218 posts by Kaye

Love is Of Itself.

June 7, 2019 / / Conscious Awareness, Energy Connection, GAYA, Grace, Honoring Intention, Humility, It's all in the Energy, Peace and Understanding, Self-fulfillment, Source Energy

Life can be such a hustle-bustle sometimes!  As a ‘woman of years in the “Middle” of my life’, I keep trying to see the beauty, the good, the remarkable, the peaceful, the joyful side of life…it’s what keeps me keeping on!  I’m a proponent of The Law of Attraction, and I make conscious effort to keep  my innermost Self  connected to Source Energy.  I believe  the energy that comes from me is exactly the energy which will be returned to me in life experience.

On any given day, I awaken to the NOW, and usually,  the day unfolds happily to moments of fruitful labor around my house, or from other intentional activities.  I entertain light-hearted loving thoughts.  I forget that my love to others is the greatest gift I can give.  The more unconditional it is, the more powerful it is as it leaves me and finds its way to someone else.  It’s not even a deliberate action by me…it is by nature an extension of me.  I’m not even aware of the many different displays that my love shows.  It just happens when it happens and all is well, until there’s a disruption…a backlash…a crashing sound to my beingness that hurts!  Oh, does it hurt!  Of course, I dig deep into my thoughts wondering how this can happen when essentially I know my intentions are good.

Love displays differently…from a smile, to  any number of simple kind actions – even a spontaneous gift.  When we display our  love to our dearest ones, it is that deep-love connection that kindles our feelings in warm and sincere ways, and there’s no telling how it manifests its goodness.  How, then, can such a selfless action result in hurt?

I’ve come to now believe when I give love it is the giving of Essential Self and there can be no room for hurt or disappointment.  It is when I make it personal, I feel hurt.  But love isn’t personal…it just IS.  It is our natural, essential state of being.   Said a different way:  a person needs money, and I ask “how much do you need?”  The person answers “twenty-five dollars will do”, and I respond, “take fifty, just in case.”   All in good will. All from the heart.  All in the name of love. I have it to give. If it is paid back, this is good.  If it is not, it is still good.

When a person means well, and in good heart acts accordingly, this intention is love.  What the recipient does with a loving gift need not concern  the giver.       ~Gaya 

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

ABUNDANCE = PLENTY

May 20, 2019 / / Conscious Awareness, Energy Connection, Faith and Trust, GAYA, Grace, Humility, Mindfulness, Peace and Understanding, Source Energy

Need More?  No I have plenty.

I was musing the word “abundance” the other day, and it is such a big word!  In my mind’s eye I see overflowing…every thing in every way!  We’ve seen the grand cornucopia with foods of every variety flowing outward.  We see homes that are really mansions, in which the staff to keep them up far outnumber the owners.  Collectors display garages full, rooms full, wine cellars full.  All this, and more, is Abundance.

There are those who have aged gracefully who have an aura about them of peace and tranquility, of appreciation for their stage of life and what they have accomplished, and these same ones are in touch with their health which allows them to enjoy their privilege of living the life they have been given.  This is Abundance.

There is the family, young or old, which celebrates reunions and holidays and all togetherness with the extension of that family, with exuberance and joy and gratitude and love, and this fabulous connection has nothing to do with where they live, how much money they have, or even how much food they have in their pantry.  It has to do with the heart of it all.  This is Abundance.

There are those in life who have no living family, few friends, live meagerly, and look forward to every day, in full appreciation of the ‘nature of it all’…they notice the ‘little things’…they’re grateful for the warmth of the sun, the flowers that bloom, the smiles on others’ faces, their ability to get where they have to go.  They take each day as it comes and at the end of each, they are satisfied.  This is Abundance.

I’ve stated all the time we have is all the time we need.  Now I ponder the word “satisfied”.  I’m sitting in my own home, typing on my own computer, fully clothed, looking forward to breakfast, listening to the wind chimes from the sweet breeze outside.  My doors and windows are open and here, it is the latter part of May, in Arizona.  The temperature is a bit chilly!  There is nothing but ‘good’ around me…and I feel ‘good’ within me too.  I like the feeling of ‘enough’.  I muse now, why do I keep looking for another brass ring to grasp?  Perhaps, it has more to do with ‘filling in the gaps’ of awareness and bringing myself even more joy and happiness than I already express with my gratitude for each and every day.

