I’ve been given.  It requires devotion to myself, love of myself, filling each moment I am  breathing with an attitude of well-being, recognizing my gratitude and Blessings and my own POWER TO MAKE MY LIFE BETTER  during EACH DAY!  There isn’t much more time for anything else that I can do anything about.  The future isn’t in my grasp until it is TODAY.

I’m feeling wonderful about this shift in my thinking.  It falls into perfect place with my view on aging too.  As I’ve said before, I have no end game. My life IS, until it ISN’T, and when that happens, it will be ‘a TODAY’.

HAPPY NEW DAY EVERYONE!   Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

 

 

 

 

Serenity, Courage, Wisdom and Gratitude, Faith in Intention, and Acceptance

December 15, 2018 / / GAYA, Honoring Intention, Humility, It's all in the Energy, Love, Peace and Understanding, Self-Realization, True Forgiveness and Understanding

People say, “Wake up!”, or “They just haven’t awakened”, or “They haven’t seen the light”, or whatever.  In a way, isn’t this a demeaning, dismissing way of viewing others, if one thinks ‘they have‘!  To me this rather sounds like “I’m here, you’re there, I outrank you, but you’ll get there someday, but until that time, I’m of a higher echelon group, a bit more elevated, I’ve ‘attained’, but I can ‘help you if you listen to me’, but I love you just the same.”  I guess when one can say these things, and write words around them, one believes them.

I’ve spent nearly four years publicly excavating myself to authenticity right to this moment.  In looking back, this was actually the beginning of my  intentional living and practicing my spirituality as I have been working with it.

I have had a constant thread intention of wanting to rid myself of as much Karmic Debt as I can before I take a hike!  So, what exactly does this mean to me?  When I have these ‘itchy, gut triggers’ which spontaneously erupt, I figure this is a sign to ‘get at it’.  BUT, BIGGER THAN THIS is the constant rub I have with certain loved ones  which doesn’t go away.  I know we’re together for a reason – more than the ‘family/friendship thing’ – and for a couple of years I’ve been pretty clear that there’s some healing to be done!  Frankly, I don’t want to have to get into this stuff in another life if I can help it!

I learned a while back I’m the one who has to see things differently, I’m the one who has to get things to be as I want them to be right in front of me, and I’m the only one who has to keep switching up the lenses until I see what is actually there, not what I think is actually there!  What this turns out to be is the Art of Loving as I’ve come to feel it.  I’m not here to be teaching others – except by example, of course, but I am here to teach myself.   This loving is all-inclusive, beginning with me, then reaching out to all around me.  The responsibility is always on me first, loving myself first, so I already have within myself that intention of creating the peace and understanding and compassion and kindness and thoughtfulness toward another. When I am able to extend myself like this, I have struck the chords within me that prove to be enlightening and I get personal awareness of my successful achievement of having  found my goal of understanding what I’ve needed to learn.  Nothing can be achieved without self-honesty.  There’s no proving anything to myself; there is the opening up of my real self to Me and then there is what I will call pure understanding and light.  It is an amazing experience and I’ve just spent a full week in this Grace of Life.

When one understands the soul-connection one has with the Whole of Everything, it is the heart-consciousness meld experiencing the joy and happiness and fulfillment of all the heart’s wishes which are nothing but the extreme love of Self and the extension of that love to all others.   ~Gaya

What I have just written has come from a very deep place within me.  It’s from the Soul Knowledge Treasure, perhaps.  It’s a beautiful pearl which I have found in my World Oyster. 

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

 

 

 

I Am My Own Ripple Effect!

December 2, 2018 / / Conscious Awareness, GAYA, It's all in the Energy, Life and Living, Peace and Understanding, Self-Realization

When I come here, I’m travelling in my small world.  I’m working with my NOW, as Life appears in front of me.  I guess I receive my own “Liferays”!  I do believe I am connected to ALL THERE IS.

Last evening, I learned from the well-known spiritualist, Ram Dass, about a quiet meditation with nothing more than a repetition of  the mantra “I Am Loving Awareness”.  Initially these words come from the brain and then I move my experience slowly to my ‘spiritual heart’…continuing to silently repeat the mantra, waiting for another door to open to an expanded place of awareness.   I was reminded that Loving Awareness is loving everything I am aware of.

This is remarkable to me because I often say out loud, “I love this”, when I’m doing stuff around the house.  Whatever the eyes rest on, or whatever warm feeling I have inside, there is that added space of awareness where I audibly acknowledge ‘I love it’! Believing everything is part of me, it follows IF I LOVE MYSELF, I LOVE EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE AROUND ME AS WELL.