Well, whatever it is, I don’t ever want to lose sight of the peace I know when I can truly say, I have more than enough right now, I live an extraordinarily abundant life right now, I am so grateful for the Blessings and Grace that have been bestowed upon me and my son, and I humbly say “Thank You”.

      We’ve enjoyed this interaction in this silence.  We concur, keep on keeping on!    ~Gaya

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

 

 

 

 

 

Life Is All My Perspective – Instructions to Self

April 22, 2019 / / GAYA, Honoring Intention, It's all in the Energy, Living in the NOW, Mindfulness, Self-Consciousness

It’s  a Monday, first day of 365 of  a work week of 52, in a month of 12, which makes up a year… all keeping up with time I claim doesn’t really exist!  I even entitled a chapter in my second book, The Book of Kaye (I AM), “All the time we have is all the time we need.”

This almost sounds like a riddle.  We take time out of our days to do something else, we stretch time to finish a project, we keep track of time as a measure of fulfillment  (baking a cake, finishing college, reaching scheduled appointments, etc.), we regret wasting time, and  yet, we claim we never have enough time.  For something that I claim doesn’t exist in space, I’m using time right now to express myself.

I sit here drinking my ginger-lemon tea, not knowing exactly what’s coming up for my ‘day fill’, and already I can sense I’m wondering about it.  Why wonder?  I live in the NOW!  I’m drinking tea NOW so there’s no going beyond that!  Furthermore, I’m writing a blog about it, so that’s about all of  the ‘NOW’ IN THIS ‘TIME’ I can handle!

And, what about rushing  around ” like a chicken with it’s head cut off”, or multi-tasking,  and all those birds we try to kill with one stone?

No wonder we have phrases like “Stop and smell the roses”, or “Slow down”, “Easy does it”,  “Savor the moment”, and so many more.

When all is said and done, I’m the one who is doing all of this to myself.  It’s for my pleasure I guess…something in my thoughts is giving me the ‘rule’ or the ‘direction’.  Now, I am reminded I recently mentioned in a live stream I was becoming more self-conscious because I was more aware of my thoughts and intentions. This is exactly why I am writing this blog.  To open myself  to more insight and shed more light upon my darkened corners.

I want to enjoy the privilege of living my life with as much peace and joy and thrill as possible.  With this in mind, I want to lose track of time altogether and pull myself inward to the awareness of really ‘being in the moment of the doing’. If I don’t get to it…So What?  All the more reason to Savor what I am into.

   Cherish every single moment as the most important. 

You don’t have to figure out anything more beyond this.  ~Gaya

 

I Choose The Swings!

April 13, 2019 / / Conscious Awareness, Energy Connection, GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, Love

It surely is time well spent sitting in the silence of mediation for 15 minutes or so.  I suspend away from thoughts and drift into a space of nothing and everything  and somehow I allow myself to be reached from the beyond, my Gaya, Source Energy,  and when I ‘return’,  the phrase I coined many years ago comes to mind.  “Everything is as unimportant as it is important”.

I’m sitting in this ‘glow’ right now and it feels so wonderful not being tumbled into anything…just sitting in the inclusion of ALL.    Why would I want to stir up things around me?  I am a sentient being and aware when I am disrupting…reacting…feeling the touch of dis-ease within my beingness.  I allow myself to be in tune when I am calm and not restless.  I can feel the difference when I deliberately tune out and away when activity outside of me is not serving me.  I don’t need to have an energetic judgment thought, I can simply weave myself away and out of reach to stay in my peace.

I am feeling gratitude for the realization that I am a part of something far larger than my day-to-day activity or preoccupation with living my life.  I’m on the fringe of beginning to understand that LIFE is pure experience to be hallowed.   I am a life transmitter!  There are dictates inside of me that are always sparking.  My Higher Self thrills when I step beyond thought and planning and move into the doing of life.  This is beyond attitude or a state of mind.  This is making my own way through the ease and grace of living life to my fullest joy and elation with new awareness and understanding of where I am intending to go.  The feeling is like when I was a child and went on the swing.  I could pump myself higher and higher and pretty soon I would be swinging so high it was scary but so exhilarating too….and it was I who controlled it all.  

What a wonderful state of Being.

Enjoy!    ~Gaya

I AM NOT ALONE…EVER!

April 9, 2019 / / GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, Honoring Intention, Self-fulfillment, Self-Realization, Source Energy

I have provided pretty good company for myself all these many years.  I guess living alone means different things to different people.  When parents experience the ’empty nest’ syndrome when children leave home for college or marriage, or whatever else, ofttimes they suffer this ‘loss’ for a time.  I don’t recall feeling this way, but I do feel the ‘loss’ when I have had house guests and when they leave, I experience a letdown which I combat by stripping the bed linens and bringing my house back to ‘my order of things’.  Tomorrow I’m going to be doing just this when my Sister in Heart returns to her home in Spain.  My son left this morning after a near-eight-week-stay…longest I can ever remember.

I’m in my silence now until I retrieve my ‘Sister’  this afternoon from her return off a jaunt she took while here.  We have this evening left together.

I feel it!  There is no undertone of company, except the dog and cat.  There are no echoes of loneliness either. The beginning of the memories are lodged and will fulfill themselves when I kiss my Sister goodbye tomorrow. This is all I know in this NOW.

I was encouraged by a guided meditation of Deepak Chopra this morning:  “Every day my Being seeks new ways to expand.”  This is exactly what I have been feeling.  I guess this is how I keep my good company with myself too.  Gaya, my non-physical friends, and I are in cahoots!  I am provided the fodder for my activities which in turn nurtures me, fulfills me, encourages and supports me, inspires me, loves me, and helps me to keep on keeping on.  Coincidentally, I can only do this alone and unassisted. In this awareness, I am being guided by this loving presence…my Source, my Guidance System…which is focused on me and, of course, on all others.  This awareness is the catalyst to my connection – my immersion with ALL.  There are no limits or boundaries.

In conclusion, I have been renewed in spirit by my son’s presence, and I have been filled and fulfilled by my Sister’s loving visit.  What wonderful blessings have been bestowed upon me.

Kaye’s intention supported this experience.  

Her consciousness of our forever-presence

perpetuates the flow of her joy, happiness and peace.   ~Gaya

 

 

 

WHEN I RESIST, I AM MAKING A JUDGMENT CALL AND THE WALLS CAN’T TUMBLE DOWN!

April 4, 2019 / / GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, It's all in the Energy, Life and Living, Mindfulness, Peace and Understanding, Self-Realization

There’s nothing like dusting off and shining up a glass-topped table!  It comes to me that this is not unlike clarifying my thoughts or experiences as I continue to pick up some pieces of my long life and drop off as many others as I can, fully knowing they don’t serve me anymore.

I work with wanting as much Peace in my life as possible, and to get this Peace, I must travel the same roads that caused the chaos and dis-ease within me.  I’ve had to acknowledge that my reactions to the myriad series of events in my life are exactly the driving force which bring about outcomes and these outcomes remain ‘alive and in play’ as I move along my Forever Path.

Let’s get down to the nitty-gritty here!!!  If I’m in a happy state, I have no resistance to Happiness…I am essentially at Peace and I like what goes on within me and around me as well.   However, when I decide/judge or predict some negative conditions are looming, I stiffen up and ‘prepare’ for the onslaught of what I alone have predetermined to be adversarial to me!   The War Is On!

All the more reason to be mindful of letting life BE  and be very mindful of keeping myself out of the fray of it all...being the observer not the participant of what happens around me, and not allowing it to happen TO me!  I am the puppeteer, and the puppet…I am the ventriloquist and the dummy!  If I stay within my Soul Beingness as much as a conscious human being can accomplish this, I can place myself in a Peaceful State AROUND and not IN a chaotic circumstance.  It turns out Soul Business is key and it overrides Ego Business if I am mindful to this to the best of my ability.

It is a wonderful Forever Path that ALL choose

when they hold up Gratitude and Generosity of  Spirit Heart

and reap the Abundance and Grace which is awaiting them.    ~Gaya.

An “Ah Ha” Moment is One Thing… a BREAKTHROUGH is Quite Another!