This is no ‘arrival’ for Kaye, but rather a new door which is opening in her personal journey.  We welcome her search and meet her with support and guidance which is exactly what she invites.  What is wanted and needed is what we provide to ALL who ask.       ~Gaya

I find it fitting that I have apparently entered a new phase of understanding and I look forward with excitement to what will present.  This business of living in the NOW continues to amaze me.  Yesterday, I wasn’t thinking like I am today!  Nothing stays the same.  Life is an exploration of thoughts and things we do, who we think we are, who we think we want to be, what we think we like, what we decide to discard…I guess we are in a movie, and may as well sit back and take it all in.

It makes so much more sense now when I remarked  a while back I didn’t think I would be continuing my New Year’s Eve “encounter with my life”.  Thoughts change, things change, life changes, and I’m changing right along with it.  Changing for the better, I’d say!

A new second, minute, hour, day, month, and soon, new year.  Time begins to mean less and less.  ‘It’s’ IT!  What ‘Is’, IS!…but FOR NOW.   I’m learning to savor it ALL in its time.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

 

FACE IT!

October 26, 2018 / / "Going for It", Energy Connection, Faith and Trust, GAYA, Life and Living, Peace and Understanding, Self-Realization

What’s in a face?  Why save face?  Why put on a happy face?  Face forward! Why use make-up to cover up the face?  There is nothing wrong with the REAL FACE!

A while back, in another exercise toward authenticity,  I was determined to strip away whatever labels I had attached to myself:  I went to a gym to strength train; I walked a mile in 18 minutes; I kept my weight pretty strictly between 130-132 pounds (and was proud of it!).  ALL…drum roll please…at the age of 78-80!  This was my picture of Kaye…I prided myself in it.  I had convinced myself this was part of the REAL ME!  “How Great Thou Art, Kaye”!

I’m getting better at recognizing when my  prideful EGO slivers into my consciousness and it is much easier to recognize and peel off  “that face, that face, that beautiful face”, and idle back to the ME that is  JUST ME!..The perfectly imperfect ME… the ME that I smile at every morning in the mirror  with fond recognition.  It’s more than  good enough for me, and that’s all that counts!

Facing facts  as I relax into my ‘easy peasey’ comfortable-with-ME space, I find I am far less concerned about what others are up to!  Everyone else can figure out their own stuff. It’s my peace I care about and my awareness that I’m continuously gaining because I do care more about me and love me more than anyone else.  I can be authentic around anyone, whether or not they are authentic with me.

Kaye has figured out that beneath ‘it all’, rests everything that is sweet and comfortable in her privilege of living her life to the fullest, and she knows it isn’t fancy, or loud or flashy, it is more on the mundane side of things because there is so much joy and happiness that extends to everything around and within her.  She has figured out that there is nothing specific that makes her happy.   She is happy for happiness’ sake.    ~Gaya. 

There is no question, I am working with another aspect of living in the NOW with myself.  I am more serious about what I have inside of me that must come out.  This isn’t necessarily about peeling my onion as much as it is about my Spiritual Nature, my Soul Self, my Higher Self.  I believe I have a Personal Emotional Guidance System and my consciousness wants a deeper connection to it.  I now have a sense that my innate ‘independent nature’ may well be that very System that has always been a part of my character.  I am on untread ground.  I am turning an unfamiliar corner far deeper within.  These aren’t answers carved in stone. This is how I pursue unanswered questions, as I stay interested and open waiting for answers.  ASK and I shall RECEIVE.

ABOUT FACE!!  BACK TO MY SPIRITUAL QUESTING!!

 

 

 

 

 

Perception…Reality! It’s all mine!!

October 19, 2018 / / Energy Connection, Faith and Trust, GAYA, I AM WHO I AM, Peace and Understanding, Self-Realization, Truth to Self

I will not allow my Joy to be snuffed by others’ actions! I will not allow my state of Beingness to be maligned by words from others’ mouths!  I am whole and complete…I am totally perfect at Essence, and I have been in the process of transformation since I became!

Yes, I am in perpetual  transformation, filtering information that comes to me through ‘intended sources’ which at perfect timing resonates with me, and I then begin to understand and integrate it into my whole SELF.

At 81+ years old, I am still at the tip of the proverbial iceberg. Slowly but surely I am melting into myself and I am seeing with more clarity.

Just what is it that stirs me..opening up my brain to see a little more of who I am?  Is it “Spirit” moving me?  Is it Source Energy…my Gaya…that finds a crevice to enter so I can see that bit more light that provides more answers?  I come to believe this day that I don’t have to name it! I just have to be aware that IT IS!  I believe because I feel the impact within,  I know I AM IN TOUCH WITH WHAT IS! 

I know there is much more and my unquenchable thirst thrusts me forward in my search…a Spiritual Addiction..meaningful only to me…slicing through me, letting all the air out of the balloon veils releasing and freeing me from the shackles of others’ dictates and judgments of who I am; my self-talk that restricts me from accepting I am made in the likeness of God, Source Energy, My Creator, The Universe...ALL THAT IS! 