March 28, 2019 / / GAYA, Grace, Gratitude, Honoring Intention, Living in the NOW, Love, Peace and Understanding

I had occasion this morning to respond to a piece on Facebook.   My friend, whom I gave tribute to in my third book, writes through his personal spiritual connection, Rachael.  He was referring to “clarity” and its meaning in our daily lives.  I automatically typed my response.  It was Gaya responding. I knew I was having a personal Spiritual Breakthrough which finally had made its way to my conscious awareness.  IT’S HUGE!

I quote my response below in its entirety.  The design of this message has utterly opened a door for me that will undoubtedly  continue to re-play in my every day.  It totally expresses the Ease and Grace which I’ve been continuously looking to achieve as I enjoy the privilege of living my life.  It brings to the surface  how easy Life really can be, merely opening up each day with what we have inside of us:  we have an internal zest to thrive in life.  That is precisely why we keep on keeping on. But, in my case, if I don’t keep track of my efforts, and how they relate to my intentions of each day, it ultimately becomes a mish-mash of events…not the tightly woven masterpiece of what I’m really trying to accomplish.

  • “Kaye has been readying for her house guest’s arrival 4/1. This has been going on for some time now. She has been ‘preparing’ for it differently, i.e., doing a little something each day (thinking she tires more easily and doesn’t want to leave it all to the last week!) She realizes now that this really coincides with Rachael’s words, in that her clarity has been intention with completing tasks during each of these upcoming days. She has been choosing ‘details’ over and above the common ones, of floor and window washing, etc. She realizes every action is but a preparation for NOW – whether or not there is a guest arriving in a few days. Kaye is arriving each moment to her life.     ~Gaya”

I am now convinced my Soul, my Universe, my Source Energy, my Gaya, has held me with a tight grasp of love and care since I became; that I have been heard all of my existence, and have been guided and protected as I have made my way on my countless journeys, to exactly NOW.  I trust this will be infinitely so.

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

There is No Cross to Bear! It May Be A Huge Lesson to be Learned!

March 15, 2019 / / Energy Connection, Faith and Trust, GAYA, Life and Living, Peace and Understanding

My upbringing was religious in the sense my maternal grandfather was a minister, after all, in the Missouri Synod Lutheran Church.  I recall in conversations, whether in my immediate family or among others in our extended family,  the phrase  “cross to bear” was used,  referring to someone who had an extraordinary burden in life.

As happens with me, I get thoughts which cross my mind, and if the same thought crosses more than twice,  I begin to think I’m being signaled to some kind of awareness.  This is one of those instances.  I’m coming to believe that none of us has a ‘Cross to Bear’…an extraordinary burden in life which we may interpret as ‘a test’ or ‘a punishment’.  Instead, based on my own life, I think this ‘burden’ may be the accentuation of a very important lesson I came to this planet to learn, and until I get it (hopefully, so I don’t have to carry it over into future lives),  I’ll be dealing with it somehow some way until I’m ready to open up to it!

Using this aforementioned theory, I am now beginning to meditate and work with this probability. Information is coming forward to me and ‘The Soul Plan’ is becoming more clear.  I have to say, it’s interesting – rather like negotiating a maze, or solving a riddle. I want to reach the solution and I know that because I have taken this fork in my road, I am on my right trail.  To my way of thinking it has to be a connection from past lives and some loose ends need to be tied up, once and for all.  I’m confident that my intention will reveal yet another awareness and allow me even greater Peace.  I feel I am on the brink of something wonderful that will truly expand my Soul…my Conscious Awareness…my Wholeness.

Keep those doors and windows open, Kaye.  We’re always ready to help!   ~Gaya

 

Of course! Who Wouldn’t?!

March 11, 2019 / / Conscious Awareness, Consistency with consideration, GAYA, Gratitude, Honoring Intention, Humility, Life and Living, Love, Manifesting our goals and dreams, Mindfulness, Peace and Understanding

Of course, I love sincere Compliments!  Of course, I love to be Missed!  Of course, I love being Welcomed into a room!  Of course, I love it when someone mentions they enjoy being Around me!  Of course!  Of course!  Of course!  Don’t we all love being on the receiving end!  But, clearly there’s more to living a life as a receiver, and that goes for all the BS we hear and receive and take into our being…some may be directed to us, some is peripheral noise that swirls around us, whether we’re at work, play, shopping, even conversing with someone else.

Mahatma Gandhi famously said, “You must be the change you want to see in the world.” This says it!  This means I am in that driver’s seat all of the time.  Being the change in my own world!  When I deem there are changes I want to see in my own world, it is the very beginning of my own Peace and Happiness.  When I am in Peace and am Happy, everything around me takes on being ‘well with the world’ at large because I am making my own difference.

We know happiness comes only from within.  We also know when one is complaining it is the signal that there is unhappiness from within being projected outward.  Doesn’t it make common sense, then, when I concentrate on my own happiness and self-fulfillment I give out this same countenance and, therefore, this fabulous energy spreads to everyone and everything around me.  To my view, yes it does!

No getting around it, we still have to be sweeping our own front doors all of the time.  There is never an extra moment we have to be concerned of what another person is up to, except when we perceive someone is hurting in some way and if we are in a position to give a kindness, we must give it.  This fills us up too.  Our actions do speak louder than words…and is it our Ego straining to receive, and are our actions demonstrative of what we are entertaining for our own welfare?

We need to gather ’round our own flagpoles that celebrate our existence on this planet.  We need to operate with gratitude all of the time for our very breath.  There wouldn’t be time nor inclination to be tearing down someone else, making note of the differences instead of our similarities, if we were much more conscious where our own behavior is taking us.  It comes to my mind, this is truly selfish when we always have to be satisfying our own ego needs.  Instead, ought we not be thinking how to satisfy our own love needs? Ego satisfaction is fleeting and never satisfied.  Love is permanent, and the gestures made in the name of love are enduring in all times.  Again, it starts with Self.  Yes, I want to BE the change in MYSELF FIRST.

I’ve come full circle now with the help of Gandhi.  I do want to be the change I want to see in my world.  I belong to it, and all that live in it too.  As long as I have an attitude of Hope and Willingness to Change something in my own small world, I am automatically making a positive difference to my World at Large.

We are in harmony when vision expresses itself through awareness.   ~ Gaya

 

 

Gratitude is a HUGE Word.

March 9, 2019 / / Conscious Awareness, Energy Connection, Faith and Trust, GAYA, Gratitude, Self-Realization

I’ve been digging real deep during this writing…digging toward my center of what real gratitude is all about.

Of course, on the surface, I am grateful I haven’t gotten cancer or any other severe, perhaps terminal, illness.  I am grateful that I accomplished the things I have accomplished.  I am grateful for my two sons.  I am grateful I continue to have the strength to overcome some of the series of events that have appeared throughout my lifetime and I am grateful I continue to enjoy the privilege of living my life with increasing peace and awareness.

BUT, when it comes to the ‘rubs’ in the road…the serious things that ofttimes keep me up at night…how much gratitude do I have for them?  This is the very point of this blog:  To write this out so I can see it in black and white and evaluate what I believe in relation to what I’m living.  To say this another way, “When Life is a Bitch, and I’m being dragged down from my peaceful spot, am I feeling my gratitude then?  Well, I believe I ought to be…I believe I ought to consider that everything that is put in front of me that causes me upset to whatever degree or another is put there as a lesson for me to learn and grow.  I believe when I feel the pinch, I am in it for the ‘inch’ of Faith I have to hold on to; that I might well take the deep breaths or two, settle back, evaluate and review the circumstances, and begin to come up with some operable answers to get on with this continued privilege of living a more fulfilled life of gratitude as I enjoy this privilege.  THIS IS GRATITUDE IN AND OF ITSELF:  Enjoying the privilege….enjoying everything that I have at all moments of my life…in all of my NOWS!

When I do this kind of digging, I try very hard to come from my Essential Self, My Soul, My Higher Self, and I get almost ‘heady’ about it.  After all, I am the observer now, and I can begin to witness the growth I am making as I work myself through whatever difficulty I’m living, and I can feel my progress.  I am not dealing with this repetitive situation as I have in the past.  I  am now grateful for my understanding.  It is I who now feels more peaceful with this new understanding.  I have neutralized the situation by newfound understanding. I have been able to place the turmoil outside of concern and replace it with a new countenance of gratitude for my understanding.

There most definitely is a huge picture to my life…not my human existence, but my Soul Life.

You might call this a Soul Breakthrough…a conscious awareness of what your ‘huge picture to [my] life’ really is, Kaye.  Peace accompanies understanding.  Gratitude brings with it Grace.  ~Gaya

Blessed Be.  To All Be Blessed.

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