Somehow, it  now seems so simple to be able to entertain this as truth, instead of holding on to all the other stuff that is negative and hurtful to me…which my EGO would have me do.  Yes, it is the EGO endlessly trying to devalue and foil me…it is EGO-PURPOSE.

I will be more conscious to enforce and reinforce my Essential Goodness.  My transformation will continue as I remind myself of my Spiritual Composition:  Love and Light.

It is in the awareness that transformation takes place.  There is a countenance of  internal understanding that pervades  and rests easy inside you, Kaye.  You have found, yet again, another piece of your ‘knowledge puzzle’.           ~Gaya

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

Think a little here…Think a little there…SEE A LOT!

October 10, 2018 / / GAYA, Life and Living, Living in the NOW, Peace and Understanding, Self-Realization, Truth to Self

Today I am coming face forward to something that I admit to myself I started as a seed thought well over a year ago!

What am I saying?  I’m trying to explain that I am witnessing the dynamic of just how the mind creates what it wants to see…and as long as that initial seed thought is there and germinating, the ‘workings from Source Energy’ are continuing toward the manifestation of this thought.

I can’t explain why I originated that seed thought…and believe me, I am honest with myself that I did, indeed, originate it!  It must be something from another life, is all I think it could be.  After all, when something or someone appears in our life…something or someone I have never known before in this life…there is a ‘lesson’ that is presenting to me.  Yes, a lesson is coming,  and I already know, it is my own integrity and honor and depth of character that is being tested.  I WILL MAKE IT!!!

No, Kaye, this is not from another life.  This is Your Essence bringing an experience to work through yet another lesson which needs to be dealt with, once and for all.  It is You, Kaye,  who has the propensity  either to ‘fall short’…or, as you say, “I will make it!!!”  You are acting out your own movie within the movie of this life and as We see, You are working through it successfully.   ~   Gaya

What a wonderment this blog has turned out to be for me!  I am the one who sits on my own shoulder monitoring carefully what goes on with me!  Call it Conscience or Wisdom or Character or Integrity or Honor or Truth to Self.  Yes, it’s Truth to Self.  

Little did I know when I began this journey of transformation  July 4, 2015, when Liferays.net was originated, what was in store for me.  Thankfully, I  have tried to come from my heart and in honesty the best I know how.  

Living in the NOW requires mindfulness and sincerity of purpose.  I have known this all along.  To be mindful means I have had to slow down…observe, not only my thoughts, but also that which presents to me.  Today’s awareness is an Acme of personal awareness.  It’s like I’m extinguishing a part of me…it’s letting go of something that I have been capable of doing which has never served me well.   As I write these very words, I feel extremely powerful in saying NO!  I WILL NOT GO DOWN THIS ROAD  AGAIN!  

I realize this may read as an unsolved mystery, but believe me, Another of My Mysteries Has Been Solved!  Another mask has been pulled off!   HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

THIS IS [MY] LIFE FOR YA’!

September 16, 2018 / / Consistency and Consideration, Honoring Intention, It's all in the Energy, Life and Living, Living in the NOW, Peace and Understanding, Self-fulfillment, Self-Realization, Truth to Self

I love my introspection, my considerations and my resilience!  I love my tenacity, my good intentions, my ability to objectively  criticize myself without bringing me to my knees of low self-worth.  I love it when finally I don’t have my first knee-jerk reaction of defensiveness; that I can listen, evaluate, and give myself time to assess a situation.  It’s the Peace in it that allows me to move ahead, with a much clearer head! 

Isn’t it interesting that she is now able to write out loud , as she has already been thinking out loud?  It is good she is feeling so comfortable with herself knowing she is opening the gates of Connection to her Source even wider.          ~Gaya

The first descriptive word I used above is Introspection.  I am finding when I have no anxiety or rush to anything,  I am able to just ‘sit with something’ while I figure out the wrinkle I want to iron out.  The ‘answers’ reveal themselves for Consideration.  

In the past, and  up to relatively recently,  I always created an urgency to get to the bottom of something…seeking closure.  It was like I forced myself to wrap it up ..get it out of my thoughts…and move on.   My marriages and divorces are good examples here.  In retrospect, I think this is what created even more chaos in my life! Nothing is so urgent, except if  a person needs to get to the hospital for immediate medical care!

I am much easier on myself these days (and years). I like the feeling of moseying along, picking up on my own innuendos  – taking to heart what presents and how I am triggered by it.  Still, there’s no need for urgency, just an indicator that I know I want to make a change, or  tweak something I’m doing with my Life.  I think life is simple if I keep it simple.  It is as simple as that! 

It is good to take on new experiences just for the sake of that experience.  The only commitment necessary is to honor the intention of taking on that experience.  EGO can destroy good intention.

The expression, “Take your good old-fashioned time” makes better sense to me now more than ever before.  What’s the rush to most things…there’s no fire!

I am always finding My Way Along My Forever Path. 

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

 

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